A/N: My computer has been broken down for a while. In fact, when we got the computer fixed the internet box broke. Yeah, it sucks. But, this is my first VA story. I've written others, and I'll put them up, but in my opinion they suck. I really didn't know where I was going with them.
Well, I wrote this story a little while ago, before the internet got back up, and I don't know if I should continue it or not. I really love Dimitri and Rose, so let me know who you want Rose to end up with in VA.
How was I going to tell him? This was something I'd been thinking about for hours. I sat on the couch thinking that maybe I should tell Lissa first. She would know what to do. On the other hand, what if she didn't like how things had turned out? Ugh. This was just too much. This was going to ruin my life. I wouldn't be able to be a guardian anymore. I knew that it was something that I should be happy about, I mean it's a miracle for Dimitri and I to be able to have a child, but this wasn't the time to do it.
I'd only found out hours ago. I hadn't told anyone because I wanted to think things through first. I wanted to run to Dimitri. I wanted to let him hold me in his arms as I cried. I knew that if I did cry I would feel a little better. That still wouldn't solve my problems, though.
I got up from the couch I was sitting on and sat right back down. I couldn't make up my mind. Did I want to go somewhere, or stay here and think? Ugh. This was all too much.
I decided against sulking in my room and went out to find Lissa. I knew she wasn't in her room through the bond. I slipped into her mind for just a moment to see that she was in the infirmary. This couldn't be good. I was about to panic, until I realized that she was there healing people. That wasn't a good thing, either, but it was better than her being injured.
Using spirit to heal people always made Lissa go a little insane. What I mean by that is that there is this darkness that creeps inside her when she uses spirit. It's a bad side-effect that I can help her with. Because I am shadow-kissed and attached to her I can take some of that darkness from her. It's what keeps her sane. Unfortunately, we have to balance how much I can take from her and how much she can keep. It's a constant struggle for the both of us.
I smiled to everyone I passed on the way to the infirmary, trying to pretend that nothing was up. Sadly, I never smiled to everyone, so I think they all knew that something was up. Oh, the woes of being Rosemarie Hathaway.
Lissa greeted me with a smile and then held up her finger in a signal for me to wait. I did as she wanted and went into the waiting room. She came out sooner than I thought she would and sat next to me. She wiped her hand across her forehead.
"Liss, are you sure you should be using so much spirit? Think about what might happen." I said.
"Rose, I know what I'm doing. I'm perfect right now. I don't feel the least bit upset, or crazy." She eyed me.
"You won't know that until you get mad at someone. Just promise me that you will try to use it a little less often. Please?" I asked.
She gave me a sincere smile. It was one of the things I loved so much about my best friend. She was so understanding. Sometimes that got on my nerves, but as of right now, I was happy. "If you think I should dull it down a bit, I will. Now, what's up?"
"Well…" How was I going to do this? There were so many people around here. Maybe I should tell her in her room or something. "Can we go back to your room?"
She looked at me, confused. "Why? Rose, what's wrong?"
"It's nothing. I just need to talk to you. I really don't want to do it around everyone, though. Is it okay if we go to your room and talk?" I replied.
She shrugged and got up. She looped her arm through mine and we went down the normal hallways of St. Vladimir's. It was a place I had called home for a long time. The school was always so…busy.
"So, Christian is meeting his aunt today at dinner." Lissa explained. Dinner would be at 6 in the morning. We run on a nocturnal schedule.
"That's nice." I replied. I was more worried about what I was about to tell her more than Tasha Ozera. Christian was Lissa's boyfriend, and a royal, like Lissa. They were Moroi vampires, and I was a Dhampir, meaning a guardian. Half-Moroi, Half-human. I know, it's weird.
There were also other vampires, Strigoi. They were the bad ones. Evil. They would take your life without even thinking twice. They lived for blood and power. They didn't have feelings. They were horrible creatures that tried to kill us daily. That's why Moroi needed Dhampirs. We were trained from a very early age to fight and kill Strigoi.
"Rose, are you okay?" Lissa asked.
"Yes, I'm fine." I replied, giving her a smile. She took that as a good sign and let it go. We turned around a corner and saw Dimitri at my door. Oh no.
Dimitri was my mentor. He taught me everything he knew, meaning he was a Dhampir also. He'd been the one to bring Lissa and I back when we ran away from St. Vlad's. I was going to be expelled after that incident, but he convinced them to let me stay. He told them that he would catch me up. Well, he did. I was one of the best at St. Vlad's. I was the youngest Dhampir to kill a Strigoi. Pretty impressive, I know.
