A.N: To everyone who read this, I'm back! ;) I don't know if you still read this though:p lol:D anyways, enjoy, and please don't forget to review! ;) also, thanks so much to mecherry for the pm and encouraging me! :)

Disclaimer: I don't own anything, Harry Potter belongs to genius JK Rowling and any resemblance between my OCs and real persons are completely coincidental. I also don't own the title of the story, it's from Placebo's "Songs To Say Goodbye", nor do I own the title of the story, which is from the song Big Freeze by Muse

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"You know what's really weird?"

My best friend heaved a sigh "Pray tell."

"I really, really can't focus on the subject, because I'm annoyed, and when I don't focus on the subject, it gets me even more annoyed, because I don't understand anything! All this, is like a vicious circle!"

She glared at me, then pointed at my book with her quill


"I don't want to!" I whined, pushing the books on the table "Can't we do anything else?"


"You know what we should do? We should get Malfoy and Blaise over here, then-"

"I said no!" she said sternly and poked me with the quill "Focus!"

"It's weekend, and what are we doing here? Studying. Please, please just repeat this sentence in your mind and find what's wrong with it."

"I swear to God-"

"I'll tell you what's wrong! The whole bloody sentence!"


"Honestly, who does that?!"

She pinched the bridge of her nose, reminding me of her mother, and opened her eyes, giving me a daring glare, then, she pointed at my book again.

I let out a pathetic moan, but she didn't seem affected at all.

"I will be the one you will bitch at when you fail." She said patiently "So, I'm stopping it before it can happen. Alright?"

"I'm already bitching at you." I reminded her and she buried her face to her hands

"Merlin help me."

"Help all of us!" I said dramatically, throwing my hands in the air "Save us from this madness!"

"Okay, that's it…" she muttered "Go and find the- the…" she waved a hand in the air and leaned over the book to whisper "The boy who refuses to get laid even if you want to."


"Overly hormonal Gryffindor?"

"I thought you said no to those nicknames." I told her and she heaved a sigh

"I'm still trying to come up with something better."

"Secret boyfriend who lived?" I offered and she threw her head back

"Your lack of creativity knows no boundaries."

"Shut up, nerd." I poked her and pushed my chair back, then stood up and stretched out "I'm out of here."

"Thank Merlin." She said, turning her attention back to her book, and I looked over my shoulder to look at the girls who stood up to follow me

"Nah, you stay here." I told them dismissively and turned to Natalie

"So? You sure you're staying?"

"Leave please, I'm begging you on my knees!"

"Fine fine… I'll be back soon-"


"Bye!" I pecked her on the cheek and left the Common Room. I checked my watch, making a quick deduction of where Harry would be, then made my way to a hallway.

I pushed myself off the wall when I saw Harry coming towards me –alone, thank God- and pulled him behind the column.

"What the-" he pulled his wand but lowered it when he saw me

"Sarah, what do you think you're doing?"

"I'm bored." I crossed my arms "Entertain me."

He blinked a few times as if he didn't understand what I meant


"Entertain me." I repeated, waving my hands as if saying 'here you go'

He let out a chuckle "Are you serious?"

"I'm bored." I stomped on my foot, "Find me a way to have fun. Preferably with you."

"S, -"


He seemed torn between ideas "Sar, I'm late for the practice-"


"I am the captain, you know?"

I pouted, narrowing my eyes "You prefer sitting on a broom and looking for Snitch over spending time with me?"

"Why are you trying to pick up a fight?"

I shrugged

"Look, meet me after the practice, I swear I'll entertain you, as you put it." He pecked me on the lips but I pinched his arm



"You're the worst secret affair ever." I stated "Let me put it this way, I don't do good things when I'm bored."

He smiled down at me fondly "Try to hold on a couple hours love, I'll be back before you know it."

I frowned "You go to that practice, and I'll withdraw any kind of foreplay for a week!"

"A week?"

I paused, thinking it over "Fine, a couple days." I sighed "Harry, come onnn, pretty please?"

