Chapter 5

"When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears"

Authors Note: Sorry for the wait guys. We have been so busy these last few weeks and this is a filler chapter so it was hard to get done. Anyways we hope you like it and please review. Thanks!

The next morning after the doctors checked Candy over one more times the doctors gave her the ok to go on home but she needed take it easy for a few day and then make a appointment to see her OB-GYN to double check everything. Dean was going to be there for her and make sure she was stress free. He didn't wanted anything happening to her or their baby. They had been given a second chance and they were going to make the most of it.

Dean held onto Candy as they walked out of the hospital. She was still feeling a little nauseous from the medication they had given her but when she saw her sister standing there with Sam she couldn't help but smile. They were all going to pick up right where they had left off. Everything was going to be alright and she believed that. Even though an angel in a trench coat said he had plans for them. That didn't matter now.

"Hey sweetie how are you feeling?" Lys asked and opened the front passenger door for her sister.

"Sore as hell and a little light headed but other than that...I've never felt better. I guess you heard the news."

With a big smile on her face Lys nodded, "I cant believe it. This is the best news. I get to be a aunt."

"I know. It still doesn't seem real to me." Candy said with a few tears in her eyes.

"Sweetie don't start crying on me now."

"Sorry its just exciting."

"I know."

Sam and Dean stood there in front of the car watching both girls tear up as they talked, hugged, talked some more, then hugged harder.

"So how long do you think they are going to do this?" Sam whispered.

"I don't know but they need to wrap it up. I'm starving. I have never wanted something to eat so bad in my life."

"Well tell them that we are ready to go."

Dean looked over at Sam and gave him a glare, "Me? You tell them."

"Are you crazy? I'm not telling them."

"Yes you are."

"Why me?"

"Because I'm older and my wife is the sensitive one." Dean smiled, "Good luck."

Sam slowly walked around the car and over to the girls and cleared his throat, "I know you both are real excited and so am I don't get me wrong. I mean this i amazing but I think we should be getting on the road. We have a four hour trip to Bobby's. So if you two are ready then..."

"Ok ok we get it. Dean's hungry. We can go now. We have plenty of time to talk." Candy said and climbed into the car.

Dean took a minute to look at her through the front window. She was glowing. If it took the rest of his life he was going to make everything up to her or die trying...again.

The drive to Bobby's was quiet. Candy was all smiles as she rested her hand on her belly. Dean would glance over at her and just smile. This was truly a miracle. The only problem was... what was this gonna cost them?

Once the four of them got to Bobby's it was early evening. The four got out of the car and headed to the back of the car to grab their stuff. Candy went for her bag just as Dean looked up from his phone. Deans eyes widened, "Whoa! What are you doing?"

Dean walked over to Candy and grabbed her bag.

"Dean I'm capable of carrying a bag," Candy said crossing her arms across her chest.

"I know...just its been a long 48 hours and I know you're exhausted." Dean gave her a smile and she just gave him a look.

"Right...that's true but if you try to start any over protectiveness I am going to kick your ass pregnant or not."

Dean grinned," Yes wifey." He kissed her cheek and placed his hand on her stomach looking down at it.

"Everything will be ok." She placed her hand on his.

Dean wished he could believe that.

It was a quarter after midnight and Dean was wide awake sitting in the den with a glass of whiskey. He was off in his own little world. He tried to pretend everything was ok and him and Candy were happy and normal but he couldn't. Sure they were happy, that was never the issue, but he was scared. They would never be normal. Their child may never have a normal life. He blamed himself for that. All he could do was keep fighting and hold onto that little bit of faith he did have buried deep within.

Candace lay in the bed tossing and turning. "No please." She whispered over and over again, "Not my baby. Please." She begged. "DEAN NO! She screamed out.

"Candy! Candy wake up!" Dean yelled as he shook her. As soon as she had made that first peep he ran upstairs and he was by her side, "Baby wake up!

Candy's eyes snapped open and she was covered in sweat, "Dean."

"I'm here baby." He said and went to wrap his arms around her to told her but she moved over in the bed, "Baby its me. You're safe."

"I know I just...just give me a minute." She said. She was still shaking. The last thing she saw before waking up was Dean standing over her with a knife and she saw that look in his eyes that she would never forget.

"Candy look at me." Dean begged her. He knew what she was dreaming of and it killed him inside. He hated himself for what he did but he did what he did to save her and their child.

"Its ok Dean." Candy said when she looked up and into his watery eyes, "Its ok."

"No its not." Dean said, "What I did..."

"You had a good reason. You saved me and our daughter."

