Do I Matter To You?
*Hey guys! Sooo I'm bored writing my other stories, so I decided to do a new, quick one. There's gonna only gonna be like 2-3 chapters. But enjoy, and review*
Sasuke and Sakura have been dating for a year now…but they've done nothing yet. Sure, they've held hands, and at the most, they've hugged. They never kissed, cuddled with each other, or do anything lovey-dovey, and lately…Sakura's getting tired of it. After a few years, she's grown into a fully matured woman at only age 19.
It was a rainy afternoon in Konoha.
She was walking with an umbrella, on her way to the hospital. Sasuke, on the other hand, she knew, was probably in the forest training, despite the weather. That's all he ever does, nowadays. It seems after all that's happened, he still hasn't changed his personality.
It happened just two years ago, when after all the chaos happened with Itachi, Orochimaru, and Madara Uchiha. Sasuke decided to withdraw from his team that he had created to destroy Konoha and just settled down again (after receiving a few village restraints from Tsunande, and punishment from, of course, Naruto). Sakura told him afterwards that she still loved him, and from there, he just agreed to the relationship between them. Although, Sakura noticed she was the only committed in their relationship. For a year of dating, she knew that he cared for her, and would protect her, but she wasn't sure if he was even really in love with her. And to make it even more ironic, tomorrow was their official one year anniversary.
Sakura sighed as she reached the hospital. She closed her umbrella and walked in, getting greeted by her assistants and other nurses.
"Sakuraaa!" Ino's voice came.
Ino and Hinata also worked in the hospital, both inspired by Sakura's medical experiences.
"Hey Ino. How are the patients doing?" Sakura gave her a small smile as she checked in her name for her shift.
"They're doing pretty good. I already checked up on them this morning," Ino replied.
"I see…that's good…" Sakura muttered as she quickly grabbed her clipboard and scrolled her eyes down the list of her patients and their current conditions.
"Hey, speaking of something good, tomorrow's the official date of you and Sasuke, right? I can't believe you guys are going out for officially a whole year, now," Ino grinned happily.
Sakura let out a sigh. "I don't know about our relationship, anymore, Ino. It's going nowhere. I still feel as if we're just friends…just companions, but not lovers. I'm getting kind of tired of it..." Sakura looked down with a sad expression.
"What? But…you two seem so happy together. Sasuke seems like a pretty good boyfriend, too. I mean, whenever you two are together, you're always holding hands and it's so cute!" Ino squealed.
"Yea, but that's all there is to it. For a whole year, we've done nothing but held hands…and at the most, it'd be a miracle if he hugged me more than once a month. We have our little talks but I feel no connection towards it…and I obviously know that his training is more important than me. He goes to train whenever he gets the chance too. I don't want to keep doing this if I don't even matter to him," Sakura shook her head.
"But you do matter to him! If you didn't, then why would he bother to stay with you this long?" Ino crossed her arms.
"Maybe, it's just for fun. You know, he didn't even hesitate when I asked him if we could date. He just accepted into it like it was nothing that big of a deal. I still love him, but I'm just…" Sakura let out a deep breath and closed her eyes. "…I'm just…exhausted. I don't want to keep going with him anymore."
Ino stared at her for a while. "You know what…take today off. I'll cover your shift for you. Go spend the day with him and talk it out," She suggested.
"Eh? But I have to-,"
"It's alright, I got it. Just go," Ino smiled reassuringly at her.
Sakura bit her lip, hesitating a bit. "…ok…thanks Ino,"
She gave Ino a gentle hug before walking out into the rain again.
Sakura was walking to the training grounds. After coming from the hospital, she went back home to make a lunch bento for Sasuke.
She smiled slightly, hearing the sound of kunais hitting trees. She peered through a few small bushes to see Sasuke punching the ground, creating a small crater. His wet shirt clung tightly to his chest and his sweat was dripping along with the rain.
"Sakura…what are you doing here?" Sasuke's eyes looked up at her.
"Amazing. You already sensed my chakra," Sakura walked to him and hovered the umbrella over him.
Sasuke slowly stood up from his squatted position. "Aren't you supposed to be working?" He asked, staring at her with a blank expression.
"Yea, but Ino took my shift for me. She insisted that I spend the day with you…I couldn't refuse even if I wanted to because of her stubbornness. I know it's gonna be a bother to you, so I'll just go home in a bit," Sakura took out a small handkerchief from her weapon pouch and gently patted away the sweat and rain from his face. Sasuke stood there and closed his eyes until she was done.
"Have you eaten yet? I brought you some food…and you shouldn't be training in this kind of weather. I'd be worry if you got sick," She smiled warmly at him.
"You're always worried for me, Sakura," Sasuke sighed.
"I know," Sakura shrugged.
She brought the bento up and raised an eyebrow. "Are you going to eat it, or not?" She asked.
Sasuke stared at it for a moment then he gently grabbed it from her. "Since you're not going to work today, and you made lunch for me, I guess I'll spend the day with you," Sasuke replied, although Sakura could see how annoyed he was by the look in his eyes.
"You don't have to force yourself," She shook her head.
"It's fine. Come to my house…I need to change anyways," Sasuke said as he walked ahead first.
"Wait, you're gonna get even more wet!" Sakura quickly moved the umbrella over his head, causing herself to get wet.
"Sakura…you're really not smart at all sometimes," Sasuke smirked as he took the umbrella from her and took a few steps back so they were shoulder to shoulder. "See, your hair's all wet now…" He muttered quietly, brushing a few strands of hair behind her ear.
