A/N: Hello, this is my first fanfiction and i have great ideas for this one. I hope you review but i really just wanted to write this down, it has been playing on my mind for days now and i just needed to get it down on virtual paper. If grammar is incorrect, inform me and i will correct it. I really hope you enjoy it and i won`t be writing this to make you wait a week(unless it is a really long chapter or an important one) so i will be getting this of my chest finally and be able to write a great fanfiction for you all. Enjoy!

And i own nothing twilight related, it is all Stephanie Meyer. So don`t sue! :s

It was one month till my wedding. One month. As much as I love Edward I am not looking forward to being a spectacle and he knows how much I hate being center of attention. I didn't want a wedding but he did so I went along with it. I had to tell Charlie about it and believe me he was not happy but he went along with it, I was surprised at his reaction at first but then Edward told me he thought we would realize that we weren't ready for it and call it off, that we weren't that serious. Oh how wrong he was. I was more than serious, I was willing to give up my mortality for the man I loved so I could be with him forever, that screams serious to me.

"Bella?" Alice asked whilst waving her hand back and forth in front of my face.

"Sorry Alice, go on. I guess I just zoned out" I got lost in my thoughts once again as she continued telling me about the wedding.

My wedding. To Edward. That's all that should matter. I cannot believe I just realized that after months of arguing. Oh my god I am so stupid. All that matters to me is Edward. God I loved him so much. I will put up with the wedding and everything else because I love him.

In fact, I loved him so much that I put up with Alice`s Bella Barbie and this torture she calls planning a wedding.

I loved him so much that I put up with Rosalie. She hates me and she makes damn well sure I know it. I don't know why I get her bitchy treatment or what I did to deserve it but I put up with it for Edward. I don't know how my big bear brother Emmett puts up with her, they are complete opposites.

I loved him so much that I keep my distance from Jasper even though I would like to get to know him; he is going to be my brother-in-law. Edward went to the end of the earth and back to make sure that I wasn't even in the same room as him. I knew this hurt Jasper and he still felt guilty about almost killing me nearly a year ago at my disaster party. I forgave him of course hoping to get to know more about him, but that dream was short lived by the interference of my fiancée and pixie best friend. It annoyed me but I kept my distance, for Edward`s sake.

I loved Edward so much that I didn't go too far during the times we kissed even when my body was screaming at me to keep going. I always felt rejected when he pulled away. He always said that he did it because he could kill me and that we could wait till I was changed . I accepted it but I never felt more unwanted.

So I put up with all of this because I loved him.

Today the family was splitting up to go and get "necessities", as Alice called them, for the wedding, Edward and Alice is going to get the rented tables and chairs from somewhere in Oregon so they would be gone all weekend. Why Alice felt the need to pay for rented furniture for a whole month so she can test different seating options is beyond me but I let her have her fun.

Carlisle and Esme are going to get the decorations for the tent Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper are going to collect in Seattle, so it`s just me.

I drove home from the Cullens to find Charlie watching a game on the TV. Nothing changes there. I will miss him when I change, he won`t ever see me again after the wedding. Part of the reason of going through with this event is for Renee and Charlie to have closure. Renee was thrilled about my wedding and was reacting the complete opposite to what I thought she would. I would miss them both so much.

I was about to start on dinner when I realized I left my cell phone at the Cullens. Edward being Edward would panic when I didn`t answer it and come racing back home. Mm, that's not a bad idea actually, I could be with him and only him all weekend. No Bella, you need to get the phone otherwise it could mean hell to pay when he finds out I forgot it. He was still touchy over Victoria and asked me to keep my cell phone with me at all times. He was so over protective but that's Edward.

As I arrived in the driveway of the Cullens mansion I got out the key they gave to me for emergencies from my glove box, and walked to the front door. I heard music and giggling, I thought I was my imagination. No one was supposed to be home. As I walked further into the house I found that the noise I thought I imagined came from Edward`s room. As I walked in I heard a long bang that made my ears hurt, then another one. What the hell is going on?

As I opened the door to my only love`s bedroom, my whole world came crashing down. Again.

A/N:What you think? I would love to know and the next chapter is up so soon. Review!