Saisha eventually fell asleep, exhausted, but when she woke up the next morning, her heart was still heavy with guilt and heartache.
It took her everything to get out of bed when her mother called her down to breakfast.
Her depression was inevitably noticed by her family at the kitchen table.
"Aren't you hungry, sweetheart?" Emily asked.
Saisha shook her head and continued to swirl the scrambled eggs in her plate round and round with her fork, stabbing the pieces occasionally.
"Is something wrong?" Castiel inquired.
Saisha bit her lip. "Where are angels taken when they break the rules?"
Castiel froze. "Why do you wish to know?"
"It's Remiel," Saisha said. "He's in trouble; lots of trouble."
Castiel's eyes narrowed. "What did he do?"
"It's my fault," Saisha told him.
"Why would you say that?" Castiel frowned.
Saisha took in a deep breath. She had no idea how her parents and uncles would react.
"I love Remiel," she blurted.
Everyone's eyes widened.
"What?" Dean exclaimed. "No way!"
"And he loves me," Saisha continued. "He visited me in my dream last night and said he wanted to stay with me, but the rules...and then Ruguel, his superior caught us kissing..."
"You kissed him?" Castiel was completely shocked.
"I don't want to know," Castiel said, shaking his head.
"Remie was taken away by Ruguel," Saisha rushed. "We need to help him!"
Castiel shook his head again.
Saisha starred at him. "Dad, Remie protected me from demons, he helped me save the world - he deserves to be saved!"
"I'm not an angel anymore, Saisha," Castiel said. "There is no way any of us could help him."
"No spells?" Saisha quizzed.
"Heaven's prison is impenetrable by mankind," Castiel replied.
Saisha was blinded by the tears filling her eyes. "So you're saying, I can seal up Hell, but I can't save him?"
Castiel bowed his head. "I'm sorry, Saisha. If there was any way, I would save him for your sake, but there is no way."
Saisha pushed her plate away and ran to her room, to find privacy as her tears began to spill.
Emily quickly followed and sat on the bed with her, holding her like a child.
"It's okay, Saisha," Emily murmured.
"It's not," Saisha argued. "It's never going to be. I may have saved the world from demons, but I also condemned Remiel to death."
"He knew the risks, honey," Emily told her.
Saisha pulled away from her. "That doesn't make it any better."
That afternoon everyone packed in silence, except for Saisha, who was sitting on the front porch stairs, watching.
No one pushed her to pitch in. They all understood the need for time after loosing someone they cared about, and even though they couldn't understand the relationship she'd had with Remiel, they let her have her time.
Once the car was packed, Emily approached Saisha.
"Ready to go?" she asked.
Saisha nodded, and stood, head low.
As she stepped onto the dirt driveway, the ground shook, and she stumbled.
The surprise awakened her, and her eyes darted around, looking for the source of the sudden shake and the loud noise that had came with it.
"Earthquake?" Dean suggested.
Saisha spotted something lying in the field next to the cemetery, and ran towards it.
"Saisha!" Emily yelled. "Come back!"
Everyone chased after her.
As Saisha got closer to what was in the field, her heart thumped faster and faster, from running, and from high hopes.
Was she really seeing what she thought she was?
When Saisha neared her eyes filled with tears once again, this time out of joy as she got close enough to recognize Remiel's face.
"Remie!" she shouted.
She slid to a stop and fell to her knees.
Remiel was unconcious, but when she placed her hand in front of his mouth, she could feel his breath.
"Remie, wake up," Saisha pleaded, shaking his shoulder.
His eyes flickered open, and Saisha cried, "Remie!"
"I am here." He smiled.
Saisha kissed him. "I thought I'd lost you!"
"You almost did," Remiel said as he sat up. "But God is on our side."
"What do you mean?" Saisha inquired.
"He stopped Ruguel from executing me," Remiel explained. "Instead, He made my punishment being exiled from Heaven."
"So you're human now?" Saisha gasped.
"Yes," Remiel confirmed. "And I do not see it as a punishment," he continued. "I believe God knew that I wouldn't."
Remiel was alive. He was human. They could be together.
Saisha couldn't remember a time she'd ever felt so happy.