A/N: Hello! So, this is a bit of a sequel for Sweet Pain. If you haven't read it, GO READ IT! Enjoy and please review.
She stood across the room from me, almost glaring at me. I'd been living with her for 10 year now, and I never got used to her glares. She wasn't upset with me, rather pleased to finally have me alone. All hers…
I used to be scared of her. But now, now I was powerful like her. Now I could take her, now I had control, now I enjoyed the pain.
She suddenly appeared next to me, and pushed me back on the bed, climbing on top of me. I grinned up at her, she stayed focus, but a smile appeared on her lips. A twisted smile that would have scared me if I was still human…
My thoughts were interrupted as Jane began to kiss me. I smiled against her cold lips and kissed her back. I wrapped my hands around her waist and pulled her closer. Our body pressed against each other, and I wanted her naked, now. I started pulling at her robe but she beat me to it. We were naked in a second. I pulled the covers over us and pressed her body against mine. A small moan left me lips, and she grinned. She kissed me again, and I managed to open my eyes.
"Do it, Jane." I muttered, staring into her eyes.
Her grin turned to a smirk. "Desperate." She scoffed.
I pouted, then nodded. "Please…" I begged. She kept smirking at me, then her stare kicked in.
"This may hurt just a little." She purred. She stared for only a second more before my eye locked shut in pain. The burning, stinging, wonderful pain filled my body. As sick as it was, I enjoyed every second of it. I had become addicted to the pain.
The burning became worse, and I knew she was enjoying herself now. She loved my pain, she'd loved it from the beginning. Now I was just feeding it to her, just giving her that pleasure she'd always wanted.
"Pain, Bella." She said, her voice was soft now, almost soothing. "I want your pain." She cocked her head at me. "I won't kill you, no. I just need to hear you scream my name. I want you to tell me to stop. I want to get you moaning in pain." She grinned one last time. "I want you, Bella Swan."
I grinned as I remembered the first time she gave me the pleasure of pain. I adore you, sweet pain.
I Adore You, Sweet Pain
Chapter 1: Now Until Forever
As much as I didn't want to, I had to see him. Everyday, I had to. Everyday for the past 10 years I've had to see him watch her like a hawk, just waiting for something to go wrong between us.
I knew if we ever have a fight, or god forbid break up, he'd be there to be her rock. Her bounce off. She'll fall for him all over again. So I have to do everything in my power to keep her mine. Edward Cullen shall never have her. Bella is mine, forever.
"Is something wrong, Jane?" I looked up. Bella was leaning over me, far enough for me to see down her shirt. I smirked and she caught on. She glared at me and stood up straight. "Pervert." She grumbled. I laughed and stood up. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and stood next to her.
"Sorry." I said.
"Your not sorry."
"I know. I'm also not a pervert."
She glared at me, then laughed. She wiggled out of my grip and started jogging down the hallway. I smiled and ran after her catching up with ease.
"Where are we going?" I asked, taking her hand.
"To my room." She said. She let go of my hand and shot down the hallway in a flash. She was still so happy that she could run without falling down. I smiled and followed her. We reached her room in a few seconds. She dragged me inside and shut the door, locking it behind her. Again, she wanted more. I smirked.
"Bella dear, you're so desperate." I purred as she approached me. She stopped and looked at me with a frown.
"I'm not desperate." She wined and folded her arms over to chest.
I laughed at her. She was really making a scene. "Please Bella. All you want to do is kiss me, all you want is to be in pain." I smirked.
"All you want is to see me in pain." Oh, she could fight back well. I enjoyed her newfound confidence. If she were still human, she wouldn't have said such a thing. Though Aro frowned on me for changing her, I don't regret a thing. He wanted her a vampire anyways, I guess he just wanted it to happen differently…
"So, you've changed her, Jane dear." Aro said, staring down at me from his chair that was higher up on the steps. I nodded slowly, worried he was upset. He sighed and turned his head from me. "Why?" he asked calmly. I stumbled to find words. "Why?" he asked again, more force behind her voice.
