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Ziva stood in her bathroom looking at the little pink peice of plastic. It had to be a mistake. Although somehow, she knew that it was no mistake. One night of incredible passion had brought her to this moment. She covered her face with her hands and wept as she thought back to that wonderful night.
Three months prior...
It had started out innocently enough.
Cases involving kids always seemed to get to him and this one was no exception.
The five year old son of a Marine Colonel hadbeen kidnapped and killed by his estranged ex-wife. For no other reason than she was jealous of their son and the attention that he gave the boy. This case, more than any other, had affected him terribly.
He had gotten extremely drunk that night and she had gotten a call from the bartender at the local bar asking her to come pick him up. When she got there, he merely smiled and asked, "Want a drink Zee-Vah?"
She shook her head and told him, "No. I do not need a drink and you have had enough yourself Tony."
He stuck out his tongue and said, "You're no fun."
She shook her head and said, "Come on Tony. It's time to go home."
She led him from the bar and to her car. She smiled as she watched Tony try to fold himself into her tiny car. He finally stopped trying and looked at her funny and said, "You really need to get a bigger car. This thing isn't even big enough for clowns."
She shook her head and said, "Just get in Tony."
He finally managed to wedge himself into her car. They rode in silence for a few minutes. Finally, he whispered, "Why do people do things like this?"
He shook his head and stared straight ahead, "Have kids. Then they treat them like crap and kill them. Some people just shouldn't have children."
Ziva nodded, "I do not know Tony. If we could figure that out, then we would be out of a job."
"Sometimes I wish that we were."
She could not disagree with him. It seemed like there was no end to the cruelty that the human race could inflict on each other. They finally arrived at his apartment and she managed to get him upstairs.
He unlocked his door and she turned to say goodnight. However, before she could get the words out, he looked at her and drew her close for a kiss.
She was shocked at first and tried to pull away. However, he followed her and finally, she felt herself kissing him back. She knew that it was wrong. She heard the Gibbs's voice in her mind reminding her of rule number twelve, but the only thing she could truly comprehend was how wonderful it felt to be in his arms.
His tongue pushed against her lips. Begging to enter her mouth. She only fought against it for a few brief seconds. She heard herself moan as Tony deepened the kiss further. Her only thought was that somehow, this was right and she would not and could not stop it for anything. She simply let herself give into the emotions that were invading her body.
He pulled away from her and whispered, "I'm sorry Ziva. I don't know what made me do that."
She smiled at him and whispered, "Do not say you are sorry Tony. At least not tonight."
She watched as he swung open the door and took her hand to lead her inside. She felt a unfamiliar feeling in her stomach. She was nervous for the first time in her life.
He sat on the couch and pulled her down on top of him. They looked in each others eyes and he whispered, "I'm not drunk. I've been wanting to do this for a very long time."
She nodded and whispered, "I have wanted this for just as long."
She lowered her head and kissed him deeply. She felt his hands on her back. Rubbing up and down her shirt slowly. She undid the buttons on his shirt and ran her hands over his chest. He fingertips grazed his nipples and he pulled back and hissed loudly. She smiled and lowered her head to kiss his neck.
He ran his fingers through her hair and whispered, "Are you sure about this Ziva?"
She did not speak. She was unable to form the words to tell him how much and how long she had been wanting to do this. She kissed her way down his body. Stopping briefly to capture each nipple between her lips. She heard him moan and he thrust his hips forward. She smiled and stopped her movements. She stood up and reached out her hands. After a few moments, he took her hand and let her lead him to the bedroom.
Once she closed the door behind them, she started removing her blouse. She watched as he did the same. No words were spoken. None were needed. Once they were naked, she moved forward and captured his mouth again. She could not get enough of his kisses. The more they kissed, the more she wanted to stay like this forever. She knew that it seemed terribly clingy, but she loved every moment of it.
Tony finally broke off their kiss and whispered, "Are you sure?"
She nodded and whispered, "I have never been this sure about anything before. This feels right."
Tony pushed her back onto his bed. He took a few seconds to just look at her. She was, in a word, gorgeous. He'd always known that she was pretty, but tonight, here, in his bed, she was truly beautiful.
He climbed into bed with her and started kissing her up her body. Starting with her feet and then, the inside of her thighs. He used his hands to move her legs further apart and he felt her shiver slightly. He looked up and her and she looked down at him and nodded. He smiled and inhaled the scent of her. It was unlike anything he had ever smelled before. It was intoxicating and it was uniquely Ziva.
He planted small kisses on her thighs. Little kisses the built the anticipation to a terriffic level. She ran her fingers through his hair and whispered, "Please Tony..."
He smiled and whispered, "Patience my ninja. We have all night. I've wanted this for too long to rush it."
After a few more well placed kisses, he finally allowed his tongue to lick her entrance. It was very slow and provided the most exqusite torture she had ever known. She moaned softly and whispered, "Ohhhhhh..."
Finally, he found her clit with his tongue. Her moans got louder and it drove him on. He licked her clit a bit harder and then allowed two of his fingers to enter her. He finally captured her clit between his lips and sucked it. He felt her walls tighten around his fingers and he heard her moan louder. After a few seconds, she cried out, "Ohhhhh Tony!"
He pulled his head away and watched as she came. Her eyes were closed and her face was alive with pleasure. Once the first wave had passed, she looked down at him and whispered, "Tony... I need you... Inside me..."
Tony nodded and crawled the rest of the way up her body. Stopping only long enough to capture one of her nipples between his teeth.
He whispered, "Are you sure about this?"
She nodded and said, "I want this. I want you. Take me Tony..."
