Author's Note: Another anticipated chapter...enjoy! (P.S. I forgot to proofread this, so forgive me for any errors!)
Disclaimer: I do not own Mulan or any character from Mulan. I own my fictional characters.
Chapter 10: Putting Back the Broken Pieces.
Mulan lied down in her side of the bed and continued to cry. She covered her face to avoid her tears from falling, but she couldn't help it. Just the thought of Li Shang made her cry even harder. This feeling was worst than war itself. Her heart ached more than any battle wound. She felt like not only her whole had broken into pieces, but her whole self had. It's was enough what her husband had told her a few days before, referring to his love to her as a past. But having feelings towards another woman? What did she do to deserve this? She always strived to be a good wife to him. Sure, she wasn't perfect, but she tried, with all her heart and that's what mattered.
"Why is Shang even torturing me like this?" she thought to herself. "Where did I go wrong?"
She closed her eyes tightly and remembered the day of her wedding. Her wedding day was one of the most memorable days of her life. Everything was perfect. She clearly reminisced when she and Shang exchanged vows. He had poured his heart out when he stated his love for her in front of everyone...
"You are the woman I've always dreamed of having. You are like an angel fallen from above. To me, you are the most beautiful and perfect woman in this country and I thank my Ancestors for having putting you in my life. You're the only woman I love and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, have a family, and grow old with you. I pray that nothing ever separates us. You have become my life as of today."
"You're the only woman I love..." Mulan repeated to herself over and over the words of Shang from their wedding.
She cried even harder. How could he have lied to her? Loving another woman? This was definitely the worst feeling ever.
Mulan finally sat up and wiped her tears. She hated herself for not being vulnerable to this. She didn't want to demonstrate to Shang she was weak, but she couldn't help it anymore. She had no one to turn to about this, she couldn't rant to anyone about the way she felt, and she definitely knew she was going to let Shang off easily. Bottom line is;
She felt lonely.
She looked over the other side of the bed and placed her hand delicately on top of it. She realized how much Shang's absence really affected her. It had already been six months they were married and just look at them. Their marriage was already falling apart. Mulan recalled all the comments made by the townspeople when they were first engaged.
"Can you believe General Li and Fa Mulan are engaged? They are so different! Will they manage to balance out their marriage?"
"Li Shang and Fa Mulan to marry? I'll give them a year. Just watch, the General will have to beg the matchmaker to match him up with some compatible to him"
"Fa Mulan disguised herself as a MAN and she's marrying the General? As she no shame?"
"Mulan isn't even fit to be a wife for a General! She didn't even make it past the Matchmaker! What went wrong with General Li Shang!"
Mulan shuddered and lied down again as she banished her thoughts. She knew everyone has right. She and Shang were simply not meant for each other. If in six months, they have been arguing, multiple times, and each of them had lied to each other about things, then this marriage wasn't simply going to last.
"This marriage was too good to be true," Mulan thought to herself.
Suddenly she heard a knock on the door that interrupted her thoughts. She sat up again and waited for someone to say something.
"Mulan?" Shang said softly behind the door.
Mulan's eyes widen and she sighed. She had the urge to open the door and let him in; but something inside her told her not to. To have patience and let the seas settle it.
"Mulan, please?" Shang pleaded. "Can you open the door...I really think we should talk."
Mulan stayed quiet and just stared at the door. Her tears began to roll down her cheek again.
"Mulan...I love you, I really do. Just please open the door." he said sadly.
Mulan sighed and went back to bed. She simply had to be patient and talk to him when she was ready.
Shang, who was outside, attempted more time, but still no response. He leaned against the door and slid down to the floor.
"How could I be so stupid?" He said to himself.
He was aware that this was all his fault. If he would have stayed away like Mulan had warned him, none of this would have happened. He felt lonely without Mulan and he was willing to do anything to gain back her trust. But he knew that she would probably want to divorce him after his charade. He sighed and closed his eyes. Soon before he knew it, he had fallen into deep sleep. Who would have known this? The General? Sleeping the floor? Because of his wife? This clearly showed how much he did indeed love her and wanted to talk to her.
Many days went by and Shang would always attempt to talk to Mulan. He'd sleep by the door every night and pleaded her every morning to talk to her. And after he would come home from work, he'd even skip his dinner and wait by the door to see if Mulan would give in. One night, as Shang slept by the door, Mulan sat up on the bed and stared at the door. She knew her heart was ready to hear out Shang. She carefully lit her candle and tippy-toed to the door and left it ajar. Shang heard the door creak and woke himself up. He rubbed his eyes and turned around and there he saw a glimpse of his wife walking back to bed. He immediately stood up and opened the door. He couldn't help but smile to see his wife after so many days. He walked in quietly and closed the door.