He rolled his eyes "Grit your teeth, drama queen."


"Go torture those idiots around you, bully people…Isn't it what you do in your free time?"

I smacked his arm and he chuckled

"Sarah, we have a Slytherin match coming, the team needs that practice, okay? See you later." He pressed a kiss to the top of my head and walked away, leaving me gawking after him.

My so called boyfriend had left me for a Quidditch practice.

"I'll castrate you as soon as you come back Potter." I said through my teeth and stormed out of the hallway

"Have I mentioned how much I hate my secret affair?" I threw my body on the couch next to Natalie and she closed her book with a sigh

"You're back already?" she tilted her head to the right "If you were sleeping together, I'd say he had some performance problems…"

"He probably has some problems." I pointed out "And also, I despise him."

"What did you do this time?" she asked, and I opened my mouth, but then, gave her a disbelieving glare

"Me?" I asked "I didn't do anything!"

"I don't believe that for a second."

I pulled my brows together "Whose side are you on?"

She shrugged "Potter's."

"My point exac-" I paused "I beg your pardon?"

"I'm on his side in this relationship. At least he can be reasonable sometimes."

"Natalie, he has a girlfriend and a secret affair with me at the same time."

She looked deep in thought "Well I did say sometimes, didn't I?"

I wrinkled up my nose "You're not funny at all!" I exclaimed, poking her with my quill "And I'm hungry."

"No, you just don't want to study."

"That too," I admitted "But would you rather it if I started biting the edges of your books?"

She heaved a deep sigh and checked her watch.

"Okay, I'm gonna get ready and we can go to Great Hall." She said and walked upstairs, to our dorm. I put my feet to the arm of the couch and lifted one of the books to my eye level, then tossed it to the floor. I covered my eyes with my arm and heard someone entering the room, but didn't pay attention to them.

That was until they sat beside the couch. I frowned and pulled my arm back, to see Draco looking down at me.

"Did you want something?" I asked him and he smirked

"No. Admiring the view."

I tried to ignore how much it sounded like Harry. Rolling my eyes, I tried to push him off the couch

"Go away."

He clutched his heart "I'm hurt."

"Yeah, you don't have a heart. This couch is too small for two people, Seeker, go away!"

"To where? It's my Common Room too, you know…"

"Go- go practice Quidditch, isn't that what men do in their free time?"

"Pitch is occupied-"

"By Gryffindor, I know." I noticed what slipped from my lips at the last second and hissed silently. He shot me a weird look

"You keep up with Gryffindor Quidditch practice schedule?"

I made a face "I saw them getting ready while I was coming here." I said "I needed to take some fresh air, Natalie keeps making me study."

"Where is she?"

"Upstairs, getting ready for dinner. I'm starving" I heaved a sigh and inspected my fingernails "And today is boring."

"I could entertain you, if you found me."

I snorted, praying Natalie would come downstairs soon "I'll pass that offer, thank you." I said "Besides, you have a lot to think about, I'm sure."

He seemed uncomfortable for a second "Such as?"

"Such as Quidditch! I swear I'll attack someone if we let Gryffindor win the cup this year too!"

"You're telling me…"

"I mean it." I sat up straighter "It's getting too annoying." I poked him "Do something about it."


"Yes! Who else?"

Draco shook his head slightly "There are more important things in life than school cups, Sar. Especially now."

"Who are you and what did you do to Draco?"

He chuckled "You should know it better than anybody." He said "And tell Natalie not to put so much thought on school work."

I pulled my brows together "And it's because…?"

"The Dark Lord will not check our grades, will he?" he asked "Since he is back… All that matters is how faithful you are, or how devoted. School hardly means a thing anymore."

I could feel the playfulness leaving me in a second, and my expression turned stony.

"Right." I said slowly "Yes. You're right."

It felt as if my stomach was filled with ice. Yes, The Dark Lord was back and…

After Harry.

He's here. I thought to myself, in an attempt to relax myself He's here, just in a Quidditch practice. He's safe.

