AN: So I've recently started watching Queer as Folk and of course, I'm in love with Brian and Justin. I'm only up to episode 2x10 so I don't know very much about what is going to happen with them but I'm anxious to find out!

This is just something I thought of while watching episode 2x08. I really liked that episode and I think it marked something important for this couple, although I'm not quite sure what that is yet, LOL. I might do a second chapter with Brian's thoughts but I haven't decided yet. Let me know if you would be interested in reading it! : ) Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do now own Brian or Justin!

Standing on the balcony at Babylon next to Brian, staring out over dozens of dancing guys made me realize something. I didn't want to be here. I'd rather be down there dancing against Brian or at home being fucked by him…not here looking for the next quick fuck.

I glanced over at Brian whose eyes had not left the dance floor. His brow was furrowed in concentration. Probably sizing up his next trick, I thought bitterly.

He'd barely said a word to me tonight but I wasn't all that surprised. He was probably still pissed about me kissing that guy. I know I broke the rules but it wasn't something I had wanted or set out to do. I had just taken the guy's virginity! I know how freaked he must have been, I've been there…not that Brian cared about that.

"So many men, so little body hair." Brian said into my ear, interrupting my thoughts.

I paused and looked on to the dance floor. "See any you like?" I asked, playing along.


I sighed. "I guess."

"You?" Brian asked.

I looked to the dance floor again. "Him," I said of no one in particular.

"He's kinda young. Let's go for it."

Brian stepped away from the balcony and grabbed my hand in his own. He started to lead me toward the stairs but I gripped his hand tighter and stopped him. I pulled Brian back to face me, never letting go of his hand.

I braced myself, "Or we could go home. Just the two of us."

Brian looked away from me and to the dance floor. I waited nervously for what he would say. I didn't want to do this anymore. I only wanted him. The only reason I agreed to this was because I don't want to lose him. And the rules were simply a way of limiting the guys he fucked, even if just a little bit.

"What about the game?" Brian asked finally.

"Fuck the game." I said.

Brian's eyes fell to my lips and he took a step closer to me, pressing our bodies together. He leaned down and captured my lips in his. I responded immediately and pressed my tongue against his lips. His lips opened and our tongues tangled together.

The relief I felt was immediate. Brian was actually going along with it. He was going to quit with the games. His arm went around my waist and mine went to the back of his neck. I played with the hair there as he pulled me, if possible, even closer.

Brian broke the kiss suddenly and I raised an eyebrow questioningly. He stared at me without blinking and said nothing. I felt his hand on my chest and when I opened my mouth to question what he was doing, he pushed me away.

I frowned and waited for him to explain but he didn't. Without saying a word, he turned and walked away. I gaped at where he had been standing but he didn't come back. Turning back to the balcony, my eyes immediately fell on Brian. He was leaning down to whisper in some guy's ear. I turned away.

I thought about going down there. I could easily pick up a guy and fuck him, as long as I was home by three, but I didn't. Instead, I made my way down the stairs and out onto the street. I headed in the direction of home.

I didn't want to play the game. Not tonight…not at all.

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