Author's Note: Hope you likeey :) Leaving for France on Fridayy so you'll be *mostly* without me AGAIN. :( I'm sorry I haven't been posting, I've been with my cousin and haven't got any time on my mom's computer to write. Anyways, hope you like it. :)

Enjoy :3


He finds Carly to be
stunning.
First love.
His heart twirls like her skirts,
and his palms
sweat,
and his eyes are filled with
the glitter she puts on
her eyelids.
He thinks she's always
going to be beautiful.
She makes him a
happier person;
makes his life
worthwhile.
And he wants to touch her
so badly, every time she moves.
(But he can't ruin
the statue that is
her because she's perfect
and he can't ruin perfection.)
But he thinks her kisses would stop his world for just a moment.

.

She doesn't share
the feelings,
"I don't... love you."
Freddie can hear his
heart,
no more beats,
just the smash of glass
And Freddie
can hear blonde girl
laughing.
(He has to make blonde
girl stop teasing, stop
hurting him more,
stop making his life worse.)
Everyone must stop hurting him.

.

He saves Carly's life, and she
suddenly seems to feel
something for him,
because the pitter patter of her heart
goes boom boom.
The kiss is magic,
oh my god,
this is too much.
She tells him,
"I love you."
Freddie is lost for words,
until he says,
"I love you too."
(They stay together until his mom
finds out, and chases Carly out the room
and Freddie is left with
shiny shiny memories.)
I love you too.

.

Blonde girl says,
"She doesn't really love
you."
But blonde girl's eyes say more.
They say,
'Look me in the eyes and say you
don't love her anymore.
Please?'
So Freddie turns away,
holding in his desperate tears,
"Why does this always
happen to me?"
Blonde girl doesn't touch him,
she walks out of the room.
(Freddie finds it to
be cold without
someone there.)
Why did she have to hurt him?

.

He tells her that
she doesn't love him.
That's it's just
because he saved her.
He says, "We can
continue dating if you
still have feelings for me."
She looks at him
as if she's seeing him for the first time,
she kisses his cheek,
and he walks out.
(Freddie clutches his chest,
because it hurts
way more than he
expected.)
He realizes how dumb he really is.

.

And
Freddie Benson used to be
a good boy.
But he's not anymore, so
we say,
"Goodbye and
Hello."
(He says,
"I'm a broken heart.")
"Just look in my eyes and you'll see the pain."

.

Freddie becomes motorcycle boy,
minus the motorcycle,
because Freddie thinks
motorcycles are just stupid
death traps.
(His mom won't get him one.)
And blonde girl looks at him with
bottomless eyes.
"What happened to you?"
And Freddie whispers,
"Once upon a time,
the princess told the prince
she was in love,
but it was all a fucking lie."
Blonde girl's eyes widen,
and Freddie can see
Carly right behind him.
Sobs and gasps,
"I do love you."
(Freddie walks away
because he thinks his heart
will explode at the noise of her
shattered voice.
He says, "Now you feel it babe.")
The thing is she doesn't deserve it.

.

Freddie finds a
pretty girl.
He dumps her
within two days.
"What happened to you?"
She whispers,
"You used to be sweet dorky,
Freddie. But you're just
a monster."
He laughs,
"Broken hearts
hurt like a bitch."
(He closes the door and watches
the girl break from the glass hole.)
It's beautiful to watch. (He's become a sadist.)

.

It's a habit,
break sleep eat fuck break.
And blonde girl comes up to him,
"You haven't come to the
rehearsals Fredward."
He sharply says, "Don't you fucking
call me Fredward."
She laughs, "You think you're
so special."
He gruffly lights a cigarette,
"You're just a stupid naive girl."
She looks at the cigarette, snatches it
from his grasp and says,
"Don't be an idiot. You may think
you're the only one,
but I know what it's like to be broken.
And being broken is more than
looking like your some hotshot.
Being broken, is like being in love.
It's painful and it's beautiful and
confusing."
She looks at him with emotions raging
through her body,
through her eyes
and Freddie takes her gently and touches her heart.
Blonde girl becomes something more,
she becomes Sam Puckett as she
meets his lips.
It's exactly how he feels with
Carly, but Sam is a different person.
Sam is dark
and she pushes him away with a
no.
("I can't do this.")
He feels tingles through his lips one more.

.

She avoids him, and he keeps finding
ways to meet her eyes, tormenting
her.
(Tormenting himself.)
He feels a tap on his shoulder,
warm fingers that only touched him once,
from a girl who
broke his heart in the first place.
She whispers,
"You're a douche, but
I still love you."
He takes her hair in his fingers, easing
the silky strands,
and he says,
nothing.
(They don't kiss, but rather
hold each other up.)
It's why he still loves her, she keeps him broken.

.

They become a couple again,
hooray!
He's still bad boy Freddie,
and she's still sweet
Carly Shay,
and they balance each other out.
They kiss and
they hold hands, and
he wipes her eyes when
she cries, he loves
her in the day and
they sneak out in the night
to drink smoothies
in the park.
Strawberry kisses on
the slide.

And blonde girl looks at Freddie
as if she's only seeing how
desperate he is for
love.
(She brushes past him,
"You always were
a phony.")
He realizes he's between two things he loves.

.

Then, one day
Carly and Sam get into a giant fight
and Freddie hides,
"I'm not getting in the middle of you two!"
So he hides out in the library
and blonde girl floats through
and he whispers, "Sam Puckett's in a library?
Someone call the Guinness Book of-"
She silences him with a kiss and it's
tingles and shudders and
hoarse whispers, "You make me
so happy."
"I love you."
He pushes away, "I'm in love
with Carly"
And Sam whispers, "Well,
you can be in love with me too."
It's a fast paced sort of
chaos, with touches
and kisses and
rushing home to a bed as if the world is ending and
isn't it beautiful?
(He opens his eyes to find her locks of
sunshine spread against his pillow
and he thinks that he should be guilty,
but instead, he
feels like fire has been added
into his blood and this is a whole new
definition of stunning.)
But then he thinks of Carly and mutters curses, as he walks out of his
apartment into hers and says, "I love you."

(He makes love for the second time in his life.)

.

So the blonde angel,
who really should be angry
as Carly and Freddie walk
down the aisle, have
kids, kiss in front of her,
well, she doesn't mind because
her eyes will always meet Freddie's, and
they share a little bit
more than CarlyandFreddie do.
Because CarlyandFreddie are
a simple kind of love,
and SamandFreddie,
they make a baby,
(No one suspects him of being the father)
and they kiss in private like classy people,
and they don't need to walk down
the stupid aisle because
Freddie loves her behind
locked doors and it's
still as magical as
CarlyandFreddie.
Besides, Freddie did love them both.

.

And Carly, well,
she saw the looks between
them. And she knew
Sam's baby had the glow in her eyes
that looked all too
much like Freddie's. But Carly
has three of his children, and
Freddie gets to kiss her
in public, gets to say I love you and
she knows it's true because
he would never
leave her.
And Carly,
she loves him
more than life
He would never choose between them anyways.

.

So Freddie becomes the
man he never wanted to be.
But he has two leading ladies,
and they both
make him love.
So in the end, he dies with them both in his heart.

It's a new type of ending because it's painful and happy, so here's the irony of it all:

He's alone as he realizes who he loves the most. And as he smiles, the light leaves his eyes, his heart stops pumping, and his lips are still curved into a smile, and Freddie Benson is no more.


So? Who does he choose?

Hah, that's a mystery my fine friends. (I'M EVILLL!)

(Honestly, I fell in love with Creddie/Seddie. I couldn't choose.) :)