Until when?

"Hey there, I'm-" Natalie paused when she saw Draco "Ready."

"Hey Natalie."

"Hi Draco." She smiled as I pushed myself off the couch, not hungry at all anymore.

"Are you coming to the dinner?"

Draco nodded "In minutes. Don't wait for me, since Sar is starving…"

She laughed and I stared at them, then tried to smile

"Yeah. Um- see you there." I said and pushed open the portrait, with Natalie running to catch up with me

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I muttered "I'm just hungry, that's all. Lets go."

"I'm talking to you, Sar, are you listening?"

"I am."

Blaise raised his brows "What was I saying?"

"Bla bla boring Quidditch bitching bla." I said, turning my gaze to my plate, twirling my fork in pasta but not taking it to my mouth. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Draco and Blaise exchange looks, but neither of them said anything, instead they turned to Natalie, who shrugged nonchalantly.

"You okay there Sar?"

"Just because I don't feel like taking participation in your yet another immature game conversation, doesn't mean that I'm not fine." I said tersely and Blaise frowned and opened his mouth, but Draco beat him to it

"Weren't you just telling me how you didn't want Gryffindor to take the cup this year?"

"Didn't you just tell me it's not important anymore?" I asked back and Natalie tilted her head to the right, then stole a look at Gryffindor table.

I felt like bursting into a laughter, why did she always assume my bad spirits were caused by Harry and the stupid redhead slut?

Blaise cleared his throat, apparently still annoyed and leaned back, crossing his arms

"What happened Sar, does your spies not tell you stuff you need to know about Potter anymore?" he asked and my head shot up, my eyes wide. My stomach leaped and suddenly I blocked out everything but him.


"You're not the only person with friends in different houses." Blaise grinned and Natalie squeezed my hand under the table, tense beside me

"What are you talking about again?" she asked and Blaise leaned forwards, a grin playing at his lips

"Our precious ice queen has a new target, isn't that right, S?"

"What target?" Draco asked, confused "Sarah?"

"Nothing Draco. Look, Blaise thinks he's being smart, isn't it adorable?"

Blaise shot me a look "You should be careful of what you order to people, one would get the wrong idea."

"Oh really? Why don't you share that idea?" I growled and he held up his hands mockingly

"Well we know for a fact that you're gonna use that info to play him, but a simple observer would think that you have an…interest."

"Interest? On Potter?" Natalie snorted "Watch your mouth, Blaise."

"I lost my appetite." I pushed my plate, the anger boiling inside of me and I attempted to stand up, but Draco grabbed my hand before I could stand up to my full height, making people around us and Harry and Granger to look at us.

"Sar. Sit down."

The shock only lasted couple of seconds and as soon as it wore off, I started seeing red

"The next time you order me I'm gonna take your wand and shove it up your-"

"I'm not ordering you." Draco said calmly "I'm asking you to."

I glared at him, half of my face curtained by my hair, my teeth clenched. I pulled my hand back forcefully, only to slam both hands to the table and lean in towards Blaise

"Sarah-" Natalie tried to calm me down "Sweetie-"

"You should be careful from now on." My voice resembled a hiss, a true Slytherin snake. "Because what you do, and what you accuse me of…" I smirked, and leaned to whisper into his ear "Not only affects you, but also your family. Just like I affect my family and their decisions on whom they do business with." I pulled back, my smile the very picture of innocence.

Chin up, head high Beckingham.

I grabbed my bag from my seat and stormed out of the Great Hall, bumping into people but not turning to apologize or even look. I tried to get my breathing under control as I walked into an empty hallway, throwing my bag to the floor and sat down, pulling at my hair.

He was gonna be fine. Of course he would be fine and no one was suspecting of anything and everything was gonna be perfect and shit.


"Gryffindors should stop following me already." I grumbled to myself and turned my head "He started sending you now, Granger?"

She didn't look bothered at all "You looked distressed and-"

"I'm fine." I smiled at her sweetly "I don't know why you'd think that. Anyways, you're his owl now or something? He couldn't get up to follow me because Weasel was sitting in his lap?"

