Okay here is the brand new chapter that has never been posted. For everyone that followed the first time I left the story as of the last chapter, but I felt this needed a little more closure. I you like it!
Life has been strange since James death. Everything went in fast forward. Edward graduated and then commuted to college the first year. Within that year I was sleeping on my own. This was a big step for me. Edward stayed at the dorms his second year and I hated it. I cried at night knowing he wasn't in arms reach of me. I called many nights crying for him. He was different…better. He was volunteering for some child abuse charity. He was counseling kids that had been abused. He loved it and he was working toward being a social worker. I was jealous at how far he was in his life.
After I graduated from high school, Edward and I moved in together. It was weird being just the two of us. We had come a long way, but we were making it. We had many fights, but that was us. He had a life that I really didn't know. He had friends and I didn't think I fit in at all. I felt like an outsider in my own home. We fought it out and once I let loose, and became social, I liked his friend's and their girlfriends. It was just very hard for me to talk to new people. Carlisle said I was my own worst enemy and I was holding myself back. I was sure he was right, but I was scared of everything. Edward was better with his temper, but his jealously never got better…worse even. When I would try to be friendly with his friends, he would say I was flirting. It really was a lose-lose situation for me. The worse was when he came home early one weekend and found me studying with Jordan. We had become friends, but he was gay so I figured Edward would be okay with it. He wasn't. I could talk to Jordan, he and Alice were the only people at school who really knew me. I told him most of my life and he never once felt bad for me or showed me any pity. We became friends because I saw some bully beat him up and call him a fag. I helped him and we had been friends ever since.
"Bella, the answer's wrong," Jordan said.
"No it's not!" I argued. "Why do you contradict everything I say?"
"Because I like to argue with you," he said kissing my cheek.
"Whatever," I said turning back to my book.
"Is your boyfriend going to prom with you?" he asked as he put his arm on the back of the chair.
"No, he has finals then. I probably won't go," I said as he hummed. "What?" I asked as he took both my hands in his.
"Bella, you are my best friend, and I love you…"
"What the fuck is this?!" Edward half yelled scaring the shit out of me. Jordan quickly stood up and hid me behind him. "Who the fuck are you?"
"I'm Jordan who are you and why are you yelling?" he asked as I stood. Jordan put his arm around my shoulders and tried to hold me back.
"Get your fucking hands off her," Edward said as he moved closer to us.
"It's okay," I said to both of them. "This is Edward, my boyfriend," I said to Jordan. "Babe, this is Jordan. We are just studying."
"Hmm…just studying?" Edward asked looking pissed.
"Maybe I should go?" Jordan asked uncomfortably.
"No, we are doing NOTHING wrong," I said glaring at Edward.
"I walk in to see my girl holding hands with another guy and he is confessing he loves you, and you are going to stand there and tell me you were just studying?!" Edward yelled making me shrink back.
"Look man, I'm…"
"I don't give two shits what you are, or who you are, or how you're not interested in my girl. You need to leave and not come back," Edward said as my anger grew.
"Esme?!" I yelled as Edward laughed out loud.
"What's up, Sweetie? Oh Jordan are you staying for dinner and having another sleepover?" Esme asked as Edward turned a new shade of red.
"Sleepover?! Sleepover with whom?!" Edward asked making his voice squeak.
"Jordan stays here all the time, it's no big deal," Esme said as I tried not to laugh.
"No big deal?!" Edward squeaked.
"Please tell Edward to leave us alone," I said.
"NO! Go ahead and study, but I'm staying right here," he said. I shrugged my shoulders and pushed Jordan back to his seat. I heard Esme chuckle as she made her way around the kitchen. Edward walked over to the table and kissed me soundly marking his territory.
"What's for dinner?" Jordan asked.
"Why, you're not staying. How have I not known that he has sleep overs here?" Edward asked.
"We are having chicken and you are welcome to stay," Esme said.
"Esme?! What the hell?" Edward asked her with a whine.
"Edward, you are a grown man, there is no need for whining," Esme said as Edward kicked me under the table for laughing.
Jordan and I did our best to ignore Edward, but every time we tried to talk he would make some kind of comment. Edward had gotten better with his temper, but I knew it was taking everything he had not to flip his lid.
"I gotta pee," Jordan said standing up. I wasn't thinking and I smacked him in the ass as he walked away.
"What the fuck was that?!" Edward asked grabbing me by the collar of my shirt.
"I'm sorry I was thinking!" He was starting to choke me.
"Are you fucking him? Why did you not tell me about him?"
"I did," I whispered as it became hard to breath.
"I would fucking remember if you talked about another guy."
"Jay, I call him Jay sometimes," I said as he let go of me. Edward sat there for a minute and let the information sink in. After a minute Edward stood up and made his way around the table.
"Why didn't you say he was a guy?"
"I have said he and his several times," I told him rubbing my sore neck.
"I thought Jay was a chick. I mean you talk about hanging out at the mall and how he paints your toes…" yeah he was getting it.
"He's gay," I said not looking at Edward.
"Whatever Edward. Every time I turn around you question me. You never trust me," I said as I picked up our stuff. I was over studying. Edward wrapped his arms around my waist sticking his thumbs in the front of my pants.
"I'm so sorry, Baby."
"Yup," I said as Jordan walked back in.
"We done for today?" he asked.
"Pedis?" he asked clapping his hands.
"Yup," I said with a smile. Jordan squealed and Alice came bouncing into the room.
"We are all set up!" she said as we made our way to back porch.
Needless to say, Edward felt like and ass and didn't say much of anything that night. I knew he didn't trust me, I wasn't stupid. He worried that I would let someone talk me into doing something I didn't want to. I was better, though, but he didn't seem to think so. Edward still liked to know where I was at all times, but I knew that was something he would probably never get over. He got busy a lot with school and work, so I was on my own more and more. I learned how to drive and got my license. It was liberating and I really enjoyed it. Edward hated it, but he got used to it. If he didn't want me to leave the house he would hide my keys, but that ended when I just started walking everywhere. I think he hated that more. We were both healing and mending ourselves as we lived. After everything we had been though I knew we could make our relationship last for everyday of forever.
I was still haunted by nightmares, but they were becoming less and less. When I was still living with the Cullens and Edward was gone, it was weird when Esme would comfort me. Sometimes Carlisle would come in too, but I think he did more to observe than to comfort me. He knew I was getting better and he told me every chance he got. I had love for Esme and Carlisle and I hoped they were in my life for a long time. Same went for Alice, Rose, Emmett, and Jasper. I finally felt like I had a real family. Once upon a time I thought my world would end without Edward, but I had so many people that I knew I would be okay no matter what happened. I could never imagine living without any of them.
Edward and I never really talked about the future. We just took life day by day. Emmett asked when we were getting married and that was something neither of us had ever talked about. Edward said he would marry me and I said the same toward him, but that was as far as it has gone. I think the two of us knew what we wanted, but we didn't push for it because we knew that neither one of us were going anywhere.
Emmett and Rose are planning their wedding and I'm going to be in it. I said no at first, but the more I helped plan, the more appealing it became. I thought it would be fun to wear a pretty dress again. I haven't worn one since Jordan and I went to prom. That was a night I would never forget and I was ecstatic that I took the opportunity to go. Of course I had rules to follow, but I didn't care. After a couple of years I felt like I was a normal kid.
Once adulthood hit, I was okay with it. I felt like I knew where I was going and what I wanted to do. Maybe not career wise, but I knew I was getting my, for everyday of forever with Edward and that was all I needed.
There you have it! This story is now complete!