Author's Note: This is my first fic! I had this conversation between my two favorite characters floating around in my head for the longest time, and finally, I just decided to write it out. It took me a few hours though, some parts were hard to write. Anyways, just a few things to make note of:
1) I don't live in New York, nor have I visited there (YET:D) so I have no idea how long it takes to travel between Brooklyn and Manhattan, so if my timeline is unrealistic, that's why.
2) This is set shortly after City of Glass. Only I'm pretending that the scene where Magnus is seen shaking hands with the Lightwoods didn't happen.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to Cassandra Clare.
Feeling the Love
Alec let out a frustrated sigh as he looked at his watch. Six twenty-three. It hadn't even been two whole minutes since the last time he'd checked the time, although it felt like an eternity. He shifted his position on Magnus' sofa. Alec was taking him to officially meet his parents and there wasn't much that could distract him from the nervous feeling in his stomach that only became worse as seven o'clock drew nearer. In theory, dinner with one's family and significant other wasn't a huge deal. Nerve-wracking and potentially awkward and embarrassing, sure, but for Alec, his whole life depended on tonight going well.
Now, Alexander Lightwood was by no means a drama queen. That position was currently being filled by his boyfriend, who Alec hadn't seen for the past half hour or so, since he was busy styling his hair and perfecting his makeup and, no doubt, putting together the brightest, sparkliest, most obnoxiously loud outfit that he possibly could. And it was precisely this that made the shadowhunter so nervous. His boyfriend. It still felt strange to think of Magnus as his partner now, and Alec smiled as he thought of their time together. He loved him, and he wanted his family to understand that. Having been brought up in such a traditional society, he knew his sexuality was typically disapproved of. Not only was he gay, but he was seeing a Downworlder. Even though he'd been out for a few days now, he was worried. Nothing bad had happened yet, but was this the calm before the storm? He was a shadowhunter. He couldn't imagine having to find some other way to make a living... He had a responsibility, a duty to fulfill. What if he was stripped of his Marks? Banished from the only way of life he'd ever known? Or what he if he was forced to choose between his family and Magnus? There were so many people that he cared about, and he didn't want to lose anyone else- Alec jumped and was pulled out of his reverie as a door slammed in the appartment, and he forced himself to take a deep breath.
"In the living room," He called. He checked his watch again; it would be time to leave soon. It'd take them about a half an hour to get from Brooklyn to Manhattan, and they didn't want to start the evening off by arriving late. Magnus walked in, and Alec stared. He'd worked his hair into its usual spiky style, but that was the only thing that looked normal. Well, normal for Magnus. He was wearing black slacks with a matching blazer over a silvery top that shimmered only slightly. His makeup was very natural, except for a tiny amount of glittery eyeliner. He spoke up when he noticed Alec watching him.
"It's not polite to stare, Alec. Even though I am incredibly sexy."
Alec was too shocked to blush. "You look..." He stopped.
"Ha! I've rendered the shadowhunter speechless." Magnus teased as sat down next to Alec on the couch.
"I was going to say that you look different..." Alec started.
Magnus raised a perfectly shaped eyebrow in question.
"You look nice, Magnus... You always do, it's just-"
"It's just what? I know this evening's ensemble isn't as fabulous as usual but I wanted you to be comfortable tonight."
Alec was strangely touched. It wasn't like Magnus at all to forego fashion for other people's sake... If anything, he thrived on the attention he got from those that were uncomfortable around his bold sense of style. Alec became confused as he considered this. He thought back to his conversation with Jace at the Penhallows'... "There's nothing between me and Magnus anymore," He'd admitted reluctantly. Magnus wasn't interested in someone who couldn't accept him for who he was, and he wouldn't change for anyone. And yet, there he was, doing just that. Alec hated it.
"But... really? To make me less nervous about later? Why? It doesn't seem like you at all-"
"-Is something wrong?
"Alec, I've been thinking about us... How it felt when I thought that there wouldn't even be an 'us' anymore," Magnus seemed to be struggling to put his thoughts into words. When he spoke again, his voice was soft, and it sounded more vulnerable than Alec had ever heard it. "I've been around for a long time. I've cared about a lot of people, and I've lost a lot of them along the way. I've been hurt before, but I can't begin to describe how it felt when we were apart... I was miserable, Alec, and I've never felt anything like it. It-it scares me, a lot, because we haven't known each other for very long and yet, I love you so much... So much more than I've ever loved another person... I just don't want to be without you."
Alec didn't know what to say; he'd never seen Magnus act like this. He reached up and gently cupped Magnus' face with his hands. He looked up then, and Alec could see pain in his eyes as he thought back to their brief break-up. Alec knew that he was the cause of that pain, and he never wanted to hurt Magnus again. With that realization, Alec knew what he needed to do. He pulled Magnus close.
"I'm sorry, I- Magnus, I had no idea." He began.
