WHY IS LIFE SO SCREWED? WHY IS MY FAMILY SO SCREWED? WHY AM I SO SCREWD?

I mean seriously all that work? All that training? All the silent vows? All for nothing because I was freak 'in color blind. Life sucks. I don't even understand what the point of it is anymore. Why even try to live, when you know that some stupid reason is going to squash the living daylights out of all your hopes and dreams anyway?

Is this bad karma or something? WHAT DID I EVER FREAK'IN DO TO ANYONE? Why is this all happening to me? I'm not the one who got divorced, or tried to kill himself, or has a drug addiction problem, or who's stupid career plans failed! I just got dragged along.

I only wanted one thing in my whole messed Up life, one thing. I am the only sane person in this family. I just sat still and did what everyone told me to do., and look where it got me. LOOK WHERE IT GOT ME!

(a silent tear roles down a pale cheek,)

ONESHOT! REVIEW THOUGH PLEASE!