1Title: Would You have Stayed

Author: Gin

Fandom: Star Trek: New Frontier

Disclaimer: Elizabeth Shelby and Mackenzie Calhoun and StarFleet belong to Peter David, John Ordovar, Paramount, and many other people. I'm just borrowing them.

Summary: Shelby and Calhoun meet up again after years apart

Author's Note: This is my first fanfic that I've ever posted. It's not that great, but the idea has been forcing itself upon my mind for the last several weeks. I'm still writing my other piece, I should have that ready to be posted in not too long, but this one insisted. I'll work on it some

more, but if I don't post it now, I never will. So please, comments, both negative and positive, but be gentle. (Please). I sent this to both lists, so if you're on both, you'll be getting it twice.

Would You Have Stayed?

Admiral Elizabeth Shelby walked into the banquet room and sighed. She really didn't want to be there, but this was the party for all of the newly promoted admirals and it was a must. Hopefully, she wouldn't meet--


Fifteen years. It had been fifteen years since she had last seen Mackenzie Calhoun. Why couldn't it have been another fifteen? She had thought about him every day of those last fifteen years, but she hadn't seen him-- until now.

"Admiral," she said stiffly. He stopped, looking hurt at her greeting.

"Being formal are we?" he asked, quoting her from the day she had barged in on him on the Excaliber. She stayed silent and looked away.

She refused to let him look into her eyes.

"Elizabeth," he said, taking her hand and leading her to a table.

"I've tried contacting you, but you ignored my messages. Why?"

She sat there, fighting to keep the tears of fifteen years from surfacing. How could she explain? She couldn't return his messages because it had hurt too much. It still hurt. "I was busy."

"Why'd you leave?" was his simple question. He knew the sole reason she left the Excaliber-- and him-- was not because she wanted her own command.

"They offered me the ship, and you didn't try to stop me," she said quietly, almost too quietly for him to hear. He sat there stunned for a moment.

"If I had said I wanted you to stay, would you have?"

She didn't answer for a minute. She had avoided him five years ago when she was promoted to Admiral-- three months after him-- she didn't want to face the consequences then and she still didn't now. Could she tell him the truth? What would happen from there? She debated internally whether to lie or not, finally she said, "Yes. I would have stayed."

It was Calhoun's turn to sit stunned as he looked at her. "Really?"

But he could see that it was true. For fifteen years, they had longed for each other, and their stubborness had been the cause. "I'm sorry."

It was the best he could do. "Can we do that again?"

She looked at him confusedly, unsure what he meant. "Eppy, if transfer to Starbase 885, will you stay?"

"Yes," she said.

The End

of the beginning


The Beginning

for them