That was that Tony needed to hear. His position himself at her opening and looked into her eyes as he entered her. Never before had it felt this right. As he started to move inside her, he swore that this was where he always belonged. He was coming home after a long absence.
She whispered, "Harder Tony..."
He smiled and moved faster. Taking her leg, he put it over his shoulder. It allowed him to enter her deeper. She moaned loudly and he knew that she was close to the edge again. He reached down between them and played with her clit. For the second time that night, she came and it was possibly the most beautiful thing that Tony had ever seen in his lifetime. It was the feeling of her around him and the look on her face that finally brought Tony over the edge and gave him his first climax of the night.
He collapsed onto her and kissed her neck softly. He simply whispered, "Wow..."
She was loving the feel of him on top of her and inside her. She whispered, "I agree..."
He fell beside her and they drifted off to sleep. Tony stroking her hair and holding her while they slept.
When she woke the next morning, they were still in each others arms. She looked at him and whispered, "I love you Tony."
She was drifting off to sleep and swore that she heard a soft, "Love you too Ninja..."
The fairy tale lasted throughout the morning.
When she woke up later that morning, she smelled food cooking. She walked out into the kitchen and smiled. She put her arms around his waist and kissed his neck. He pulled out of her embrace and said, "We have to get going. Breakfast and then we need to get to work."
She knew that the magic from the night before was gone. In it's place was something much more uncomfortable. Something much worse that the indifference that he usually treated her with. She pulled back and hugged herself tightly. She nodded and walked back into the living room. Picking up her clothes as she went along. She walked into the bathroom and dressed quickly. She was dressed and gone by the time he came out of the kitchen.
Tony knew that he was being an ass. It was something that always happened whenever he came close to revealing his true feelings. Instead of facing up to them, he would push the object of those affections away. It was his best and worst self defense mechanism.
He had been in love with Ziva for years. If he was honest with himself, he'd been in love with her since the first moment he saw her. She was so different from any other woman he'd known before. She wasn't afraid to speak her mind and she often called him on all of his bravado.
However, he couldn't admit his feelings for her. She was too good for him. She was everything that he wasn't. He didn't deserve someone as incredible as she was and she didn't deserve the massive screw up that he was.
So, he cornered her in the conference room at work and told her that they would never work. They could remain partners, but it was impossible for them to be anything else to each other. They could however, remain friends. Friends, she had enough friends. She needed someone to spend the rest of her life with.
So she decided to try and be friends with him. She would rather have him in her life as a friend than not at all.
So, for the last three months, she had been his friend. Until this morning that is. She had been feeling sick for the past few days. She knew that it wasn't the flu. It only happened in the morning and whenever she smelled some strong or strange smells.
On a whim, she bought a pregnancy test. She stood in her bathroom and stared at the strange little plus sign that appeared nearly instantly.
She took a deep breath and whispered, "This cannot be happening."
She turned on her computer and whispered, "Tony is going to kill me."
Once her computer booted up, she opened her instant messenger program. She sighed when she saw that Tony was online.
She clicked on his name and typed: Tony, we need to talk.
BigD: Hey Ninja! What's up?
NinjaLady: Can you come over to my place? Tonight after work.
BigD: What's wrong?
NinjaLady: We need to talk. It is not something I can do on here.
BigD: Sounds serious. Is everything okay?
NinjaLady: Everything is fine. Or it will be tonight.
BigD: Okay. I'll be there tonight after work.
She signed off and went to go sit in the window seat of her apartment. How had she gotten to this point in her life? Unmarried and pregnant. Pregnant by a man that she loved, but did not love her back. She still did not want children and was sure that Tony did not want them either.
She was barely aware of someone knocking on her door. She pulled herself out of the window and walked to her door. She saw Tony smiling against the door frame and she couldn't help smiling back.
She motioned for him to come in and he nodded. She waited until he sat down and then blurted out, "I am pregnant Tony!"
Tony shook his head and whispered, "What?"
"I said that I am pregnant."
"Are you sure?"
Ziva nodded and picked up the test that was lying on the coffee table. She handed it to him and he took a quick look and dropped it like it was a hot potato. He looked at her and whispered, "I'm the father."
There was no question. He didn't doubt that the baby was his. Ziva wasn't the type of person to sleep around.
She nodded and said, "Yes. I have an appointment to have it taken care of tomorrow."
Tony was speechless. He hadn't known what to expect, but that certainly wasn't what he'd been expecting to hear. He blinked a few times before he asked, "Taken care of?"
Ziva nodded and whispered, "You did not want this. I do not want this. So, this is the easiest way to take care of it."
Tony stared at her like she had three heads and whispered, "Okay! If you had everything taken cared of already, why did you want me to come over here? To rub it in my face that you're willing to throw my baby away in the trash! You could have done that with a simple phone call Ziva!"
Before she could say anything else, he stormed out of the apartment. She had never seen him quite so angry before. She walked into her bedroom and threw herself onto her bed.
Tony didn't trust himself to drive home, so he simply sat in his car. She was going to get rid of his baby. Their baby. And there wasn't anything that he could do about it. He'd never felt so helpless before. He hadn't had a chance to tell her that they could work this out. That they could be a family. Despite the overwhelming odds. However, before he could say anything, she had made the decision for him. She was getting rid of their baby and there wasn't anything he could do about it.
Ziva awoke after a sleepless night. She had a nine o'clock appointment with the doctor. She arrived early and was shown back to the exam room. She looked around nervously and waited for the doctor to come into the room. She smiled when she saw the doctor.
The doctor nodded and introduced herself to Ziva. Then she explained that they needed to do an Ultrasound before the procedure. Ziva nodded and laid back and closed her eyes...