I met his mother, Harriet Ferrier, I have never seen anything more heartbreaking then that woman's lost eyes. Her husband "left" them and now Nero was dead, I could tell Seth was taking it the hardest. Once we were finished giving our apologies and respects, we left, we weren't an hour into the drive back home when, "Summer pull off the road," Seth said I parked outside of an vacant gas station. I looked over at Seth, he was crying,
"Seth," I pulled him into a hug,
"what have I done Summer...what have I done," he cried harder now.
"Sssshhh," I brushed my fingers through his hair, "you did nothing wrong Seth,"
"YES I did," he said looking straight at me.
"I killed a family,"
"not literally, but he was all they had left, that woman's eyes...I can never forgive myself, what have we done..I was so full of anger I wanted revenge now..what have i dont" he cried again, through the silent ride home, through the night.
No one ever said marriage was easy, let alone life. Seth told Sam and the others about the trip, you could tell Seth and Sam were the only two that had a heart. The others didnt care much. Seth and Sam took a day trip fishing, while Emily and I stayed home and she helped clean the house.
"Is it hard Emily? Marriage I mean?" I asked as we sat down for a break,
"of course it is but you and i are lucky, we know that our husbands will love us unconditionally, there is no doubt, but Summer," I looked up at her, " There was a point when it felt like Sam and I were always fighting, and one night it was bad, he came up and hugged me and whispered 'I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it.' If you remember that then you will make it. I promise"
I thought about what Emily said all day until Seth came home, he seemed a little better, he had a small smile on his face as we sat and watched Modern Family.
"Seth," I said as I muted the show,
"what is it honey?" he asked looking at me,
"I need you to realize that, what you did...its in the past, thats how I got through my parents death, I faced the fact that I need to move on cause if not then I'd be missing out on life. I feel like you dont see me anymore, like your consumed with this guilt, Nero knew he was going to die, I knew he was going too. Marriage is a hard thing Seth, from what I've heard, but I cant just be the one trying, I need you." I took a deep breath, "I'm not going to say it'll be easy..im saying it'll be worth it." Seth was quiet as he listened and once I was done he just smiled as brushed his warm hand upon my cheek.
"I love you so much Summer, you have such a beautiful soul, I am sorry I am caught up in all of this, and you just inspire me everyday and make me want to keep going. I will try more and more in this marriage, I love you more than life itself, I am sorry," I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, the warm, butterfly feeling sprung in my stomach it felt so different, but I loved it. When I looked back up at him, it was like I looked at him for the first time. He was so beautiful. I pulled him toward me, his lips so soft and sweet on mine, the world was still and silent, all that existed, all that was in motion was my love and I.
Nero and his face and unfinished business haunts my dreams. One night he actually spoke to me. "kill him Summer hes coming...my father,"
"AHHHHHH" I screamed waking up "what what is it?" Seth said pulling me into his arms, tears began rolling down my cheeks, i just cried until I told.
Seth took me straight to Sam and I told him about the past dreams with Nero and his fathers dead body then the most recent one when Nero spoke. "This isnt a job for you Summer, we will take care of him," Sam said,
"NO!" I screamed at him, everyone stopped no one heard that from me, "I need to I know those dreams mean something, most of my dreams do," I turned to Seth, "you know that is true," it took a moment but he did nod. I stepped closer to Sam and looked at him with scared eyes, "I have to do this, for kim, for nero and his family, me."
Sorry this was short and i have literally taken forever to write more but i had writers block and school was kicking my ass but this summer is all uploading :)
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