"Because I love her. Master, you know how much she means to me… If I didn't change her-"
"Someone else could have, Jane." He snapped back.
"Why someone else? Who else? Edward? Alice? YOU?" He paused and stared at me, frowning. He finally slowly raised his right arm and pointed to the door.
"Oh course master." I bowed my head and turned. I walked slowly out the door. Felix chuckled at me, but I sent him a glare. "He'll be mad at you for not stopping it." I snapped quickly. His eyes narrowed and he shook his head. But as the doors slowly closed behind me, I heard Aro call Felix over to him. I smirked, and continued down the hallway.
Ever since Jane turned Bella into one of us, things have been different around here. I know it's been 10 years since, but I can't let go of the fact that little rat got me in trouble with Aro. And there is nothing to this day I can do to touch her. First, Aro had banned me from hurting her; second, even if I tried, she'd just use her little deathly stare on me and I'd be dead meat.
I walked the hallways with nothing to do when I passed by Bella's room. I heard a thud, and I couldn't help but press my ear up against the door.
"Come on Jane, hurt me." I heard Bella beg.
"Gladly." Jane hissed. I pressed my ear harder. What were they doing? But I caught on quickly once I heard Bella scream. Jane was doing her little "deadly stare" on Bella. But why? Did she enjoy it? She had asked for it… Her screams suddenly stopped, and I heard heavy breathing. There was a small moan, and a grin appeared on my face. Girl sex. Hot.
"Felix, it's not nice to eavesdrop." I jumped and backed away from the door. Standing down at the end of the hallway was Edward Cullen. He'd joined us when Bella changed. Odd how much he would do to be with her, even though she wasn't with him at all.
"I wasn't I was just-"
"That's quiet alright, Felix. I won't tell." He smirked at me.
I gulped and brushed the invisible dust off my jacket. "Well, I'd better get going, then."
"You have no where to be." Damn, I forgot he could read my mind.
"Who cares." I muttered quietly, knowing he'd hear one way or another.
"I know what's going on in there." He murmured. I glanced at him. "Jane makes a point of walking past me after every time." He smiled, but I knew he wasn't happy.
"Does it bug you?" I asked almost silently, almost embarrassed to ask.
"Yes. More then bug, Felix. It really tears me up inside."
"Then why are you here?"
"What else can I do? I have to be near her. She's my reason to live at this point. It was her or death, and I needed to choose her. It's better for both of us." He paused, and I guessed he was done. I took one step away from him, before turning to look at him.
"Don't tell anyone this, but I'm kind of jealous of you."
"I know." Edward laughed slightly. I knew he'd already read it, but I went on anyways.
"To be able to see the love of your life with someone else everyday and still live that's… That's pretty amazing."
He didn't speak, and I took it as my time to leave. So without another word, I turned around and headed down the hallway, knowing he was already gone.
"Do you think anyone else in the world feels the pain you do everyday?"
"I don't know."
"I'm sure someone does. I'm sure someone hurts worse then you."
"Why do you think that?"
"Well you already know the answer to that."
"Tell me anyways."
"God doesn't hate just you."
That truly made me laugh. Something I hadn't done in a long time. That conversation with Emmett came into my mind as I walked the halls of my new home. So I'd been here for 10 years, but it still felt so new.
I had that conversation with Emmett the day before I left Bella so many years ago. He knew I was hurting. He knew what was coming.
Emmett may be a goofball, and sometimes a jerk, but he's my brother and I love him. And I miss him…
He had a way of making me feel better when I felt bad. Like the thing about God…
"God doesn't hate just you."
If I can truly believe that God doesn't hate just me, then maybe I won't be damned. I worry about my soul to often, or at least that's what Bella used to think. She probably doesn't care now. Then again, I'll never really know, since I'll never read her mind. From now until forever, she'll be a mystery. From now until forever, I'll love her. From now until forever, she'll have my heart.
I once told her, "Look after my heart, I've left it with you."
I wonder if she still remembers that, because once you give someone your heart, you don't get it back. It's theirs forever.
So watch over my heart, Bella Swan, for it's yours for now until forever.