Anyways, Dimitri and I became close as we trained. The bad thing is that I developed feelings for him. He returned those feelings, but was very careful about it. That is, up until recently. We'd known about our feelings for a while, but because of the age difference - he was 24, I was 17 - we were never able to be together. Well, a couple of weeks ago we'd lost control and done it.
He told me after that that we would be together no matter what. We would always be close to each other and he didn't care who knew about us. I believed him, and he'd kept his promise. We went on open dates, and didn't care who saw us. Yes, there were some who thought it was horrible, but we didn't care. We loved each other.
Now here he was, probably waiting for me to get back in order to go somewhere or talk together. And he looked like a God. Most people thought Lissa was the one who looked like a Goddess, but all Moroi did. They all had white skin that was flawless, and they were all tall. None were ugly, and somehow they were all graceful. Lissa had long blonde hair that shown white in the light. She also had beautiful blue eyes. These were from her father, who died with the rest of her family in a car crash.
No. To me, Dimitri was a God. He was six foot six inches tall, with long brown hair that went to his shoulders. It was one shade lighter than my brown hair. Mine was curly, but his was straight. His was pulled in a pony tail at the nape of his neck. He had muscles, but wasn't bulky, and had a beautiful tan. His big brown eyes always made me get lost when I looked into them.
I also had brown eyes, but not nearly as amazing as his were. I was your typical Dhampir girl: curvy, big breasts, and tan. What I also had were muscles better than most of the guys here and a rare attitude. Most people here learned from an early age that there was a certain way you were to act in society. I, on the other hand, had seen through their attempts and was the "rotten" one.
Dimitri lit up when he saw me. I did the same, momentarily forgetting my problems. Lissa rolled her eyes. She was surprised when I told her Dimitri and I were together, but she didn't put up a protest. That was why I loved Liss so much. She was my brick at times.
"Go ahead and talk to him. I'll go to my room and wait for you, okay?" She winked and headed to her room. I took a deep breath and headed over to Dimitri.
"Hey." I smiled as I walked up to him. He kissed my cheek and smiled right back at me.
"I've been waiting for you. I thought we could have dinner in my room, if you want." It was so hard to resist him, but I knew that I couldn't tonight. I needed to be with Lissa and figure some things out. I couldn't be with him, knowing that I was going to have his baby, and not tell him.
"Actually, Liss and I were going to have a girl's night. I hope you don't mind." I smiled brightly at him, knowing that he would play into it.
He shook his head and looked at the ground. "You aren't planning something that's going to get you into trouble again, are you?" He knew me way too well.
I laughed. "Not tonight, comrade." He laughed at my using of his nickname. He also had another nickname that I didn't call him but once or twice. Dimka. It was something only close relatives and friends called him. I knew I shouldn't, but I felt that it was something I couldn't use. I felt like it was special.
"Well, then I suppose it's alright." He kissed my forehead. "Get some sleep. Tomorrow morning we start early. Five-thirty." Which, of course, was five-thirty in the evening.
Ugh. One thing about Dimitri: he takes guarding seriously. It's something that he is very passionate about and that's why he's trained me so well. I admired him for that, but sometimes it was a little too much. He laughed at my expression and turned around.
I was about to turn around when I heard him say, "And Roza?" There went my nickname. I looked back at him. "I love you."
That made me melt. I had to fight the urge to giggle like a schoolgirl, which, trust me, wasn't like me at all. "I love you, too." That just felt so great to say.
I was giddy all the way to Lissa's room. That is, until I remembered what I was going to tell her. I slipped into her room and noticed she was sitting on her bed reading a magazine. That was so like Lissa. She didn't watch TV, like the rest of us. She liked to read. I didn't think that magazines counted since they were mostly pictures, but we'd debated and it turned out that they count as reading. Go figure.
She put the magazine - Seventeen, I noticed - on her nightstand and smiled at me. "Now, what is it that you want to tell me?" she asked.
"I never said I wanted to tell you anything." It slipped out before I could stop myself from sounding suspicious.
She frowned. "Well, no, but I figured that you did want to tell me something. Rose?" She looked at me with the suspicion that I knew was coming. What to do now? Blurt it out? Take my time? Ugh!
"I…uh…" I didn't know how I was going to do this. I took a deep breath. Lissa's hand was suddenly on mine.
"You can tell me anything, Rose. You know that, right? I'm your best friend. You have my full attention, and if it's something you want me to keep a secret, I'm not going to tell anyone." she reassured.
