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Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyers owns the characters and Toni Braxton owns the song.

Chapter 8: Rebuilding

The thought of going to the dungeons to torture my ex-boyfriend didn't excite me as I thought it would. I hesitated outside Aro's office and turned on my heel and re-entered.

"Iz a bella?" He drawled.


"Yes my child." he encouraged.

"I'm not finding it as pleasant… inflicting pain on… him…" I mumbled my eyes cast to the floor.

"There is more?" Aro asked perceptively.

"I've been writing out my emotions… I'd love to express them in song, but…"

"But what?" He asked curiously.

"If I were to sing my feelings, I'm worried if I did karaoke that it would draw attention to what we are."

I worried my lower lip still unsure whether or not I should look up and meet Aro's gaze.

"Well there are plenty of Vampires who are in the eyes of humans." He told me. The seriousness of his tone alerted me that he was telling the truth.

"Really? Who?" I asked looking at him in awe.

"Justin Timberlake, Carrie Underwood, Tom Cruise, Christopher Walkin, Clint Eastwood… Just to name a few." He chuckled.

I just stare at him my mouth agape in surprise.

"It's a well kept secret, such a shame when we have to dispose of them…"

I thought back in my head mentally of all the celebrity deaths, but I didn't dare voice my opinion. Instead I collected my thoughts filing them away quickly.

"So you wouldn't mind if I… sang?"

"Go to the grand room. Sing as you wish. Let it all out Isabella." His tone was softer. Fatherly…

I took a deep breath and ran as fast as I could to the grand room. There was a stage and a microphone. I walked closer to the stage and decided it was time for me to let go. I needed to let Edward go. I needed to let the pain go… I needed to let him go…..


I threw the book I had been attempting to read to the side. There was no way I could sit here and do nothing. I needed to let Bella know how I felt. I left my room and stopped dead when my senses were cut off completely. I crouched defensively wondering if it was some sick joke either Bella or Alec wanted to play. But then my ears could hear her. Her voice was honey and perfection. It sounded raw with pain and I stood still listening.

"Don't leave me in all this pain,

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come take these tears away

I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me…."

The pain was intense. It brought me to my knees and I realized I wasn't in the Volturi castle. I was in the forest in Forks. This was Bella's memory. She was sharing her story through this heartbreaking song.

She was standing so still. The smell of the salty tears cascading down her angelic face. I watched in slow motion as Edward ran from her leaving her alone and cold in the rain…


I was in Bella's room. She was sitting up screaming. Tears mingled with sweat matted her hair to her head. Her arms raised to protect her face. The nightmare flickered in and out, being alone. Charlie screaming in rage at the audacity she had to wake him from his slumber. Blow by blow as he forced her to shut up…


Love and Calm washed over me and I was transported to Bella's bedroom in Forks. Edward's arms were around her holding her securely. Her fathers loud drunken snores came filtering in from the hallway. Bella snuggled closer to Edward clutching him to the point where it was almost painful for her…

"Unbreak my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Uncry the tears

I cried so many nights

Unbreak my heart

My heart"

Bella's voice was filled with anger and sadness. She felt unworthy and hopeless. The nights that Charlie raped and beat her. The vivid imagery made me want to vomit. The fear was so thick it was crippling.

Waking up screaming even though she was staying with Jacob. The way he was attentive and tried to soothe her back to sleep. But she never felt completely safe. The resolve she was feeling to never let another man make her feel safe. That she needed self reliance.

"Take back that sad word goodbye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave here with these tears

Come and kiss the pain away

I can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me…"

I couldn't fathom her pain. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my life…


Edward giving her chaste sweet kisses. Her heart racing, lust and desire raging within her.


Edward and his harsh words leaving Bella alone.


Charlie's raised fish as it made purchase with Bella's stomach.

"Unbreak my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Uncry these years

I cried so many nigfhts

Unbreak my hear

My heart…

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Bring back the nights when I held you beside me.


Unbreak my hear

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Uncry these tears

I cried so many, many night

Oh unbreak my


"You'll never be good enough for him Bells. You belong to me. I'm your father. I don't know what that boy sees in you…"


"You're not good for me Bella." Edward's words echoing over and over again. As she crumpled to the forest floor in the fetal position.


"I imprinted Bella. You're going to have to leave." Jacob's tone with light, but the joy and happiness in his eyes is what broke Bella. She wouldn't ever have that…

Unbreak my heart, oh baby

Come back and say you love me

Unbreak my heart

Sweet darlin'

Without you I just can't go on…

Say that you love

Say that you love

Tell me you love

Unbreak my heart…"

I could see again and her tearless sobs resounded through the empty hallways. The pain I felt was the pain of the entire guard. The pity and anger they felt for a man I once called brother. My angel… was truly broken.


I climbed from the stage and raced through the deserted halls to my room. I slammed the door shut behind me, my breathing was shallow and short. Though I had no, physical need for the air it was a human trait that would be hard to ignore. I collapsed on my bed crying and clawing at the sheets. The anger and frustration welled up inside me. I wanted to cry. The need for the warm salty liquid to fill my eyes and the release of freeing them. But I was stone. Stone can not cry. I lay stubbornly on the bed, I hadn't intended on sharing so much with everyone. But my cool exterior was cracking. I was still a girl, a woman. I was still fragile and I still had a heart. And my deepest desire to be loved and cherished was there beneath the hard walls I'd built.

"Bella?" Jasper's voice sounded after three sharp knocks to my door.

"Yes?" I called out reigning in all my emotions and making my face stoic and impassive.

He opened the door and slipped fluidly inside. His golden hair hung in his face, his wide penetrating eyes searched mine before he spoke.

"I had… No… I'm so…"

"So you heard." I told him. It wasn't a question. He'd heard my song and the desires that came with it.

