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Just a Pet
Their gold eyes burned into my skull, watching me with care and affection, I used to delude myself by thinking it was love. I know better now, it wasn't love, it was never love, they looked down at me as if I was their pet, a dog that they grew close to. I should have known better, what was I thinking? A low human couldn't possibly have found its way into their cold vampire hearts.
So here, I lay in the middle of the forest, broken hearted and a lost soul, where I have been tossed to the side as the vampire took my heart and crushed it, looking down at me with a constant, sad smile. It was the kind of smile that whispered an apology, pity, but nothing more. He left me in the middle of the forest, lost and no direction how to get back, and he smiled down at me as if he cared and that he was truly sorry that his family suddenly had grown tired of their pet. The human pet just will lie here and wait for them to come back, to admit they made a mistake and hold me in their arms again.
I tried to hold back the helpless sobs that shook my fragile body, but no one was here to listen anyway, so I cried. I cried until all of my tears dried up and I was left with nothing but the empty feeling that reassured me that I was, in fact, alone. Their eyes still looked at me with the soft caring love that was all artificial, Esme's motherly affection was fake, Emmett's brotherly act was dried up, Rosalie protective sister role was used up, Edwards caring boyfriend job was done, Jaspers gentlemen ways evaporated, Carlisle's fatherly feel was artificial, and Alice will no longer have to pretend to be the best friend she once was.
I loved them all, every single one of them. The Cullen's were the family I never had, and they left without a word, following Edward's instructions on how they would leave the weak human. They didn't even say goodbye to their human, even Alice, which hurt the most. Edward was somewhat expected, he was always controlling and manipulative, I shouldn't have fallen for his fake charm and wit. Alice on the other hand seemed sincere the entire time, learning how to cook so she could feed me at the correct times, going shopping with me, just staying at my house when I had anxiety attacks, when I had nightmares she would curl up with me on my bed and just rock me back and forth. She would hum a small tune, sweet but often sad, her voice always full of unknown sorrow. Her large golden, eyes would never leave mine, swirling with great care and love.
Maybe she knew this would happen, maybe she had secrets of her own that she hid, maybe the human is making up reasons so its breaking heart could pretend they didn't just leave her in the middle of the forest.
I miss Alice.
She doesn't miss you.
And of course Esme...she was just as unexpected as Alice.
She was sweet and loving, her eyes always glowing with motherly love, how could she had made up such a strong emotion?
She's a vampire, a cold hearted vampire, that's how.
Emmett also, he always had the big brotherly love that swirled in his eyes, always picking me up just to snuggle into me. Calling me nicknames, short kisses on the forehead, teddy bear hugs whenever I was sad. He once came to my house when Edward and I had gotten in a fight. I had asked why he didn't want me as a vampire, he had huffed and came up with a harsh answer, it would be damning my soul. I didn't think any of them were damned...especially not sweet Alice. Emmett came by and held me, rubbing my back softly while I cried into his shoulder. I remember him being so angry with Edward, swearing and pacing the room with angry eyes, eventually he calmed down and held me until I fell asleep.
When I was asleep, I thought for sure he whispered something else in my ear...something about Alice being better than Edward is.
Ridiculous, you were just a pet. Nothing more, he wouldn't care if you had died a horrid, gruesome death.
A half sob immerged from my chest, shaking my entire body, causing my heart to continue its painful breaking, sending its torment throughout my body.
Carslie, sweet loving Carslie. I love Charlie but if I was to be honest, Charlie was never a good father. He left half the time for fishing trips in which I would have to make him dinner and clean the house, how could I fit being a teenager when I acted like his mother?
Although Rosalie in the beginning was cold and harsh towards me, when I got closer to the family she eventually relaxed around me. Then when she relaxed, she became an amazing protective sister that would show such great compassion and love that it was hard to see her as cold in the first place.
I remember the first time she smiled at me. I was sitting in the family room of the Cullen mansion, Rosalie was sitting on a chair looking through a magazine. Everyone burst in the room following an angry Edward and a scared Alice. Edward yelled something unintelligent in Alice's face making her cringe, everyone was getting angry with Edward but they didn't intervene. I didn't even need to know what was going on, rage and the need to protect little Alice was so strong that I had jumped from my position on the couch and made my way past the rest of the Cullen's to place myself between Edward and Alice.