"For a Slytherin, you sure are terrible at hiding your emotions."

"That would be because I don't have emotions." I pointed out and she snorted, crossing her arms.


"So, how're the classes going? How's the whole thing with male Weasel going?"

"What happened?" she asked again "Ginny wasn't even-"

"I'm gonna throw you a curse, I don't even care how smart you are." I tried to threaten her but she didn't look affected at all.

"What happened?"

I took a deep breath and eyed her up and down "How can you be friends with him?"

She paused "What?"

"The guy is practically a dead man walking, and The Dark Lord is back and he's gonna- he's gonna go after him and won't stop until he's dead and- and-" I blinked back the tears, stammering "Just- you know, you should- you should- be trying to-" I stopped talking when words started feeling too much and closed my eyes, resting my head back on the wall.

"Sarah, he's gonna be fine."

"Yeah." I muttered "Yeah. I forgot. You guys still think you're gonna win this war."

"Yes." She said with determination in her voice "We do. We will."

"Why does bravery always equal naivety?" I muttered and lifted my head from the wall when I heard another voice

"Thanks Hermione, I'll take it from here." Harry said, eyes locked on me and I rolled my eyes

"Great. Yay for Gryffindor Support Team."

"You sure?"

"I could handle clawing and screaming, I think I can handle a little pessimism and sarcasm." He murmured to her "Comes with the package, really-"

"Granger, get out of the way." I pointed my wand at him but he didn't even bother to look at least a bit intimidated. Hermione let out a small laugh

"See you later Sarah."

"Later, Granger." I waved a hand as Harry sat beside me

"So. I leave you alone for couple of hours and you think I'm gonna die?"

"You have a way with words, Potter."

"Obviously." He said with a small smile "What's wrong?"

"Blaise was making assumptions about-" I paused "Well… He was- Nevermind. I talked to Draco earlier."

He clenched his teeth


"Yeah. And he was going on and on about how the Dark Lord was back-"


A shiver ran down my spine "I'm gonna smack you in the head, Potter, Merlin help me-"

"He was talking, and?"

"And nothing." I muttered "That's it."

He paused

"You got angry because Malfoy said Voldemort was back?" he said, confused "Um, Sarah, I don't know where you've been for the last months, but he is-"

"Yeah and how are you not panicking?" I asked defensively "What if- what if something happens, Harry? What if he finds a way into the school? What if he attacks in summer? What if-"

"Sarah. Breathe."

"Don't fucking tell me to breathe!" I smacked him in the arm "What if something happens to you?" my voice dropped to a whisper and he smiled softly, then pressed a kiss to my head.

"Come on." He stood up and offered me his hand. I stared up at him

"Where are we going?"

"To the Room of Requirement-" he heaved a deep sigh upon seeing my expression "Not for that," he added "I told you. No sex until you believe that I love you. But I promised you earlier to entertain you remember?"

"I'm talking about something important here-"

"You're panicking." He said "Don't get me wrong, it's quite a sight-" I smacked his hand "This relationship is going abusive-" I smacked his hand again "Okay, okay, stop hitting me woman!"

"Harry, I'm serious-"

"Sarah." He cut me off "It's gonna be fine, okay? I know he's back."

"But you aren't doing anything-"

"I am." He cut me off "Don't ask any more questions, but I'm not gonna be defenseless. Now, are you coming to the Room of Requirement so that I can distract you?"

I sighed, took his hand and stood up

"This conversation is not over."

"I wouldn't dream of it. And I thought girlfriend nagging was just a myth."

"Oh, Ginny is giving you a hard time?" I snarked and he hung his arm over my shoulder

"No, a certain Slytherin is." He said as we approached to Room of Requirements and the door appeared. "And I'm gonna try to shut her up-" he pressed a kiss to my lips "Even if it takes me hours."

I giggled and let him pull me towards the door, and we both stumbled into the room.

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