Again -I don't own Jesse.

Chapter 4.
'Entry #4,

Well..It's been,4weeks... I have an I.V now,which i guess,just make's this all the more,,.It's been,real to me for 've been doing more and more Tests on me,and they've found.. 'Something',wrong. I guess,the sh!t i've been doing while partying,causes this.I knew it did,just never thought it would happen to me.I've seen/heard people talk alot about it happening,too me,but never thought it actually might/would!.They don't know what stage I'm at,,i even have it.I hope too God,i don't..That's all for now,..

-J'.

It suck's,having to have this damned I.V stuck in my Arm!. But,i was getting used too it. Slowly,but surely. I decided to get up,and head into Amber's room. I walked in,and saw her sitting up in the Bed,reading something. I knock,and walk in. She sees me,and grins,setting down her whatever it is she was reading. I sat down in the Chair,and lean back. Amber said,

"Hey.. Whats up?". I shrugged and said,

"Not much. Bored as ?". She laughs and says,

"Same,but you get used to it". I smirk,

"Sure,you do..". She actually,laughes. We hung out for a bit,then i asked,

"So,did you write anymore?". She looks up,and shrugs. I smirk,

"Now,you're starting to act like me!". She rolls her eyes,

"Not very likely!". I said,

"Uh huh.. So,did you?". She sighes. She says,

"Kinda... Why?". I smirk,

"Because,i like your writing. May i see it?". She shakes her head,

"Nope..". I frown,

"Why not?".

"Because,you're not gonna enjoy,these...They're going to..Hurt,you". I sigh,

"Amber.. You've been the only one,whose really shown me the TRUTH!. Please?". She rolls her eyes again. She handed me her Notebook. She said,

"Its... More of a song,though..". I looked at her,

"Then... Sing it,please?". She looked at me. I said,

"Please?. I'm not gonna judge you..I'm not one,too do that". She sighes,and nods. She starts too sing,

'Maybe no one told you that there is strength in your tears.
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough you would drown

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
Screaming every step, "just stay here"

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red
From beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still'.

(A/N: I'm aware,whose song this is. For those who don't know,it's Kelly Clarkson' 'If No One Will Listen'.).