Edward was ranting on about something, yelling angry words at Alice, pointing at me sometimes then pointing at himself, his lips moving so fast that I couldn't understand what he was saying. I was so enraged at Edward for taking out his unknown rage on little sweet Alice. Therefore, when he advanced on Alice, making my sweet pixie to flinch, I wrapped my arms around her facing the beast, shielding her from the true vampire. His eyes had shown true anger at that moment, turning pitch darkness as Alice trembled in my arms, taking unneeded shaky breaths. I yelled at him with all of the strength I had, silencing each vampire in the room, creating each golden pair of eyes to widen in surprise. Edward stormed out, but I hardly cared, I just carried Alice to the couch so she could collapse onto my lap and tremble, I couldn't help but notice the soft smile that had spread onto Rosales lips, her eyes shining with pride.
I let out another broken sigh; I missed all of them, Esme, Carlise, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, and especially Alice.
I curled up into a ball on the ground, letting the tears die down into tired, exhausted hiccups. The ground was cold and hard, the soil sticking to my tear struck face, my lips felt dirt and blood that had fallen onto my lips. Edward left me bleeding on the forest floor with no phone and no sense of direction back. I could die here and now, and yet at that moment, I couldn't even care, and my heart was in to much pain to acknowledge the other pains that started to form on the other parts of my body.
I wonder if they would care, if they would even bother going to their pet's funeral. Unless no one found me to give me a funeral.
I turned my body so that I could see the gloomy sky peeking through its cover of trees, hiding from the pathetic sight of a broken human on the floor. The forest was silent, not even a bird decided to interrupt the deafening silence that echoed through this heart wrenching moment. My chestnut hair stuck to my face, strands of my hair getting clumps of dirt stuck in its messy nest of hair. I tried to breathe through my broken rasps of breath, but only small whimpers immerged from my mouth. I hate him, I hate Edward. He never cared about me, he only saw me as a social experiment. How long could the vampire stay with a fragile human without killing her? A year, a wonderful year for the human so that it could get a mother it never had a father with such kindness and care that it could soothe a wild beast, two big brothers, a sister, a best friend and the boy who took my family away.
That's not true...they left willingly. They didn't care about you. The forest started to blur as tears made their way into my vision, creating what must be an illusion.
Two electric blue eyes look at me past the trees, black pupils came out as slits as the predator advanced on the helpless human on the floor. I didn't even have the energy to scream as the large jungle cat sauntered closer to me. It barred its teeth at me, large fangs coming from the large animal.
The animal looked like a tiger, only much larger. The muscles slender and smooth, the body slim and kept a sense of perfect grace as it prowled closer to me. It had to be the size of a large horse, large, slick muscles contorted in the animal's orange colored skin, making the animal lurch towards me. Its large blue eyes dancing with amusement, it's slit like eyes becoming larger and larger as it came closer.
I just closed my eyes, waiting for the death that will come; my brain pulled me under to keep me preoccupied as the impossibly large jungle cat that somehow found its way in Forks came closer to me.
"Belllllaaa!"I rolled my eyes, but couldn't stop the smile that spread over my lips at the sound of the perfect tinkling voice. I turned to see the pixie girl dance her way to me, a large smile taking half of her delicate, pixie face. Her black raven hair pointed in every direction as her large melting golden eyes kept locked onto my weak chocolate gaze. I walked over to her, wrapping an arm around her, pulling the stone hard girl to my side. Although she was cold like the rest of the vampires, she provided such a strong sense of warmth that could make the sun jealous. I smiled sweetly down at the girl to see her smile falter slightly, her eyes turning sorrowful, a misty look came over her as she drifted from me and two strong cold hands wrapped around me. "Edward." I turned to wrap my arms around him but he was glaring at Alice, a hard snarl on his once perfect face. I looked over my shoulder to see Alice walking away, her shoulders slumping slightly as a sob seemed to shake her petite form. I was about to run after her, to hold onto her and keep her shaking body close to me so she could be the bubbly happy thing she was. My heart was in agony seeing the small girl walk away with dry sobs take her form. Before I had, the chance to take her in my arms Esme picked the girl up and wrapped her arms around the shaking girl, rubbing her back and whispering things so fast I couldn't catch anything. Edwards arms became constricting as I tried to make my way to the crying pixie, he held me close to him, taking me away from her. We disappeared from the house but not before I could hear Alice's agonized sob fill the house. Jaws snapped in front of me, the large animal crashed me down and hovered over me, its eyes bright with energy. It snapped its jaws again, but I didn't even notice that I was already drifting off into another memory, so I hardly felt the tigers teeth clamp down on my neck, crushing my bones and breaking the skin. There was a faint burning feeling that attacked my heart, and spread down to every inch in my body. The tiger's weight disappeared, and the burning increased, I just closed my eyes.
Bella the Pet will die and the heartless vampires will move on, without another thought of their useless human pet. Maybe find another Bella to replace the old, break their heart to make them feel loved and special just to abandon them to die...alone.
