The Reason I belong there: Episode Masato

Author's Note: Contains hints of spoilers, if you never went through the game, you probably won't understand it.

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Original Game: Little Busters Ecstasy

Original Game Chapter: Refrain

Original Concept: Key

Written by: wrathie

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Author's Final Notes: This is a serious spoiler warning. Read at your own risk if you have not finished the game!

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Why do I belong with them?

I am not a clever person.

I am a dumb one, an idiot, a dummy, like she liked to say.

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I am not smart like Yosuke.

I am not as strong as Kengo.

I do not have the determination of Riki.

Or the warmth of Rin.

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Ara ara, why am I thinking about this?

It hurts to think, I don't want to think anymore.

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So, why do I belong there.

With the Little Busters.

There is no Little Buster.

There is only, the Little Busters.

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Little Busters, the organization where we fought crime, defeat bad guys and save the world.

Why, do I belong in there?

Me, a person who was once wanted.

A person who was once feared.

A person, who was the bad guy. Who bullied others.

Why?

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Because I'm an idiot.

Because, I belong there.

That's all.

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I, have a reason to belong there.

I was always teased, because I am an idiot.

I do things differently, my brain is wired differently than others.

I would drink milk instead of water.
I would do things that are, not what normal people do.

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So, I was always alone.

Me, with myself.

But then, I found out…

That, it is okay to be alone.

That is, only if you are strong.

If you are strong, it is okay to be alone.

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No one will laugh at you.

No one will dare say bad things about you.

So, I wanted to be strong.

And I became strong…

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Perhaps, too strong.

Too, too strong.

I trained so much…

I cannot afford to lose, that is why I trained so much.

There is nothing left for me, if I am not strong.

So I must always be strong.

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When did I think that?

Why did I think that?

I do not know.

All I know, is that, I wanted to be strong.

Even if it meant I am alone.

Even if it meant it hurts

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But, I'm strong, so I can stand it, right?

Yes, that's right.

I am strong, so I can stand it… stand being alone, stand being hated, stand being ignored, chased away.

It is alright, as I am strong.

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But, what am I searching for?

Just to be strong?

Is that all what I am?

Is that all I wish to be? To be strong?

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I forgot that, all I wanted was not to be alone.

To have, someone, or a place where I belonged.

I do not belong when I am strong.

I do not belong, when I am weak.

So, where and when and who… do I belong to?

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Myself.

Only when I am strong, do I belong to myself.

I do not wish, to lose to myself. Or to be weak, to be myself.

I must always, be strong.

That's when I belong to myself.

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That's why I belong here.

To the Little Busters.

To his Little Busters… to the one, who became strong.

To the one, who became a person we couldn't be.

To the one, who pulled her back from the brink.

To the one, who saved her and saved us.

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He'll be able to save us.

I know he can.

Even if the world goes crazy.

Even if I am the only one who is sane.

Even, if I am the only one remaining.

I know, that if it's him.

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If it's him, if it's the one who swore to live on strongly.

With, or without us with him.

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If it's that Riki.

If it's the one who defeated me.

If it's the one who once again gave me a reason to belong.

If it's the one who can laugh with me, play with me…

Do silly, nonsensical things with me…

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That Riki…

Is why I belong there.

With the Little Busters.

As there will be many, happy and wonderful things waiting for me.

In the future and in the past.

And most importantly.

In this mad, mad world that we live in.

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I'll follow you to the end, Riki.

From now, till forever.

As I belong there, I belong with Little Busters.

With you, with my rival, with the one who brought me there…

And the flower, the flower we wished to protect.

I am satisfied, Riki.

This is why I belong there.

With you, with them, with her.

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Be strong Riki, even if I'm not here.

Even if none of us is here.

But you will, won't you?

You proved it to us, by reuniting us.

By bringing us together, showing us how much you've grown.

You're not the weakest of all of us anymore.

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You and Rin have grown, together you have achieved the impossible.

For me, who is responsible for guarding your daily life.

I've seen it repeating a hundred times, a thousand times.

Who knew, really, how many times I did the same thing?

But, everything, every moment I had with you, Riki.

With you, Rin.

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I loved every single moment. I cherished every single moment with you.

With your smile, with your silly and loving rebuttals.

It was worth, every moment of it.

I was right when I said I loved you, loved her, loved him, loved them.

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After all, this is where I belong.

This is the place where I want to be, forever and ever.

Even if forever is not possible.

Even if forever is a lie, even if forever does not exists.

I am satisfied, for the short time we had together.

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I never regretted giving my life for you, Riki.

Even if it meant having to deliver you to this harsh reality alone

A world where it is cold, filled with despair.

A world where you will have to live alone with her.

The two that we wished to protect.

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Ahaha~ You were always the weakest.

But now, you are the strongest.

So live on Riki.

Live on and love her…

After all, you were the one she choose.

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Author's Notes: To carry the burden, to always be in the neutral position.

Words cannot express his strength...