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"I lie in an early bed
Thinking late thoughts
Waiting for the black
To replace my blue
I do not struggle
In your web
Because it was my
Aim to get caught
But daddy longlegs
I feel that I'm finally
Of waiting to be
Consumed by you
Give me the first taste
Let it begin
Heaven cannot wait forever
Darling, just start the chase
I'll let you win
But you must
Make the endeavor"
First Taste by Fiona Apple
Edward fell into my entryway.
"Edward, what are you doing?" I was shocked to find him on my floor.
"Bella," he whispered. He must have fallen asleep outside my door. My heart melted, slightly.
"Bella, I wanted to talk to you, in person." He rose up off the floor rubbing the sleep from his eyes. "Can I come in and talk to you, please?"
I hesitated momentarily unsure of what to do, but nodded. We walked into the living room and sat facing each other. His hands were clasped in his lap and his foot tapped nervously on the floor. I looked at him waiting for him to begin.
"I owe you an apology," he started. "I shouldn't have attacked you like that at the club. It was wrong of me to assume that you felt what I was feeling and I should have considered Lauren's feelings also. Although we aren't dating, not even close actually, I should have been mindful of her because I did bring her with me to the club."
I gaped at him as if he had three heads. He was not only apologizing for kissing me but also for hurting Lauren. Wait, now I was confused. Did he regret kissing me? Did he regret hurting that Lauren bitch?
"I didn't mean for any of that to happen." He looked up. Oh, great, here comes the rejection statement. "I like you very much, Bella, and I'm beside myself that we started off on the wrong foot."
I couldn't swallow. Was he seriously admitting to liking me? How? We'd said all of two words to each other.
"Edward, you say you like me, but in all honesty you don't even know me." Was this an act to get in my pants? Acting all sincere and apologetic? Please.
"I know I don't know you that well or really at all. I don't think we've had one full conversation since we've met, but what I feel when I'm around you it's like… it's like a pull. Like my body is the polar opposite of yours and it just can't stay away. Tell me, do you not feel it, too?" He shifted slightly seemingly uncomfortable.
Oh, geez. He'd just nailed exactly how I felt whenever he was around. It's true we'd never had one full conversation. I knew nothing about him except that he's from the UK and that he's here for school, but what does he study? How old is he? Does he have any siblings? I didn't know, but I wanted to. I looked over at him. It was all true. When he was around I wanted to be closer. He was sitting across from me but his head was in his hands. How was it possible that this man was admitting to liking me without knowing anything about me and I doing the same? I didn't know but I didn't question it.
"Yes, I feel it, too," I sighed. He looked up, hope shining in his eyes; however, my mind was reeling. "But what you may not know is that I just got out of a long relationship and it didn't end all too well." I frowned at the memories. "But I'd like to try being friends first and see where it goes?" Yes, I could try. Jacob had never called me. Not like I would take him back anyway but it was the principle of the matter. Four years down the shitter. Shouldn't he be groveling at my feet or something? Or at least attempting to? Anyway, I knew I wasn't ready for a full-fledged relationship, but I was willing to try something with Edward. He came over from his seat and sat down next to me.
"We can take it slow. To be honest with you, I'm not really into the whole relationship thing right now either, but I'm willing to try, also." I wasn't exactly sure how to place that statement, but he said we could go slowly so I agreed. We continued to talk for the rest of the day and into the night. I told him about my parents and school. I learned about his family and his school. He was twenty-four and working toward being a doctor. Apparently, doctors and politicians ran in his family. I learned that he had an older brother named Emmett and that Jasper and he had been friends since they were kids.
"So, Jasper was told to run through the woods to keep this monster from getting him, right? All the kids thought it was funny when he went running off and fell. He busted up his knee really good. Anyway, I was the only one that didn't laugh and actually stuck around to help him back to his house. We've been best friends ever since. I've had his back and he's had mine." I was laughing so hard at the stories he was telling of him, his brother, and Jasper. It felt like I was there and I could just imagine a tiny Jasper running for his life from a nameless monster.
"Oh, my, that's too funny." I giggled.
We shared more childhood stories and before I realized it, it was well after eight. We'd been talking for more than six hours. I don't even think Jacob and I had spent that much time together awake.
"Ummm, I'm really hungry. I'm going to go grab some grub. Would you like to join me?" He nodded and smiled.
From that moment on we were inseparable. School started that Monday. Edward's class load was heavy, and with it being my last year, I had a decent load as well plus I had to work some hours at the library which was part of my program requirement.
It was now a Tuesday night in mid October. I'd known Edward well over a month now and we had yet to do anything and by anything I mean nothing at all. I was getting frustrated. I remembered my conversation with Alice a week ago.
"Seriously, Bella, when are you going to bone that hot piece of ass?"