I felt like their was a rope constricting around my body, tightening and choking every life out of me as the fire increased in heat. My jaw loosened to let out an agonized scream so loud it seemed to shatter the entire forest; trees seemed to crash and break as my vision turned bloody.
My body jerked and shook with the pain, and slowly I crawled, pulling one inch at a time to the closest rock. I leaned against the cool, hard, marble, rock that, of course, pushed my mind into a burning memory of the cold vampires that stole my heart.
Tears seemed to fall without an end, rolling down my cheeks as the saddest scene played out. Romeo looks upon Juliet and finds one true love, in a tomb, life sucked out of her as her open eyes display its horror. Little did Romeo know that Juliet's death was false, that if he only waited a few more minutes, he would have been reunited with his love. Yet fate seemed to frown upon the two lovers and decided to watch Romeo pull his own poisonous liquid out to see his love in death. I sobbed as I watched him down the liquid, his heart flaying about, panicking as the poison crept into every cell in his body. "Bella...you do know that this is just a play, their just actors, their not really dead." I couldn't talk to the light amused voice of the little pixie; I just continued to cry into the small pillow I clung onto. Cool hard hands wrapped around my body, pulling my shaking form to the small girl. She allowed me to cry in her shoulder as Juliet woke up to a dead Romeo. I cried harder as she stabbed herself, unable to live without her love. Alice just rubbed my back, a faint smile on her lips as she watched me, she brushed her cool hands against my cheek, wiping the messy tears from my face. I stared into the warm, melting, gold, eyes of Alice and tried to smile past my tears. She is just too beautiful. Without really thinking, I pulled the small vampire on my lap. She stayed stock still, surprised, as I wrapped my arms around her waist, nuzzling her neck. Eventually she relaxed, falling into my embrace as she wrapped her own arms around me. I rubbed her stomached, faintly brushing her cool hard skin, she started to vibrate, shaking as a loud cat like purr erupted from her chest. "...Alice...are you purring?" I was answered by a louder purr when she lied her head back, resting it on my shoulder. I continued to rub her stomach, teasing her slightly, calling her my kitty cat. She only responded by nuzzling her head into my neck, purring into my ear. My heart was jumping wildly, trying its best to escape my own body, berating my rib cage.I looked down to see Alice, closing her eyes as she rested her head on my shoulder, her body curled around me, faint purring still coming from the small pixie, she wore a faint smile that continued throughout the night, I couldn't take my eyes off of the beautiful girl. My heart heaved in pain, and clenching with the unrequited love I had for the Cullen family. Why was my body torturing me again?
Aw right I was bitten by a large animal, and now im convulsing on the floor. I screamed into the now night sky, wanting desperately for there to be an answer. Yet nothing came, no one glanced towards the tortured human on the dark forest floor.
Finally, the pain started to evaporate from my body, receding back to my heart, making it larger, beating an unfamiliar tune. Slow but strong; when the pain finally stopped from my body, I fell to my knees as the bite healed on my shoulder. The blood falling without a scratch, I let my fingernails dig into the dirt as a new sensation flew through me.
It wasn't painful, it was thrilling, and my bones grew and cracked as skin and muscle started to stretch. My body was transforming into something entirely different, orange, brown fur started to cover oversized body, my skull, and nose stretched out, the bone shaping into something different as my clothes ripped from my body.
Seconds later, I was something new, foreign, but strong. My paws padded on the forest floor, the once dull forest seemed to be bright with colors and shapes from far away. I heard the birds that my human ears couldn't hear, the sound of water came from far away as deer and squirrels clamper away.
Stretching my new muscles and I bounded off into the dark night, confused to as what I was, furry starting to build into...whatever shape I was. My paws pounded on the soft soil, sending me farther into the night as the trees blurred past me, the sound of tinkling water came closer. A loud feral roaring came from within me, shaking my body, and shattering the once quite night.
The river came up, I looked at my reflection, what I saw made me fall to the ground. I was no longer Bella Swan the human; I was Bella Swan the large tiger beast. My large head covered with orange and black colors, chestnut fur covered my back as orange seemed to dance like flames throughout my body, coloring my black and brown body, white fur coming from my furry jaw line down to my stomach and all the way down to my long slick tail. My muscles were slick, my bone structure built to a feline way, yet still fierce, electric blue eyes stared back at me, black slit as pupils stared back at me with shock.
I tilted my large tiger body to the sky and howled in agony. My body collapsed making my vision blurry as sleep tried to overtake my exhausted body.
That jungle cat wasn't normal. A shape shifter, I heard of those, the Cullen's explained what they were to me.
Another heartbroken sob came from my body, the Cullen's. Alice, my Alice. They left me to die, in this dark forest, and now im not even human, im not a vampire, im a large tiger creature.
Looks like I turned out to be a monster in the end anyway.