"Have you felt something through the bond?" Normally, Lissa couldn't feel anything through the bond. It only went one way. I could feel her emotions, slip into her mind, and pinpoint her if I needed to. She couldn't do any of that.
Again, she looked at me with suspicious eyes. "I just think that if we have to be in my room for you to tell me, then it's a secret. Rose, really, I'm getting worried. Just spit it out."
Okay, that last part wasn't like Lissa. She really was worried. I looked into her eyes and suddenly knew that it would be okay. She would help me get through this. "Well…you remember when you were getting hurt by that gang, and the darkness took over me a few weeks ago?" I asked.
"You mean, when Dimitri stopped you from basically killing people? Yes, I remember that. Why?" she asked.
I cleared my throat. "Dimitri took me to a guardian cabin out in the forest after that to get me under control." I paused to think about how I was going to say this. "I realized what had happened to me, and broke down. This…this caused me to give in to my feelings with Dimitri. It's what caused us to come out and tell everyone that we're together."
"Oh. Is that what this was all about?" she asked, with a smile. She looked relieved.
"Actually, there's more." She sighed. "Dimitri and I…well, we…we sort of…" I grimaced, letting her know what happened.
"Oh." she said. "Ooooh." She drew it out in understanding. Her eyes widened. "You mean you and Dimitri had…sex?" She whispered the last word.
I laughed internally at this. Lissa, herself, had lost her virginity before me, so it amazed me that she had to whisper…well, you know.
I nodded. "Wow. I didn't think you would share something like that with me, Rose. I really didn't." she told me, honestly.
"Well, that's not all I want to tell you."
She raised her eyebrows. "Rose…" I think she was starting to get where I was coming from. "Did you… Are you…pregnant?"
It was my turn to grimace this time. "A little?" I replied. Her mouth dropped to the floor. I'm pretty sure I heard the pang of the contact when it did. I didn't open my eyes to find out if I was right.
"Rose…does Dimitri know?" she asked.
I opened my eyes. "Actually…I was hoping you could enlighten me on that."
"Rose!" she yelped. She actually shot off the bed. I instinctively took a step back. "You have to tell him. This isn't something you keep to yourself, especially the…father. Wait a minute." She stood there in thought.
I knew what she was thinking. How could I be pregnant with Dimitri's child? Well, it wasn't simple for me to figure out, either. The only way a Dhampir could become pregnant was when they had sex with a Moroi. Having sex with another Dhampir did nothing, for reasons we didn't know. So, how could I be pregnant with Dimitri's child? My guess was that being shadow-kissed had something to do with it.
Shadow-kissed means that I was brought back to life. I have been touched by death. It allows me to see ghosts, and call upon them, but only in dire need. It is also why I am bonded to Lissa. Remember when I said that she could heal people because she had a power called spirit? Well, she can also bring things back to life. And by things, I mean people, too.
I was in the crash that killed Lissa's family. I died, too. Lissa brought me back. She did it on accident, not knowing that she had the power to do so. You see, every Moroi has a special power. Earth, Fire, Water, Air, and - now - Spirit. We didn't know about spirit until very recently.
"I know, I know. I think it's because I'm shadow-kissed." I told her.
She was brought out of her thoughts by my theory. "That's the only thing that makes sense." She got up and opened the door.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"I'm going to go find Dimitri and have him come back here. Rose, you have to tell him." she replied.
"Lissa…I don't know if I can. I don't know how he'll take it." I replied.
"Rose, I can tell you already. First, he'll be surprised and think about it. You'll tell him your theory and then he'll be ecstatic. Believe me. If Dimitri loves you as much as you say he does, then there will be no problem. You guys will work something out." she replied, assuring me before she left the room.
I took a deep breath and sat on her bed. I looked down at my stomach. Nothing showed, it was too soon, but I knew there was a tiny being inside me, and, to be honest, it scared me to death. Was I going to be able to take care of something so fragile and delicate? Would I be able to guard Lissa after I had the baby? Questions that ran over and over in my head with no solutions appearing.
A part of me wished that I'd never been shadow-kissed, but there was another part that knew I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for it. I just wished that there was an owner's manual to it. That would've saved me a lot of the trouble I'd had.
I picked up Lissa's magazine and read the front. There was a tiny magazine in the middle of the magazine itself that was a jeans guide. It showed you which jeans would compliment your figure best. I decided to check it out, knowing that jeans were the least of my worries. Soon, I wouldn't be able to wear jeans. I winced.