"What?" I stopped in my tracks to look at her. We were out on one of Alice's many shopping trips. She needed an outfit for her date with Jasper and she'd dragged me along with her.
"Oh, Bella, don't be coy. I know you want to fuck him."
"Geez, Alice, say that a little louder. I don't think the old lady in the shoe department over there heard you." I motioned my head across the department store.
"Fuck, fuck fuckity fuck, fuck," she sang.
"Oh, my God, you are so retarded."
"Whatever, Bella. You know you want to and you know that you can sleep with him without being in a relationship."
"You mean like fuck buddies?"
"Yes, fuck buddies! He's not here forever, babe! You need to get the loving while the loving's hot and here and pining for you, sugs."
"Whatever, Alice. Now you're being weird." She stopped looking at the shirt and looked at me suddenly serious.
"Bella, Rose and I worry about you. Jacob was a while ago and I know you guys dated a long time, yada, yada. But you deserve to be happy and you deserve to get laid! So go get laid! Please! For fuck's sake!" Geez, she could be loud when she wanted to be.
"Alright, alright, Alice. I get the point! I'll think about it ok?"
"You should. I bet he knows how to ease your tensions just right."
*End of Flashback*
We were both in my room doing homework together. Edward sat at my desk and I was lying on my bed. We were in my room a lot lately it seemed. Jasper and Alice used Edward and Jasper's apartment a lot and Rosalie was always over at Royce's. It was quiet here, mostly. We would hear banging on the walls every once in a while. I was jealous. I was quietly reading my next book for my English literature class and Edward was studying anatomy. I looked over at him and I couldn't help but smile. He was so cute when he was focused. I mean he was cute in general but even more so now with his glasses on and his "concentrating look." I giggled at the thought.
"Why are you giggling?" He said looking over at me from his textbook. He pushed his glasses up on his nose. I giggled more.
"What?" At this point I lost it. I was in full-blown hysterics. Edward strode over to the bed and looked down at me.
"What the fuck is so funny, Bella?" He crossed his arms over his chest. It just made me laugh more. Now he looked like an angry professor. Oh, I just wanted to lick him.
"Bella, tell me what's so fucking funny or so help me…" Oh, no, now he was threatening me. This should be good.
"Or else what? You'll hit me with your big-ass text book?" I snorted. Oh, man, I cracked myself up. Edward didn't think it was so funny. He looked down at me in my hysteria as if I was crazy. Soon a smile slowly spread across his face and he was laughing too.
"Oh, yeah? I'll give you something to laugh about." He jumped on the bed and started tickling me. I laughed even harder and started squealing as he got my most ticklish spots.
"Edward, please stop!"
"Say 'please, with a cherry on top.'"
"Say it! Or I won't stop tickling you."
"NO!" I squealed. He continued to tickle me until I couldn't breathe and was gasping for air.
"Say it!" I fell onto the floor and he followed me, tickling me relentlessly.
"Okay! Please, with a cherry on top!" He stopped but we both continued to laugh and attempted in vain to catch our breath.
"You're such an ass!" I shoved his shoulder.
"Whatever! You wouldn't tell me what you were laughing at so I had to give you something to laugh at."
"Damn, you sound like my dad. Do you want me to say 'yes, sir' next time, too?"
"Not a bad idea. I'll keep that in mind." I attempted to shove him again but this time he intercepted my advance. He grabbed my wrist and held onto it, our connection setting my nerve endings ablaze. Instantly, my breathing was accelerating again. It felt like whenever we made contact my veins were on fire.
"Bella," he whispered, his eyes smoldering with lust.
"Yes?" I whispered back. I didn't trust myself to say anything. It was as if his contact alone caused my body not to understand how to communicate with my mind. He leaned forward slowly, keeping eye contact, waiting for me to stop his advances. I should've but I didn't want to. Alice was right. He wasn't here for long and I should enjoy the time I had with him now. We could have fun with no strings attached.
He kissed me sweetly. The kiss alone caused me to be instantly wet. I moaned lowly just wondering what this man could do to me. Edward brought his hand up and caressed my cheek, his other hand landing on my hip. I was sitting on my knees on the floor and Edward was slightly perched up with his back against the bed. His tongue found its way to mine and we started kissing passionately. I wanted this. I needed this.
I rose up so that I was slightly above him and straddled his lap without breaking our kiss. Both his hands were now on my hips, his thumbs rubbing slow, intimate circles. My hands found their way into his hair. We continued to kiss, my lips swelling from the force. I pulled away and looked at him.
"Edward, I want you. Do you want me?"
"Oh, God yes, yes I do."
"Then take me."
