A/n: Okay I read this book and cried like a freaking baby so I thought I would take you into the mind of Ingrid during some of her journal entries.

Disclamer!: I do not own Hold Still but the tear jerking Nina LaCour does.

Warning: May be OOC… I haven't read it in a while.

Dear Earth,

Why do you hate me so much? I never did anything to you yet you just won't swallow me up whole. You sit there and watch it all happen. You don't care what I say. I want it to all go away. Please make it go away. No one else can help me. You won't do that little thing for me? I would be so greatful. I would forever be in your debt. Oh Earth please just eat me up. Oh Earth please make it hurt. I deserve it. Oh Earth please just make it end.

~Ingrid

Dear Anyone that Cares,

How do you not notice what's happening to me? Do I need to write it on paper for you? How do you not feel it in the air? Do I need a sign pointing to me saying Suicidal? How do you go about with your life? Do I have to ask you for attention? I'll get that attention soon enough. To bad I'll have to be dead.

~Ingrid

Dear Earth,

Now will you help me?

~Ingrid