He was in front of me and I cast my eyes downward. I fought hard to hide all of my insecurities. My faults with my foolish pride… Jasper's finger gently lifted my chin so his eyes could again search mine. But what shocked me was the concern and love I not only saw in his eyes, but the emotions that wrapped around me like a cocoon.

"You still love Edward?"

I took a millisecond to gather my thoughts before answering him.

"I do, and part of me always will, despite everything. But I'm not in love with him anymore. I don't want him back Jasper. This song I wrote a while back… it was time for me to vocalize it…"

His face became impassive as he once again began searching my eyes. I wanted to trust him, but I was so scared. His gaze never faltered and I slipped. The emotions inside me broke like a damn and rushed out. I looked down again unable to see the disgust that would surely be on his face. But I had to. I looked up slowly and his eyes were pitch black and he wasn't breathing. I froze like the proverbial deer in head lights. His warm hand wrapped around my neck and pulled me to him.

His lips brushed mine softly at first, then pressed more firmly. A moan caught in my throat and came out as a growl. His velvet tongue swept across my bottom lip seeking permission that I granted. His moan was low and filled with need. The kiss was raw with a passion I'd never quite experienced before. He was pushing all of his love, faith, hope into the kiss and it warmed me from the inside. But the years of pain I'd endured, insecurities began to creep back up.

"You're worth it." He murmered with his lips against mine.

The traveled to my neck where he nipped and bit at the hard flesh. "You're worth it." He chanted.

His warm mouth trailed down my exposed collarbone causing my head to fall back. My body was tingling in anticipation and need. I needed Jasper. It was different than anything I'd ever experienced before.

Gingerly he removed my top, his lips traveling along my newly uncovered skin. His tongue dancing in lazy circles along my shoulders and down my torso. My breathing was more labored as I gasped filling my lungs with air they didn't need. His hands came behind me expertly unclasping my bra. I was naked and exposed from the waist up. His eyes were the blackest black and hooded with lust.

"You're so worth it Isabella."

The way my name rolled off his tongue was unlike anyone else ever saying my name. In that moment it was only Jasper, and deep down I realized it was only ever him. He was the one. Just like that my defenses came crumbling down like a rockslide.

"Jasper. I…" I started and realized I didn't know how to voice the feelings that were surrounding me. "Make love to me."

The words rolled off my tongue easily enough, but the sensations were so foreign. I wanted him to love me, I needed to be loved…

"Oh Bella. My Bella." he murmured.

He began backing me up slowly until we were both in my bed. His mouth moving down to the swell of my breasts. Kissing them both tenderling nuzzling his nose into each nipple until they were hard enough to cut glass. His mouth found purchase sucking the right breast into his mouth greedily. My back arched off the bed in ecstasy. His mouth was skilled and the heat pooled between my legs. I thrashed around begging for friction.

He ceased his relentless torture and moved to the next nipple. He gave it equal treatment while his eyes burned into mine as I moaned and writhed beneath him.

"Oh… Jasper." I moaned hoarsly.

His hand reached down tracing up and down my perfectly sculpted legs. Until my hips bucked upwards on their own accord forcing him to lightly touch my most sensitive area.

"You like that baby?" He asked huskily.

"Yes." I replied breathlessly.

He chuckled darkly and began the slow process of pulling off the remainder of my clothes. Once I was naked he leaned back his eyes devouring me hungrily. I bit my lower lip nervously, I felt exposed and vulnerable.

"You're worth it Bella." He whispered.

His lips trailed softly up my legs to the apex of my thighs. I was gasping my head thrashing backwards my hands gripping the sheets as I watched his honey locks move closer to my aching core. It was almost painful the arousal between my legs. His kissed my outer lips firmly causing me to hiss and force myself to stay still. I couldn't blink, I was watching him intently with fascination. His wet pink tongue trailed up my slit causing me to moan loudly.

"You taste so good. So good." he breathed.

I whimpered the desire building in the pit of my stomach. His mouth moved in slow deliberate licks. His tongue circling my clit making my hips thrust urgently.

"Patience." He chided.

He began licking and sucking at the sensitive flesh and I fell of the edge. Stars exploded behind my eyes and I screamed his name loudly my body shuddering pleasantly bringing me down from my high.

"Wow." I whispered.

He wasn't done, he disrobed and I made a move to return the favor but he stopped me. "No Darlin', let me love you." he pleaded.

He climbed up embracing me to his chest. I could taste the sweet but tart flavor of myself on his lips, as our tongues began to duel.

His hardness was pressed into my thigh and I relaxed looking up at him expectantly.

"I love you." He declared before plundging deep inside my waiting core. My muscles contracted around him. He filled me the way no one has ever before and I clung to him.

Our bodies moved together in a dance as old as time. "Fuck you're so tight." He growled.

"I'm so close." I breathed my body meeting his thrust for thrust.

The echos of our pants and moans and the sound of granite on granite surrounded us. My breathing became even more labored as he slowed to a torturously slow pace.

"Come for me Bella. Come on my thick cock." He comanded.

My breathing hit a crescendo as I exploded around him. "JASPER! Oh… FUCK! I love you, I love you, I love you." I screamed my eyes rolling back into my head.

I felt him stifen and begin to pulse inside me. His seed filled me and my pussy milked him relentlessly.

He collapsed on top of me feeling extremely satisfied. "You're worth it Bella. I won't stop fighting for you."

"I don't want you to…"


Not quite as long as my usual chapters but it has a nice lemon in there and we're seriously progressing things between Bella and Jasper. :D We'll find out more about Carlisle's feeling towards Esme and the betrayal soon. Also Tanya will make an appearance. :D It'll be fun! Leave some love. And I'm sorry it took me this long!