"It's not your fault. You didn't know because I'm good at hiding it. And I'm the one who should be apologizing. I've lived for so long, and sometimes I forget that you haven't had nearly as long as I have to figure things out."
Alec shook his head before closing the distance between them. Their lips met in a chaste kiss, and Magnus sighed happily. Alec felt a shiver run through his entire body when Magnus leaned in again and softly brushed his lips against his. It had been several days since they'd had any time alone, and desire ran through his veins. His body felt like it was on fire wherever they touched, and he needed to be closer. Alec pushed him onto his back and straddled his hips. He leaned down for another kiss, and Magnus moaned loudly when Alec pressed their bodies together. The room had been silent except for the sound of their breathing, and the loud noise brought Alec back to reality. He sat up.
"I love you." He whispered.
Magnus smiled. "I love you too, Alec." He moved in for a kiss, but pouted when Alec turned away.
"I need to tell you something. It's important."
Magnus wondered what could be more important than a quickie with his shadowhunter, but nodded anyways.
"Magnus...the thing is, well, see...I-I don't want you to wear that to meet my parents!" Alec stammered.
Magnus' heart sank. He knew that Alec wasn't lying when he said that he loved him, he just wished that Alec would love all of him, that he would accept him the way he was... But at this point, he just didn't want Alec to leave and nothing else mattered. Alec noticed.
"They're not used to seeing someone who dresses so-"
"I understand." Magnus said quietly.
"Just wait! Please, let me explain. They're not used to seeing someone who dresses so...flashy? It's not like anything I would do at all. We're so different, but I love you, Magnus. I love everything about you. Even the parts I don't understand, like all the bright colors and the glitter. We're completely opposite, but that's what makes this work, and it's amazing...it's perfect. So perfect." Alec whispered. "I want my parents to see that. So I don't want you wear something you don't like for my sake, I want you to go find the brightest, most outrageous thing you own, and then, and only then, am I taking you back to the Institute."
Magnus just stared. Alec could see so much love in his eyes. His happiness was contagious and Alec smiled up at him. He nearly swooned when the warlock grinned back. Magnus was even more beautiful when he smiled like that, Alec thought. They gazed lovingly into each others' eyes for a moment, then Magnus pulled Alec up and kissed him deeply and passionately. He ran his hands over Alec's body and lead him down the hall without breaking their embrace. Together, they stumbled into the bedroom. The room was dark, and the first thing that registered in Alec's mind as he was pressed against the door were the red numbers on the nearby clock. Something very important occured to him.
"We're gonna be late!"
Magnus pulled away, but didn't say anything. Alec blushed under his intense stare; his cat-like eyes were dark with desire.
"We can save this for later, we really have to go!"
"Alec... did you really mean what you said?"
"Of course! Now go change!"
Magnus didn't need to be told twice. He kissed Alec once more and retreated into his closet.
"Hurry up! We're leaving in ten!" Alec yelled after him.
A few minutes later, Magnus emerged from the bedroom. Alec was waiting for him by the door as Magnus strutted down the hallway toward him. This time, Alec enjoyed the view. Magnus was wearing skin tight zebra print leggings and black leather boots that went up to his knees. A belt with a glittery "M" hung low on his hips. He'd kept the plain black blazer, but was wearing a sparkly pink tank top with a deep v-neck under it. There were several earrings in his ears, and various rings on both hands. The makeup had changed, too. He had added black eyeliner and lots of glitter. Magnus noticed Alec's stare. He struck a pose.
"Take a picture, sweetie, it'll last longer!"
Alec laughed. He was relieved to see that Magnus seemed like himself again.
"Wow...You look really nice, Magnus. Very sexy. And very gorgeous." He finished shyly, blushing.
"Thank you, darling." Magnus winked. Then he took Alec's hand and kissed it. "And you look beautiful, as always," He said with a smile.
Then, Magnus snapped his fingers and the door opened. It shut and locked behind them. They walked hand in hand in a comfortable silence all the way to the Institute. Alec became more and more anxious, lost in thought until Magnus squeezed his hand reassuringly, and he realized with a sudden jolt that they were standing in front of the door. He tensed, and Magnus reached for the door handle. Alec jumped when the door swung open. Izzy was standing on the other side, smiling widely at them. They greeted each other, and then she moved back to allow the couple to step inside. Alec took a deep breath. He felt Magnus squeeze his hand again, and he moved closer to the warlock as the door closed behind them. Their eyes met briefly, but that was all it took for Alec to feel the love between them. He smiled, reassured, because they had each other, and everything would be okay.
So, you all know what to do! Like I said, this is fanfic numero uno for me, so some reviews would be greatly appreciated! :)
I would really like to know, did they seem OOC? I found it hard to write Magnus in that situation and keep him in character. I hope I did a good job of it. Also, this is a one-shot, but I'm considering making it two chapters and writing about what happens when Magnus and the Lightwoods meet. Let me know if you're interested. Anyways, hope you liked it!