This is my first ever attempt at a romantic relationship story. If you don't like the pairing Alice/Bella then I honestly don't even know why you checked it out. But I'm hoping I don't dissappoint anyone and I know you are probably skeptical but give it a chance. This is an AU and OOC. It will have some humor, drama, suspense, angst, and mainly romance. Twilight hasn't happened. And this is about Alice and Bella's forbidden romance. Also has a slight Jasper/Edward. This is going to be probably my only explainatory author's note. I hope you enjoy. And really REALLY hope that you will review and tell me how i'm doing. Also I am an insomniac so postings will be at all sorts of odd hours.
I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT.
As I pull up the driveway in my forest green 350Z Nissan. I know my car is a bit intimidating, but it is fast and I love to drive fast… I absent-mindedly fiddle with my pure silver arrow-head choker. It is weird for me to feel this nervous. I haven't been back here in so long. I don't think I'm ready to see them yet, but I don't seem to have a choice anymore. I can't help but think back to the fucking little thing that started all this shit.
I've been searching for my human memories for my whole immortal existance. That's all I ever wanted. But now, now that I recognize who I was… I wish I never knew. I remember everything. Every sound, every breath, every dream. And it's killing me… No it isn't, because I can't die. No matter how much pain I'm in, I will never die. I finally understand how much of a lie I had been living. How wrong I was to be happy… I didn't deserve that. Not after what I had done.
And I'm not happy, not anymore. Every second is agony, every minute is torment, every day I look at myself in the mirror and curse the human that I was, but the weeks and years are the worst. They roll by and I have nothing to show for them. I get nothing out of living… living… haha… I guess that is the big punch line in this entire matter. Because I am not living. I'm not even alive. I am soulless, my dead heart no longer pumps the precious liquid needed to truly be alive and warm. No, I am cold and dead.
I got my memories back while I was in the city where I'd grown up in. After I had been reawakened to what I really was, I found a way to protect my brothers from me. They have gifts you see, Jasper can feel emotions and even manipulate them, and Edward can read minds. If I had returned to my family without some way to make myself immune to their powers, my brothers would have gone insane by now. What goes through my head, and what I feel… THAT can kill a person, but vampires can't die. So it would only make them wish for death and we don't really need another danger in the family.
I find myself taking a deep unneeded breath and violently shake my head, trying desperately to keep the memories at bay. As I silently open my door, I glance over my shoulder and into the woods. It would be so easy to just escape in there for a little while. Finally I rip my gaze away from the tantalizing freedom and slowly walk up the side walk of the house. Actually it was more like a mansion really. I was about twenty feet away from the door when I noticed an exceptionally large puddle. I stop and stare into it, hoping that just maybe all my answers will appear before me. No such luck though. All I see is my reflection. My short spiky hair clinging to my head for dear life as the rain continued to come in sheets. But this is Forks and it is always raining.
Why I decided to return to this middle of nowhere town, I don't know. Actually I do know, it was because Esme demanded it. And also because Rosalie said if I didn't visit, she would drag me back to Forks. I know I can easily overpower her and/or evade her, but I owe them. They let me have some sort of life. While I didn't have my memories, they gave me a home. It was the least I could do for them.
"ALICE!" Esme's sing-song voice floated from the front door. Before I could react she had enveloped me in a strong hug. "I'm so glad you're home." She whispered in my ear. She gave me a final squeeze before leading me into the house. I saw Rosalie leaning against the stairs. Her face was in its natural bitchy scowl, which I had oddly come to miss.
"Glad to see you finally decided to show up." She tried to hiss at me, but she must have missed me too because she couldn't keep the anger in her voice.
"Yeah well you threatened me enough." I grumbled at her and shook the water from my hair. Esme simply smiled while Rosalie gave me a wicked grin.
"That's because you are too thick-headed to realize that you belong here." And with that she disappeared into the kitchen. I sighed and shook my head. If they only knew… No. I swore I would never let them know about me. I already hurt them enough.
"Honey your brothers will be home from school soon. And Carlisle will get off around eight so how about we just hang out for a while." Esme cut me out of my thoughts and sat down on the couch. She patted the seat next to her and waited for me to drag myself over. As I got situated, she gave me her trademark motherly smile.
"You seem better than when I last saw you." She spoke softly to me, but she knew I could hear her.
"Yeah, I've managed to find a hobby." I smirked. My hobby was indeed entertaining. It gave just enough to where the constant agony was semi-bearable.
"Really? Well that's great!" She seemed so excited. "I hope you can still keep up with it when you start school tomorrow." She said so hastily, I almost didn't hear it.
"What? What do you mean "school tomorrow"? I was only planning on visiting for a week or so…" I trailed off when I saw her eyes begin to drop. Damn she is doing the pouting thing that not even a vampire can resist. Okay, resist resist resist resist, damnit!
"But I guess I can see how it goes." I mumbled out. Okay, I totally caved. Yeah, I know. Alice the fearsome vampire just fell for the guilt trick played by her mother. Scary…
"GREAT! Oh I'm so glad that my family is back together! So Alice what was that hobby of yours?" She immediately bounced back to being ecstatic.
"Oh well it's uh hard to explain…" I garbled, shifting slightly. That was one awkward conversation I'd rather not discuss. I was hopeful for the more subtle approach, like my siblings telling on me. Emmett will love my hobby, Rose will hate it, Edward will think "it's wrong," and Jasper, bless his heart, will side with his boyfriend. Yup he is with Edward-the-Annoying-Asshole. I truly feel bad for Jasper, but he is happy. How? I don't have a clue, but he insists he is. A painful grimace lights up across my face.
Here I am, Alice Cullen, suckered into joining my family in high school. I may be over 100 years old but tomorrow will be my first day as an eleventh grader in Forks High School. So freaking great…
Alright there is the Prologue and I have Chapter one almost all done. I like to spend a couple of hours editing (because i already told you, i'm an insomniac) just to make sure it is hopefully acceptable. Please review to tell me if I am doing alright or if I totally suck at relationship storys. And reviews always make me work faster and give me a large amount of motivation and insperation. PM me anytime if you have suggestions or questions.