Summary: When the team 'lose' Tony at the start of Season 5, Ziva finds herself singing about it. Tiva! One-shot. A little OOC in places.

Disclaimer: I do not own NCIS or the song I have parodied for the purpose of this story.

Depression, devastation, misery, loneliness, these were all the emotions Ziva was feeling. She had just lost her partner, her rock, her best friend and her true love. One could not blame her for her mood. She had seen the explosion, she had seen his body, and she had seen all his possessions in what used to be his car. The body was the right height and build and the right blood type. He was gone. Ziva knew these things happened. She had lost people she loved before, many more than one person should lose, but it was so much harder to accept this time. And now that sadness was beginning to turn into rage and longing. She needed to express these feelings somehow, and talking about it just wasn't enough. She hit play in iTunes and the song started. She jumped up on the table and began to let her emotions flow.

Someone blew up Tony's car
And all I know is that it broke my heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scars
And right now I don't care about the car
Yeah someone blew up Tony's car
After La Grenouille saw him fooling her
I saw his body, completely burnt
Had he been in love with her?

I must admit it helped a little bit
to be with all the team when I saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
came close to crying many times today

I knew that Tony, yeah, he had feelings
For Jeanne and when he'd say he loved her he'd mean it,
Even though he was so juvenile,
I could never quite resist that smile, ha, ha, ha, ha,

Someone blew up Tony's car
He'll always have a special place in my heart
Without him my whole world seems just seems so dark
Yeah, he has really left his mark

Yeah, someone blew up Tony's car
He had been there for me through everything
After 2 whole years of knowing him
I can't believe that I've lost him

I must admit it helped a little bit
to be with all the team when I saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
came close to crying many times today

I knew that Tony, yeah, he had feelings
For Jeanne and when he'd say he loved her he would mean it,
Even though he was juvenile,
I could never quite resist that smile, ha, ha, ha, ha,

Someone blew up Tony's car
And all I know is that it broke my heart
You could never feel how I felt that day
Until it happens baby you don't know pain

Even though what happened to him was much worse
I had to do something to stop the hurting
Oh I was so close to crying
So close to crying

Oooh someone blew up Tony's car.

She was still mourning, and she would be doing so for a long time, but she had to admit she felt a little better.