Disclaimer: Not mine. If it were we'd see Belsper twilight as a series :)

Authors note: As much as I'd love to say im not going awol again I wont. I'll try not to.

To the person who messaged me yesterday to ask me if this story was done, the answer is no, and this chapter is for you. Im not sure it'll ever be done. In my defence I did get married between this chapter and last, but mostly im just unable to get my mojo going ;p Sorry if im making you read the whole thing again because im taking so long between updates, I understand if you wanna wait until the day i'm (hopefully) finished.

I love everyone who reads, and super love anyone who reviews :)

Song used is ready to love again by lady antebellum. I've tried to avoid Lady A for this fic, but something about their music screams at me to use every damn song in this story, so you'll have to bear with me ;) As per usual to understand the emotion in the moment, always a good idea to listen to the songs I list lyrics for.

Enjoy – and thank you for sticking with me.

The days that followed were wonderfully relaxing. Charlotte took Bella shopping and to a beauty spa ( A place Bella thought she'd never go voluntarily) Peter took every opportunity to make her blush claiming, when Charlotte or Jasper came to her defence, that Bella needed to loosen up a bit.

The rest of the time was spent with the girls sitting around the pool in their new bikinis, while the boys were inside playing xbox, and smashing up the house when one of them lost.

"Sooo Bells... I've been trying to wait patiently... Honestly I have... But the suspense is killing me!" Charlotte propped herself up on her elbow throwing a shadow over Bella's pleasantly warm body. Raising her sunglasses onto her head, Bella's eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"Sorry?" Charlotte rolled her eyes.

"Honestly Bella?" She waited expectantly for Bella to say something, and exhaled with frustration.


"What about Jasper?" Bella glanced over her shoulder to see the boys wrestling on the floor in the lounge room. Her lips turned up into a smile she couldn't stop as she watched Jasper pin Peter to the floor. Charlotte followed her gaze and suppressed the urge to help Peter.

"That Bella! I told myself I was gonna wait, Honestly I did. But you don't know how long it's been since I've had a friend, and apart from that..." Charlotte took a breath and calmed herself down. Her voice dropped to a soft whisper, the emotion as obvious as the sparkles on her skin.
"He's never been this happy Bells... He needs someone like you. The weight that sits on his shoulders... He's a good man. He deserves to find his place in the world."
Bella sat up surprised.
"You think I have some... something to contribute to that? To his place in the world?" Charlotte nodded in response. Bella shook her head in denial

"I'm sorry Char. I've never known someone like Jas, I hope he finds whatever it is he needs, But I'm just a friendly voice a thousand miles away. I'm not sure what you expect me to do for him."

"You're here now though..." Charlotte urged

"Yeah, and I'm happy to help him anyway I can."
"You aren't getting what I'm saying Bella... I'm talking about you and Jasper..." Charlotte was cut off mid sentence by a very annoyed looking Peter.

"Honey..." Charlotte looked very guilty all of a sudden.

"I'm Sorry but you can't expect me to..." Peter stood above where Charlotte lay, giving her a look that said it was exactly what he expected her to do. Charlotte bit her tongue, lying back with a defeated sigh.


Bella at this point was very confused and looked to Peter to explain whatever it was that she was obviously missing as Jaspers arms appeared loosely around her neck.

"Perfect timing Jas. You and Bella are going out. Picnic in the sun so my spidey senses tell me." Bella opened her mouth to protest but Peter cut her off.

"Everything is fine Little Bit, Char's just bein' nosey, right Sugar?" Charlotte looked apologetic.

"Sorry Bells. Have fun today." With that Charlotte took off at a run with Peter a few paces behind her.

"Huh... was that odd to you too?" Bella tilted her head back to look at Jasper

"Yup. Peter always is a little odd though. Now... About that picnic!"

An hour later Bella found herself sitting in the middle of a golden field on the softest blanket she'd ever felt. She couldn't seem to stop her hand from running over the soft fibres as she looked around at the remnants of Jasper's childhood.

"Not what your expecting?" Jaspers trademark smirk fell onto his lips as he felt Bella's wonder and confusion.

"I guess from all the stories I kinda expected a house..."
"By the time I left Maria and went searching for my past, the house had already been destroyed. There was a huge fire here in the early 1900's." Bella lay back on the blanket looking up at the cornflower blue sky and the fluffy white clouds floating by. Sadness tinged her emotions. Jasper lay back beside her, their hands brushing lightly against each other.

"It probably sounds stupid, but even without the house and the barn, without the people and the animals, It still feels like home... Something in the air, or the earth. I've never felt at home anywhere else." Jasper watched as a beautiful smile lit up Bella's face.

"I get that. I wonder if it's just Texas? I've never been here before in my whole life, but I feel like I shouldn't ever leave. That I'll never be happier, Never be more at peace than I am here."

"I'm glad you like it here. I'm thinking of staying here from now on. Take a break from the Cullens for awhile. With Ally gone, there's no reason for me to stay. I think it's time I stay with my family. And you Darlin'..." He picked up her hand, cradling it gently in his own as he brought it up to his lips and graced it with a gentle kiss. "Are welcome any time, for however long you like..." The intensity in his words brought heat to Bella's cheeks and for a moment she wondered if that same intensity was present in any other situations. He smiled and arched an eyebrow at her as his cool fingers moved lightly on the underside of her wrist making a delicious tickling sensation that increased the heat rapidly growing in the rest of her body.

"We gonna play that or is it her for decoration?" Bella croaked out breaking the staring competition they'd been having, nodding at his acoustic guitar he'd brought along.

"You know how to play?" Jasper ask with surprise, reluctantly releasing her wrist and handing her the guitar instead. Bella responded with a smirk of her own.

"Have to do something with all the soul searching I've been doing lately. Seemed more cost effective to sing than to write a hundred journals."

"Then the stage is all yours Darlin'" Jasper sent her a much needed burst of confidence and Bella took a deep breath and started.

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognise my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

Jasper found himself captivated with the girl in front of him. Her eyes closed as she sung, her fingers dancing over the strings of his favourite guitar. Her voice wrapped him up in strings of comfort and beauty and he swore he could almost see colours from the emotions swirling inside her.

Just when we think that love will never find you
You runaway but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that you can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again
Bella's eyes unconsciously opened, and she found herself unable to look away from the golden orbs in front of her as she finished her song.

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again

Before he could stop himself or understand why, he found himself hoping that she'd meant what she'd been singing. He kept his eyes locked with hers as his fingers lightly brushed the side of her face, a trail of heat instead of ice following his touch as her breathing hitched and her heart stuttered a little at the intensity flowing between them. He leaned in, placing the softest of kisses on her cheek, Changing direction at the last second from his intended destination. He felt the confusion and disappointment swirling around him as he stood and offered his hand to Bella.

"We should get back..." His voice brought her back to reality as she shook her head to regain her senses.

"Yeah. Of course..."