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Summary: Spoilers for In Name and Blood
Rating: T for now
She needed to talk to Emily. The brunette had been whisked away by medics to treat the nasty head wound. They hadn't had a chance to talk about Emily's pending transfer or much of anything for that matter; JJ knew she was hurt by Emily's lack of communication, but she was becoming increasingly worried as the brunette's phone continued to transfer her directly to voicemail. Her best friend never ignored her calls, and after hearing the report of a mild concussion from Morgan, JJ was convinced that something had befallen the other girl.
After leaving the office, JJ drove directly to Emily's condo, not even bothering to knock as she used her key to enter.
"Emily?" JJ called out. "Em? Where are you?" JJ spotted the brunette, clad in a purple v-neck shirt and black jeans, seemingly asleep on the couch. "Em, wake up. You aren't supposed to be sleeping yet, or drinking," she mumbled as she noticed the glass of wine. "Em, wake up!" JJ was getting nervous now, shaking the brunette, but still not receiving any response. "Emily Elizabeth Prentiss, wake up now."
Emily started to stir; her eyes opening slightly to focus on the blonde.
"Oh hey, Jayje. I must have fallen asleep or passed out or something. What are you doing here?"
"Well, let's see. My best friend put in a transfer and didn't tell me. Then she shows up at a case and gets knocked over the head with plywood and gets a concussion. Then she goes home, drinks a glass of wine, and passes out. I'm here checking on you. Obviously, I should have been here a little sooner. How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine. Look, Jayje. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you about the transfer. It was complicated. Strauss brought me on the team because she thought I would get information on the team and give it to her. She asked for dirt on Hotch, so she could blackmail him into ending his career. I hate politics and everything about it. I haven't been here very long, but you have all become my family. I couldn't betray that loyalty. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you or talk to you about it." Emily had started rambling. JJ had already known she was going to forgive the other woman and had moved to the other side of the couch, sipping Emily's wine as she listened.
"I think I need some water. Can I get you anything?" Emily asked, trying to ease her nerves by giving her hands something to do. She was worried she had ruined one of the only friendships she'd ever had. She went to stand up and immediately got lightheaded, almost losing her balance. JJ shot up and was at Emily's side in seconds.
"Em. Emily, here sit down. Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. I just got a little off balance."
"I'm going to get you some water. Stay here. I'll be right back." JJ almost ran into the kitchen. When she returned, Emily was still sitting, her head in her hands.
"Here; drink this. Em?" JJ sat across from Emily on the coffee table. Emily didn't make any movement to look up or take the glass. JJ gently put her fingers under Emily's chin and pulled Emily's face to look at her. The face she saw broke her heart; Emily had tears sliding down her face.
"Emily, honey. What's wrong? Talk to me." JJ asked, wiping the brunette's tears.
"I'm sorry," Emily muttered though the tears continued to fall.
"I understand. It's complicated, but I just wish you felt like you could have talked to me. I mean we're best friends, Emily."
"Leaving you would have been the hardest part." JJ could barely hear the words that came out of Emily's mouth as they were barely louder than a whisper.
"Why is that? It's not like if I stop seeing you everyday we stop being friends. It's not like a reassignment makes our friendship disappear."
"There is so much of you I can't have. I couldn't stand the thought of losing the only parts I actually have, but I still couldn't give Strauss grounds to split our team up anymore. We're a family and I couldn't let our separation be my fault." As she continued her ramble, she hoped JJ had missed her slip-up. Emily had been head-over-heels in love with JJ since she started work at the BAU; the only team member who knew was Morgan and that was due to a few too many rounds of beers one night after a case. But much to her chagrin, the blonde heard exactly what she had said.
"What do you mean?"
"Had I told Strauss about anything, it would have been my fault when everyone on our team got reassigned."
"That's not what I meant and you know it."
Crap. Emily thought to herself. Why couldn't I keep my big mouth shut? Why did I have to be so nervous that I start rambling? My god. She's not going to let it go and I'm going to have to tell her. It will ruin everything. Say goodbye to the friendship. Awesome. Maybe I should continue with the transfer after all.
"Emily?" JJ asked, trying to regain Emily's focus.
Emily's explanation came out in a rushed whisper as if she could relay the information and then move on. "I like you, JJ. And I know you don't lean that way. And I keep it to myself because I know us is impossible. I just don't want to lose your friendship. It means too much to me. And I guess it's more than like, but it's something I can hide and attempt to forget about because I don't want to scare you away. I can't lose you."
JJ was shocked. She had never thought Emily would bat for the other team. The thought made her heart race. Could she really have a chance at dating the gorgeous brunette?
"Em, stop rambling. Look at me. First of all, you won't lose me. I'm your best friend. I can't say I pegged you as being gay, but it doesn't turn me off or make me want to run for the hills. Honestly, I haven't fallen for a woman since college, and as Garcia can attest, I've fallen for you." She paused letting her words sink in. Emily met JJ's eyes opening her mouth to speak but was cut off by JJ's lips pressing a gentle kiss to her own.
"I.. You.. Wait. Is this happening?" Emily questioned, equally shocked by JJ's revelation. "You like me? As in like me like me?"
"What are you? In middle school?" JJ teased, "Yes. I like you, but you know if we decide to do this, there are things we need to talk about."
Emily smirked, meeting JJ's eyes. "Can we talk about it in the morning? I'm exhausted and I could sure use some company. You know monitor the concussion?" JJ nodded and followed Emily upstairs to her bedroom.