"Mulan.." he called out softly
Mulan looked at him as she sat down on the bed. She didn't say a word, but just looked at him with her sad eyes. He sat next to her and took one of her hands and gently held it.
"Mulan, I'm sorry.." he began.
Mulan sighed and lowered her head.
"Sorry isn't going to fix what you did." she spoke up.
He nodded and let her continue.
"What you did...really hurt me." she continued "It's like you tore my heart out and stomped on it."
"Mulan, it's not what you think." Shang pleaded
"I'm not done..." she said as she looked away.
Shang took a deep breath and bit his tongue, and allowed her to her finish.
"I felt so worthless when you told me you confessed your feelings to Mei. Shang, I'm your wife. You married ME. You chose me. "She said sadly.
She looked into Shang's eyes and began to cry.
"Why did you fall in love with another woman...?"
Shang stayed quiet and lowered his eyes.
"WHY SHANG?" Mulan yelled out as she cried harder
Shang couldn't help but cry softly as well. As much as he tried to hold back, he couldn't.
He could see in Mulan's eyes how much she had suffered because of him.
Shang stood up from the bed and bent down on both of his knees. He held both of Mulan's hands and looked at her.
"You don't understand Mulan. It was all a misunderstanding. Mei is my sister." he told her.
Mulan had a puzzled look on her face. She tilted her head and narrowed her eyes as she looked at Shang.
"You fell in love with YOUR SISTER?" she said surprisingly with a bit of disgust.
Mulan was confused.
"Mei was his sister?" she asked herself. "And if that was his sister…then why the hell did he fall in love with her?" She remained silent and allowed Shang to explain himself. There was bound to be a reason for this.
"It's complicated, but I'm not in love with her. The only reason why I felt so close to her was because, well, we're siblings. We have things in common." he explained.
Mulan sighed and shook her head.
"That's still no reason Shang. You lied. You thought about another woman. Another woman was not your wife. How could you do this Shang? You really broke my heart."
Shang felt like an ass. How could he make the love of his life suffer this way?
"And what's the most ironic thing is that, I still love you Li Shang, despite you breaking my heart and hurting me tremendously." she confessed as her voice trembled. "I love you with all heart and I don't even know how I could manage doing this. You don't even deserve my love right now."
Shang began to cry even more.
He brought Mulan's hands closer to him and planted a kiss on them. He held them tightly as his voice began to tremble.
"Mulan, I love you and ONLY you with all my heart." he said softly. "Please. I'll do anything for you to forgive me. I'll give up my life as a General. We can move away where ever your heart desires. Just please Mulan, don't leave me. My life has no meaning without you."
Mulan was shocked to hear this. Shang? Giving up his life as a General? This was impossible. Before Mulan could even speak, the thunder crashed loudly and it began to rain hard.
Mulan couldn't find the right words to tell Shang.
"Shang, I really -"
"If you don't believe me, look" Shang said as he got up. He took his armor and asked Mulan to follow him.
Confused, Mulan got up and followed him.
"Li Shang, just what are you doing?" she questioned.
Shang didn't say a word and walked to the entrance of the house. He opened it and stepped out in the pouring rain. He threw his armor across the house. Mulan's jaw dropped as she saw her husband do such a thing. The armor landed into a puddle of dirty mud across the street.
"There! Fa Mulan, I love you and I want to spend every moment with you. I don't care about my career anymore. I just want you to forgive me" Shang yelled out from a distance.
Mulan, who was shocked, walked into the rain and walked towards Shang.
They both met eye to eye in the pouring rain.
Shang grabbed Mulan's hand and gazed into her eyes again.
"I'm sorry for everything. I was a jerk, a pompous ass, a bastard. And I want you to please forgive me. You're the only woman I'll ever need in my life because I love you. You mean so -"
But before Shang could even finish what he was saying, Mulan pulled him in closer and passionately kissed him. Shang responded with a passionate kiss as well and broke away.
"Mulan!" he said surprisingly "Does this mean that-"
"Just shut up and kiss me, you fool" she said as she pulled him in closer.
The two loving couple passionately engaged themselves in a long kiss despite the cold pouring rain.
Author's Note: I know that back in ancient China they didn't do vows during weddings, but I had to add it to give it more feeling. So what do you think? Are you guys happy they made up?
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