Chapter Seventeen:

Dear Kurt,

I don't really know what to write, but I have so many things to say. I guess it's hard to explain why I'm leaving after the best night of my life, other than to say that I'm an idiot.

I want you to know, I'm sorry. You have to believe that I never meant to hurt you, even though I know I'm hurting you now. Things are just so screwed up. I know it's a stupid line, but in our case, it's true - It's not you, It's me.

You've been nothing but perfect to me, you've loved me in a way I never thought possible and so far all I have done is hurt you. Ever since we met, I've hurt you, but it took loving you to hurt you the most. You deserve so much more than I can give you and I just want you to have a chance for that.

I know right now you think that I'm the only thing you need, I know I feel that way about you, but I also know one day, I won't be enough. I can't be brave like you and making you hide isn't fair. Hell, even if I'd come out, things would have just gotten worse. I know it sounds cocky, but I'm a badass, at least in the schools eyes, and as much crap as I would have gotten for dating you... you would have gotten so much worse.

I can't do that to you.

Now that I'm gone, maybe you can find someone who can treat you right and be the boyfriend you need. You won't have to hide it from anyone, not like with us. I know keeping things a secret from Mercedes was hurting you a lot more than you let on. And maybe you can get back what you had with Finn. I know even though he's been a total douche, you guys were close before. Now you can be again.

It's OK to hate me. I want you to know that. And, it's really OK for you to move on. Please move on. Be sad, but not for too long, because one day I know you'll understand it's better this way. Please, don't try to find me. My mom knows where I went, but I made her promise not to tell anyone. It's better for us to have a clean break. It's better for you.

Be safe and be strong and take on the world, if anyone can make it, you can. Even though we can't be together and I don't know if we'll ever meet again, I'll always love you. I just wish that was enough.

All my love, Forever,


AN: Yup, I know, kind of a non chapter, but I wanted people to see the note Noah left for Kurt.
Rest assured, while this is the end of this fic, it's not the end of the story. Sequel is very much in the works and I think you're going to like it. The sequel will focus on Kurt and Noah, but will also feature Quinn, Finn, Santana and some (hopefully not Mary Sue like) OC's. I predict it'll be a long one, but hopefully it'll be worth it, not just long in the sense of meaningless prattle. Next fic will take place at the start of season 2 (this fic was pretty non-specific about timelines, but the next one will be more defined.)

Thank you for all the reviews, in particular from Jasondragon64 and STARZHEI, who left reviews that made me glad to be a writer.

Author Alert everybody, by the time you read this, chapters for the sequel have been written and are ready to post when the time feels right.

Love Dyl.