A/N sorry guys for not updating sooner! It's been really hard to get online and such recently. But I promise to try harder! Also the see my other story The Tragic Story of Sweeney Todd. I'm probably going to update that one a lot more often than this one. Again, I do NOT own any characters, music, etc. hope you all enjoy!

Chapter 4

Bella POV

So Jasper didn't mind me seeing Jake… that's so awesome. Jaspers so much different than Edward. I thought to myself as I got into my truck and drove to La Push. It was, as usual, raining. Good old' Washington. You can always rely on rain. Oh well. I pulled up to Jakes house. He ran out hearing my obnoxious trucks roar. "BELLA!" he screamed as he ran to my door with a huge grin on his face. "I thought the blood sucker didn't let you leave your room? What did you do escape?" I got out and gave him a huge hug and answered, "Nope. He and I are done. I got sick of his crap. And umm. I and Jasper are kinda sorta not really kinda together." Jakes jaw dropped. He seemed happy yet sad at the same time. "Umm… oh wow Bella… that's great." He said without much enthusiasm. "Jake? What's wrong?" I asked worried. He thought for a moment. "Well… Bella… I just…. Well…. It's not that I don't want you to be happy. It's just that… I want you to be happy with me. Forever. That's what's supposed to happen. If there weren't any stupid bloodsuckers." I was shocked. I never thought of it the way I had before he said that. If I had just moved to Forks and Jasper and Alice and everyone hadn't existed, I would have found love with Jacob. It's just how things would have ended up. I started crying. Realizing what the decisions I've made had done to my future. And to Jakes future. I screwed up huge. And I wasn't even 18 yet. Great. "Jake…I just don't know what to say….. I….I…. I gotta go…." Jake looked at me, apologetic. "Bells. No don't go. You only just got here. Please? I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything. Please Bella. I've missed you. A lot. Please don't go." He said nearly in tears. I thought about it for a moment. I hadn't seen Jacob in a really long time. He's my best friend and he was always there for me. No matter how mad or depressed I was, he always listened.

I decided to leave. I needed to get my thoughts straight. But I promised Jacob I would come back. He meant way too much to me for me to leave him, and I didn't want to hurt him anymore than I already have. And Jasper was waiting for me.

I got into my truck with tears in my eyes. I didn't know what to think. I didn't know if Alice and Edward were okay, I didn't know what to think about Jasper and I. Jasper and I… that was a really nice thought. The fact that I was free from Edward was more than a really nice thought. I could have my period and not worry about getting my throat ripped out. I don't know what to do about Jacob either. He was always my closest friend. I didn't have to hide my vampire boyfriend from him. I didn't have to hide anything from him. He was always open, accepting, helping. He was such a big part of my life. Jasper was always so mysterious. I was drawn to him from the beginning. He and Alice had faked their love well. Would I have to worry about that? I would like to hope I wouldn't. Wait. Here I am talking about love with Jasper. I haven't even been away from Edward for a week! Was I in love with Jasper? Was I in love with Jacob? Could I be in love with two people at the same time? This was impossible. I wasn't sure if I didn't prefer my life in Phoenix. There were less hospital bills there at least. My stress level seriously needs to lower or I'm going to have permanent wrinkles… I really wouldn't enjoy that.

I drove up the familiar pathway to the Cullen residence were Jasper was waiting… all alone… oh man. I should not even be considering these things! Edward was princess of the prudes. Which sucked because he was pretty hot if I do say so myself. I'm only a hormone driven teenager! Any other boy would love to be Edward. I was only throwing myself at him. And of course he's all not until we are married. I might hurt you. Vampire. Blah blah blah. Maybe he's gay… that would explain it. I mean I love gay guys don't get me wrong. But it would explain why he continued to reject me time after time after time. So now I want to know what's waiting for me at the Cullen residence. Why does the idea of being with Jasper alone for two weeks get me all hot and bothered instead of nervous? I wish I had some jeans. It would make me feel less.. seductive.

I parked my truck and Jasper ran with his vampire speed to open the door for me and hold out an umbrella. "That was a fast trip. Are you alright Bella?" he asked in his southern accent, concerned. "Yeah Jasper. I'm fine. Let's just get in out of this rain. I'm soaked haha." Jasper looked down at my soaking wet dress "Yes… I can see that" he said admirably. He picked me up and ran me into the house. "Would you like to change? Do you want to do anything for the rest of the day or just stay here?" I thought briefly. I was sick of being frustrated like this all the time. And Jasper was looking pretty nice. "well… there are things I would like to do for the rest of the day. But they don't really require me getting changed." Jasper's jaw dropped.