The rest of the magazine was stuff about experimenting with makeup, doing new hairdos, and embarrassing stories that people had sent in. Some of them were really funny, but most were just normal teenage things. That is, normal for teenagers who didn't live in my world.
There was a knock on the door. It was open, and a sexy God-like Dhampir stood in it. He looked at me with concern and closed the door. He took a deep breath before turning around. I wondered what that was about. I patted the spot beside me on the bed and he sat down. He wouldn't look me in the eyes.
"The Princess said that you had something to tell me." he said. Oh, yeah. I told you that Lissa was royal, right? Well, she was a Princess. The last Dragomir Princess, to be exact. There were eleven other royal vampire families. They made up the council that was basically our government.
"Yes." I wanted to take his hand, but decided against it. Maybe Lissa wasn't so dead-on about his reaction, the way things were going.
He waited for me to go on and when I didn't he said, "Go on."
"I…um…" I took a deep breath. "Well, I…" Oh no. I couldn't do this. I had to get out of here. Run, Rose, run! I hopped up and hit my hands on my thighs. Ouch, that kind of stung. "I think I'm going to get a drink." I turned to go to Lissa's fridge.
"Roza." That one word had me stopping in my tracks. I didn't like the way it sounded. Like he was heart-broken. Had Lissa told him, and he was upset? Or was he upset that I hadn't told him? I turned around to look at him, but realized he was now standing right in front of me. I hated it that he could sneak up on me like that. He took my hand and looked in my eyes. I quickly looked away.
"If… If you don't want me anymore, all you had to do was say so." he said.
"What?" I shrieked. Where had that come from? "That wasn't what I was going to say at all. Dimitri, did you think I was going to…break up with you?" I asked. I hadn't quite known what to say at the "break up" part.
"Rose, you aren't going to…break up with me?" His face lit up.
"Of course not." I took his face in my hands. He closed his eyes and leaned into them. "I love you."
"Oh, Roza, I love you, too. So much. That's why I was so worried." he replied.
"You never have to worry about that. Ever." I assured.
"Well, then, what do I have to worry about?" he asked, making me remember what he was brought here to be told. He seemed less worried now. He was still a little bit worried, but I could see that he was greatly relieved. I wasn't. I still wanted to run away.
"Um…" I looked at the ground. My hands let go of his face and were drifting down to my sides when he took them in his hands. They were so warm. I loved him so much. "There's something I have to tell you."
He laughed. "Yes, I knew that much. Now, tell me the rest, Rose." I looked up at him. He was looking at me with those big brown eyes that made me get lost all the time. Dang. How had I snagged him? The thought made me smile. He smiled, too. "Yes, Rose?"
I cleared my throat and wiped the smile off of my face. This was something that did not require smiling. I decided to take the other path to telling Dimitri than I had with Lissa. Instead of explaining, I could just say it with one quick breath. Which is exactly what I did.
"Iamgoingtohaveababy." I said in one word.
"What?" Dimitri asked. I could tell he'd picked up at least a little of it. His hands were now gripping mine tight.
"I'm going to-"
"Shh, Roza, I heard you." he interrupted. I looked up at him. His eyes were filled with rage. "Who's is it?"
I took a step back. "Yours." I said simply. Calm down, Rose. He's just as confused as you were in the beginning. He cocked his head to one side and brought his eyebrows together in confusion.
"How is that possible?" he asked.
I took that moment to set things straight. "What? Do you not want it to be yours?" I asked.
He was right in front of me in an instant. I'd been looking at the ground, and he made me face him. "Roza…" He brought his lips to mine and kissed me until I couldn't breathe. I was a little light-headed after that. "How?" he asked, bringing me back to the situation.
"I think it's because I'm shadow-kissed." I explained.
"And you're sure it's mine?" he asked.
I tried to raise an eyebrow and failed. Instead I fake-gasped. "You think I've slept with someone else, comrade?"
He laughed at this and shook his head. "Leave it to you, Rose, to make a situation like this light." Through his joking, I knew he was still as confused as I was. This kind of made me upset.
I clasped my hands together behind my back and looked at a wall beside me. "You don't…have to help me…raise it." I assured. I heard his sharp intake of breath. Suddenly, I wasn't on the ground anymore. A strong Dhampir had me in his arms.
"You think I would leave you and my…" He stared at me for a moment. "I mean, our child?"
Then we kissed until Lissa kicked us out of her room.
A/N: Okay, so I really hope this gave you a little taste of what's to come. Tell me what you think, and I'll keep going ;)