Heres the first outtake from Fade Into You! Enjoy
It's Bellas letter from chapter 6. Now that it has been posted on awordybunch, I am free to do as I wish with it!
There will be other outtakes to come later. Other POVs, etc. Will not happen for a little bit though, stick with me to find out why!
DISCLAIMER: Still don't own Twilight. Still don't own Starbucks. Still a bitter Bitch...LOL Make me less jaded and review!
Sept 21 2008
I hate to do this, but I'm actually happy that I am leaving before you showed up. I'm very embarrassed and wish that you had never needed to see me in that situation. I hope you can forgive me.
The nurse gave me a package, and she said they were letters from you. When I opened it up I found four separate ones. She then told me that you had been here for three days straight as long as visiting hours would allow.
I don't know why you weren't here yesterday or today, but its okay. Its not fair of me to keep you here. You have your own life, your own friends, and you can do so much better than me.
Don't worry though, I haven't left alone. Rose and Jasper will be coming to pick me up. They know about you, I hope that's okay. Rose thinks I'm insane and Jasper wants to spell check your letters, but I wont let him.
There are so many things I'd like to tell you about. Like that I was homeschooled. I made it sound before like I went to school and that was wrong. I shouldn't be misleading, it isn't right. I worked with a group and Jasper was one of the other students in that group.
Also, I saw you more than once in that coffee shop. Sometimes I would just stand there and watch you, hiding behind people or the telephone pole hoping you couldn't see me, I know I'm not the prettiest sight.
When you came to my parents home (which I still have no idea how you found it, you know) and you called me pretty girl, I couldn't take it. I didn't feel like you were lying and that scared me senseless.
Please. I need some time now. I need to process things.
So while I did get your letters, I haven't read them yet. I also don't know when I will. You have your own life to live, so you should. I promise to take care of myself, but I don't want you to worry. Worry isn't a look that is becoming on that beautiful face of yours. Especially when I know I put it there.
I know that if you truly care about me, you'll understand. Thank you so much for coming to my rescue, though. I shudder to think about what might have happened had I never met you. I'm better now and I'm sorry to have put you through any of that.
Rosalie is here now and she's tapping her foot ready to leave. Also, Jasper is trying to read this and he just told me that my sentence structure is awful. I have to let him fold this. Don't ask.
Thank you so much