Alcohol. That's what she needed. She could feel her bones shaking and her energy depleting quickly. There wasn't much that she wanted to do at this point, just drink. Drink and go back to Tommy's apartment. No. No, Jude, focus. She commanded herself, rolling her eyes as she sat on the curb outside G Major. She still wasn't sure if she was going to take Tommy up on his offer of staying with him. Sure, it was nice in theory, but she didn't want him to think that she was a lovestruck little girl with unrealistic fantasies that were clouding her judgement.
She fished her phone out of her pocket and dialed Sadie's number, a knot forming in her stomach. It wasn't a very far walk back to the house they shared, but she was scared to just show up there. She held the phone up to her ear and listened to the ringing. On the third shrill ring, Sadie picked up the phone, and Jude smiled.
"Little girl lost?" Sadie asked, her voice tired and strained. Jude could tell that she wanted to cry. Her voice always got like that when she was about to cry. Jude bit her lip and looked around.
"Sadie? I...I wanna come home." She mumbled, her voice catching in her throat. She never would have thought that she would say those words, but she had. The disbelief that was racing through her mind was astounding. She felt so lost and alone. She and Sadie had once been close, when they drifted apart, she felt like her whole world, whole support system, had imploded, leaving her in the middle of nothingness. An empty place that she couldn't pull herself out of.
"Are you sure, Jude?" No, of course she wasn't sure. Jude never did anything planned. Her whole life was centered around impulses and acting on them. She had never once planned out something, never been sure of anything.
"Please come get me." Jude said. Her voice was barely above a whisper and she wanted to cry, but when Sadie agreed, she found her tears drying up before they even started. She hung up the phone with a smile on her face and waited, watching as the cars passed by, checking to see if the next one would be Sadie.