"It's not that wet…there's only a few raindrops on it," Sakura patted her hair.
Sasuke sighed as he put his arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him. She looked up at him curiously.
It was rare that he'd put his hands around her.
"This way, we can both fit under the umbrella," Sasuke simply stated.
Sakura smiled and just took the umbrella from him. "Then I'll hold it," She insisted. She glanced over at him a few times when they started walking. 'I don't know if I can really break it off with him...I still love him a lot. But then again…I seriously am tired of this relationship…'
Sasuke unlocked the door to his lonely Uchiha household.
Sakura closed the umbrella and shook the water off of it. She placed it nicely next to the door before following Sasuke in.
"Wait here. I'll be out in a bit," Sasuke replied as he sent the lunch bento down on the kitchen table and went into his room.
Sakura walked over to the table and stared at the lunch bento box. "I wonder how he'll react when I break up with him. I'm sure he won't even mind…" Sakura muttered to herself.
After a few moments, she heard Sasuke's bedroom door open. He came out wearing a black t-shirt and some shorts. Sakura smiled at the sight. She loved it when he was out of his ninja gear and wore some modern clothes. "You only brought one. You're not going to eat?" Sasuke asked as he sat down in a chair.
Sakura sat across from him and pushed the bento box to him. "I'm not hungry. Besides, if I'm not eating, then I get to watch you eat…it's kinda cute," Sakura let out a laugh.
Sasuke had an annoyed expression on, but he took the lid off of the bento box and started eating anyways.
Sakura's smile slowly died down. She stared at him, observing every aspect of him. His graceful moves, his beautiful and mysterious black eyes, and even the air that surrounded him, made Sakura fall deeper in love with him. She let out a sigh and looked down at the table.
Sasuke glanced at her and noticed she looked a bit...distant. "Sakura, are you ok?" He asked.
Sakura could detect a hint of worry in his tone of voice. "I'm fine," She faked a quick smile at him.
Sasuke narrowed his eyes at her. "I can tell that you're not. What's wrong? Tell me," He demanded.
Sakura just shook her head. "It's nothing big. I'm just a bit stressed lately, that's all," She replied quietly.
Sasuke put his chopsticks down. He got up and walked over to her. Sakura blushed when he lifted up her chin and stared at her with those eyes that never failed to make her fall heads over heels for him. "If there's anything wrong…you know I'm always here for you, Sakura," Sasuke's thumb gently caressed her cheek.
Sakura blushed even more. It was the first time she'd heard him say something to so sincere. She knew he cared for her a lot, but she hardly ever hears him say those kinds of things to her. "Mm, I know," Sakura made small nod.
Sasuke took the lid and closed the bento box. He walked over to the fridge and put the food in there. "I'll eat it later…and it's still raining, so you should stay for a while until it dies down a bit," Sasuke looked out the window to see rain pouring down like crazy.
Sakura didn't say anything and just sat there quietly.
Sasuke noticed she was a bit too quiet today. He put his hands in his pockets and observed her face. She looked like she was in deep thought. Silence filled the room and they could hear nothing but the pouring rain on the roof.
"…Sasuke…" Sakura suddenly called his name. "…you know it's our one year anniversary tomorrow, right?" She asked without looking at him.
"Hn. Really? I don't keep track of things like that…" Sasuke just merely shrugged.
'He didn't even remember...and our one year of dating doesn't even matter to him.' Sakura thought. She closed her eyes and laid her head on her arms on the table. 'I guess I just wasted a whole year with him for nothing…'
Sasuke walked over to her. "Are you tired, Sakura? You shouldn't sleep like that…"
Sakura felt a pair of arms go under and lift her up. She still kept her eyes closed, although she wasn't entirely all that tired yet. Sasuke put her on the couch gently. Sakura heard his footsteps go away and then felt him coming back after a few minutes. Sasuke had a blanket in his arms. He unfolded it and put it over Sakura. Sakura opened her eyes slowly.
Sasuke sat down in front of her. "Go to sleep. There's nothing to do here at my place anyways…I'll wake you when it stops raining and then we can go somewhere," He replied.
"…ok…" Sakura whispered. Her fluttered closed again.
She felt Sasuke's fingers brush away her bangs and tucked them nicely behind her ear. Then his palm gently caressed Sakura's cheek. The gentle gesture made Sakura drowsy. It was only a few moments before she drifted off to sleep.
When Sasuke saw her soft breathing, he knew she was asleep. He leaned in and kissed her forehead. "It went by so fast…we're actually dating for one year already…"
When Sakura woke up, she gasped, seeing Sasuke asleep in front of her. He had his arms crossed and his head laying on them.
Sakura reached towards him and ran her fingers down his cheeks, then to his lips. "A year…and you've never even kissed me once…" She looked at his sleeping face sadly.
Sakura quietly sat up, careful not to wake him and looked outside. It wasn't raining anymore. She took the blanket off of her and placed it on Sasuke. "I guess I should go home now, since you also fell asleep…I don't want to bother you…" Sakura whispered to Sasuke's sleeping figure. She smiled lovingly at him before getting up. She went to the door, opened it, and grabbed her umbrella and glanced back at him for a bit before closing the door behind her.
She breathed in the fresh cold air that surrounded the streets of Konoha right after the rain and let out a deep breath. "I'll do it tomorrow. I'll break it off tomorrow, on our anniversary…"
Yea, this story is going to be kinda fast-paced. I'm just writing this story out of boredom, hehe. But tell me what you think of by REVIEWING. I love hearing your compliments, questions, and even your criticisms.
The next chapter will be up shortly, so thanks for reading.