"I hurt you, baby." Dean said as a tear rolled down his cheek' "How am I supposed to live with that?" He asked, "Baby...tell me what to do to make this right."

Candy moved back over to him and pulled him into her arms as they both sobbed, "It will get better. We're all together now. That's what matters." She said and the two held each other tight as they drifted off to sleep, praying tomorrow would be a new and better day.

Sam and Lys lay in their bed just looking up at the ceiling fan. It has been five days since they last had a drink from a demon and both were feeling it but more Lys than Sam.

"Five hundred twenty, five hundred thirty, five..."

"What are you doing?" Sam asked her.

"Counting how many timed this thing goes around. Nothing else to do." Lys said.

"Stop before you get sick."

Lys sighed and sat up in bed, "This is driving me crazy, Sam. We should be out there trying to figure out what the hell is going on. We should find Ruby and see what she knows."

"No!" Sam snapped and sat up, "You know where that will lead and we agreed to stop. Dean and Candy are going through enough."

"I know that so that's why its up to us to take some of the stress off them. I don't want my sister worrying. She needs to rest."

"Lys we will help them on our own. We don't need Ruby. What we were doing was wrong. We have to stop." Sam said and wrapped his arms around her, "We have each other and we will get through this. Trust me baby."

"I do. I'm just scared for them."

"I know but its going to be ok." Sam said. This was going to be a hard change but together they could do anything.

The next morning Candy wake up and rolled over and saw that Dean was no longer laying next to her. She sat up in the bed and looked around the room, "Dean?" She called out but got nothing.

She got out of bed and headed downstairs to see if maybe Dean was down there but all she saw was Bobby sitting at his desk, "Morning Bobby. Hey, have you you seen Dean?"

"Yeah that boy made his way through here about two hours ago."

"Where did he go?"

"He's out working on that damn car again. How you feeling this morning?" He asked her.

"A lot better." She said and placed her hand on her small belly, "It feels a little weird but in a good way." She smiled at him.

"That is one hell of a damn miracle." Bobby said.

"I know. We're lucky but I can't help but wonder why you know?"

"Yeah but let's not ask questions now. Just be happy."

"Trust me I am. Lys and Sam awake yet?" She asked and looked around.

"Not that I know of. I'm sure they are just as tired."

"Yeah I bet. I think I am going to go make sure Dean is ok."

"Just take it easy please." He told her. Those kids were the only family he had and he felt like it was his job to make sure they were all safe.

"I will." She said and headed out the front door.

She looked down at the garage and saw Dean leaning over the engine of the impala and sighed. Something was going on in the head of his and she wanted to know what. It wasn't like him to leave her alone in bed.

Candy walked across the yard and stopped next to the car, "You ok?" She asked him even though she knew the answer.

Dean looked up at her as he wiped his hands, "Fine." He said and walked over to the tool bench, "You should be in bed."

"Well I would be if you were next to me. Its not like you to leave your wife alone in bed."

"I couldn't sleep. Please just go lay down. You heard the doctor." Dean said.

"Yeah I did and I'm fine." Candy said as she watched him go back to work, "Don't shut me out, Dean. Talk to me."

"I don't want to talk. I want you to rest."

"I'll rest when you talk. We will never get through this unless we are there for each other. Please Dean." She pleaded.

Dean leaned up once from the car and turned to her, "There is nothing I can say. I sorry isn't enough. You have nightmares and so do I. How are we supposed to get through this? Tell me that? How are you ever going to look at me the same."

"Dean stop it! Just stop! I don't think any less of you. Yes I was scared of you and sure I still have a little fear in me but I can't get to a good place unless you talk to me and stop hiding what your feeling. We are having a baby!" She yelled with tears running down her face.

Dean saw this and it broke his heart, "Come here baby." He said and pulled her into his arms, "I'm sorry. I just have a lot going on in my mind. I just want to be a good husband and a good father. I want you two to be safe. That's all. The last thing I want is to stress you out."

Candy hugged him tight as she dried her tears, "You're already a great husband and you are going to be a great father. You need to trust yourself."

"I'm trying." He said as he wiped away her final tear, "We're going to be ok."

"I know. Now let's go inside and I'll make you something to eat."

"No I want you to rest. I'll make you breakfast." He smiled and kissed her on the top of her head. "Come on." Dean said and they two headed back into the house.

Lys stood at her window and just watched them with a smile on her face. She turned around and saw Sam still fast asleep. She knew they had agreed to quit with the blood but she was going to do what she had to do to protect her sister and her unborn child. She owed her that much.

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