"Are you sure? We don't have to, we can just stop…" I put my finger to his mouth and shook my head. This was what I wanted. I reached to the hem of my shirt and slowly raised it over my head. Luckily, since my conversation with Alice I'd taken notice to my undergarment selections just in case. This bra was one of my favorites, white laced. Edward groaned at the sight, his mouth immediately finding purchase on my neck and collarbone, slowly making his way to my breast. His thumb massaged my nipple through the fabric, the contact causing me to arch my back into his touch.
"As much as I love this bra and God knows I do, I need it to come off, now." He reached behind me and with one hand he unhooked my bra pulling it down my arms and slinging it across the room. He worshipped each of my nipples causing them both to pucker. The feeling was absolutely amazing.
I reached for the hem of his shirt. I wanted to see him naked. He lifted his arms up and I pulled the offensive material over his head. As my eyes roamed over his chest I realized that my imagination didn't do him any justice. My hands caressed his biceps and down to his abs, stopping short of where his cock was. I could see him straining against the fabric of his jeans and the sight made me even wetter.
"Geez, Bella, keep looking at me like that I might have to ravish you." I looked up at him.
"Is that a threat, Mr. Cullen?"
"That's a promise, Ms. Swan."
"Well, then let the ravishing commence." I brought my hands down to his package and rubbed him gently but hard enough to elicit a groan from him. Before I knew it I was on my back on my bedroom floor. I briefly thought about moving to the bed but I decided against it. Floor sex was hotter. Edward disposed of my pants and after admiring my thong for a few seconds he disposed of that as well. I was completely naked and spread out on my floor in front of him. He started kissing my stomach and slowly made his way down to my core.
"I want to taste you," he whispered before licking me with one long lick. His tongue began to circle my clit it a slow circular pattern. My body shuddered with pleasure. Just when it started to become too much he moved his finger to my entrance slowly pushing in and out. Soon he added another one. While his tongue ravished my clit and his fingers thrust inside, my body began to convulse in ecstasy. I moaned loudly as I attempted to grab hold of anything and everything around me. My hands found his hair and I pushed his face further into me. This just egged him on and his ministrations sped up. The feeling became too overwhelming and I exploded around him. I wanted this moment to last forever. It fully sated me and left me feeling so blissful.
As I lay there gaining my bearings, he quickly undid his pants and lowered his boxers. When I looked over and got a glimpse of him I silently thanked whatever god was up there. He was so much bigger than Jake and I wasn't sure he would fit but I was definitely going to try. Once all of his clothes were off and scattered around the room, he leaned forward and kissed me deeply.
"Last chance." I knew what he was saying but this was what I wanted from him.
"Condoms are in the drawer by the bed." I said but instead he reached behind him and pulled out his wallet, bringing out a condom from inside.
"Actually, I don't think any of the condoms you have will fit." He said slightly smugly.
"Oh." He was right. He rolled on the condom and lined himself up at my opening.
"Ready?" I couldn't answer, but I nodded my agreement. He pushed into me at an agonizingly slow pace. I could feel myself stretching as I took him in. I felt completely full and he wasn't even fully inside. He pulled back out and pushed forward even more than before. He did this motion a few more times until he was finally fully inside of me. We both let out a sigh.
"My, God, Bella, you are so fucking tight." He hung his head down pressing his forehead against my chest.
"That or you're just too big," I stated. He groaned and started to move slowly, pumping in and out. He pulled my right leg up and hitched it over his hip. The new angle caused me to gasp; he felt so deep. Soon his motions sped up and my leg was put over his shoulder. My hands grabbed onto his shoulders as he leaned forward and kissed my collarbone.
"Oh my, God, you feel so good. This feels too good." He was speeding up now. I nodded again, my verbal communication apparently still turned off. He reached down with his left hand and rubbed my clit with his thumb. I let out a loud groan. Was I going to cum again? The things this man was doing to my body I never knew could happen. Sure, I'd seen it in movies but never experienced it in real life. He continued propelling into me, sweat starting to build up on his forehead. I started to feel another orgasm approaching.
"Oh, yes, Bella, I can feel you. Oh, my God. Yes. Cum for me." With his last words I went over the edge screaming his name.
"Edward!" He followed a few seconds later, pulsating into me. He was still for a few moments but then he lowered my leg back to the floor and landed on top of me. We attempted to no avail to catch our breaths.
"Bella?" What the fuck? "Bella, where are you? I heard you scream. Are you okay?" Oh, no. Fucking Alice. Noticing my door was partially open I tried to push Edward off of me and get him up before Alice could enter but he was as good as dead weight.
"Bella, what's going on…" she trailed off as she appeared in the doorway.
"Hi," I said, not knowing exactly what to say to my best friend and her boyfriend who just walked in on me naked and post coital.
I thought they would run for the hills or at least leave my room, but instead Alice said, "So, you finally took my advice and got laid, huh. Sounds like you enjoyed it, too." I laid my head back down and chuckled.
Oh, Alice, what was I going to do with you?