I got this idea for a new EClare story, and I just had to write it. Don't worry C.A. fans (Complicated Affection), I will be updating both stories as often as possible. Please R&R! It means a lot to me. :)

BTW, this entire story is from Clare's POV.

I closed my locker, feeling like the luckiest girl in the world. Eli and I had just made things official; labels and all! From here on out, things were going to be good. No more games and no more mixed signals. I sighed contently and walked down the hall on my way to math class. Eli came up behind me and grabbed my hand. I smiled.

"Hey you." he smiled. I think my heart just skipped a beat.

"Hey yourself." I smiled back.

I didn't even realize Fitz was around us until he slammed into Eli, throwing him onto the floor and almost me too because we were holding hands. Eli's emerald green eyes immediately turned dark. Oh God, here we go again. I didn't want there to be a brawl in the middle of the hallway, because Eli would surely get in trouble. Just as he was about to lunge at Fitz, I stepped between them.

"Cool it, boys." Ms. Oh said as she walked past us. I gave Eli a warning look.

"Don't even waste your time Eli. He's not worth it." I said.

Eli stepped back, still looking really mad. I hated that he and Fitz had this ongoing war. It was only a matter of time before someone got really hurt, and I was trying to stop that from happening.

"Yeah, Eli." Fitz said in a taunting tone.

Eli's fists were clenched. I grabbed his wrist and interlaced my fingers with his. He relaxed a bit.

"Let's go." he said, turning around and walking away from Fitz.

I smiled at him. "I knew you were smart. Seriously though. Just try to ignore him, okay?"

Eli didn't answer. I stopped walking.

"Eli, promise me you won't start anything with him." I said.

"Fine. But what if he starts something with me?" he said as he let go of my hand. His eyes turned dark again, and I flinched. I didn't like this side of him, it honestly scared me.

He softened his expression a bit. I sighed.

"Then handle it like you just did. Turn the other cheek." I said.

"Yeah, sure." he said, a bit sarcastic as he turned around and started walking away again.

I sighed. Why did he have to be so stubborn sometimes?

I ran after him and stepped around in front of him.

"Promise me you won't fight with him anymore." I said, narrowing my eyes. I was dead serious.

He groaned. "Why do you even care so much? This doesn't even concern you."

I flinched again. I looked down at the floor. I couldn't stand it when he acted like this. And those words cut through me like knives. I looked up at him and I could tell he regretted saying that.

"Clare, I'm sorry. I didn't mean..." his voice trailed off.

I rolled my eyes. I was annoyed now. "Promise me."

"Okay, fine. I promise." he said, holding up his right hand in a surrendering way.


Alli and I had plans to meet at the Dot after school. I grabbed the things I'd need for the homework I had for tonight from my locker. Then I walked outside and down the front steps. I put Eli's headphones on, and listened to my iPod. I was kind of in my own little world, so I didn't notice the commotion in the other end of the parking lot until I turned and faced that direction. I groaned and turned my iPod off and threw it in my tote. Two people were fighting right next to Eli's hearse. I couldn't see them very well, but I knew who they were. I ran towards them. Sure enough, it was Eli and Fitz. I can't even begin to describe how angry I was. Eli didn't even notice me standing there.

Eli lunged towards him, punching him in the mouth. Then Fitz grabbed his arm and slammed him into the ground. Eli was getting beat up pretty badly. His lip was busted and bleeding, and there was a gash across his cheek.

"Stop it!" I screeched.

Fitz turned towards me. He then grabbed his backpack off the asphalt and walked away. Eli sat up and faced me. He touched his lip and then examined his fingers which were now bloody.

"I can't believe you." I said, crossing my arms. "You promised me."

"Clare, I'm sorry." he said, getting up.

"Save it." I said, running off.


I was pissed. Beyond pissed actually. I didn't even want to think about Eli right now. I decided I might as well still meet Alli at the Dot. I rounded the corner of the street the Dot was on, and almost ran smack into FItz. I gasped and clasped a hand over my heart.

"You... you scared me!" I finally managed to get out.

"Oh, uh sorry." he shrugged and stared at the ground. He slid his hands into the pockets of his black pants and slouched his shoulders. Okay, this was really weird. Who was this guy and what did he do with the real Fitz? He was acting sort of... shy.

"Well, uh..." my voice trailed off as I tried to step around him. He grabbed my wrist. I flinched and tried to pull my arm away.

He immediately let go. "Clare, I'm gonna get right to the point."

"Um, okay?" I said, confused.

"I like you. A lot actually." he confessed. My eyes widened.

"Urm." I was at a loss for words.

"You can do so much better then that ass you call a boyfriend." he said, sounding a bit more like the Fitz I knew.

I shrugged. "I sometimes think that to. I hate how you guys fight all the time. I'm uh... flattered that you like me. B-but, you're no better for fighting with him."
Fitz's expression turned hard and cold. I took a few steps back, feeling a bit intimidated.

"Are you still gonna keep going out with him?" he asked finally.

"I don't know yet." I honestly didn't.

He slammed his fist into the brick building we were standing next to. I jumped.

"That little bastard..." he mumbled to himself. I turned around and starting walking away, wanting to get away from him as soon as possible.

"Stop!" he yelled. I froze. "Look, I'm gonna make you a deal Clare." His eyes were mad, insanely mad now. I looked around, honestly afraid, to make sure that there were other people out on the street so that there were... witnesses if anything were to happen. I sighed in relief when I saw two older ladies talking outside the flower shop. They turned towards us when Fitz yelled.

"A... deal?" I whispered.

"I really hate Eli. That... little asshole needs to die." he said as I gulped. "And I don't really like him taking my girl." he stepped closer to me. I stepped back more.

"I have a knife." he said, I could feel the blood drain from my face. "So either you... come to my house tonight so I can" he paused "make love to you. Or I end Eli's life. Your choice."

My eyes widened in pure terror. I felt a bit dizzy, and it took everything in me to not start hyperventilating.

"Are... are you serious?" I finally managed to choke out.

Fitz nodded. "Do you want me to show you the knife?"
I shook my head quickly. It was an easy decision obviously. If Fitz wanted my... virginity then that's what I had to give him. I was incredibly mad at Eli right now, but I wasn't going to be the cause of his death.

I nodded once, keeping my eyes locked on the ground.

"Okay." I said weakly. "I'll... sleep with you." I was absolutely disgusted as I said those words.

Fitz grabbed my hand roughly. He uncapped a Sharpie and scribbled something onto the back of my hand.

"There's my address. Be there at 7:00 sharp." he smiled. I swallowed the vomit I could feel coming up my throat.

He turned around the corner and left. I stared down at the writing on my hand.

Oh. My. God.


6:45 my phone's clock read. I was pacing my room, so nervous and terrified I think I was going to throw up. I ran to the bathroom and vomitted into the toliet. I was dizzy and still nauseous as I pulled myself up. I can't believe I was going to do this.

My parents were both at a Church fundraiser, and were going to be gone until about midnight, so I had plenty of time to get to Fitz's and back. I almost wished they didn't go, so I had an excuse to not do this tonight. To put it off for one more night, so I could prepare myself. I'm doing this for Eli, I kept telling myself. I was doing this for his life.

I couldn't waste anymore time at home, so I went downstairs and left the house. Fitz's house actually wasn't too far from mine, and it would only take me about 5 minutes to get there. I was shivering uncontrolablly, from the cool breeze and from the butterflies in my stomach.

I finally got to his house. I was expecting it to be some sort of old, haunted looking house. But it was actually pretty normal looking. I timidly walked up to the front door. I knocked lightly. I felt like I was going to throw up again, but my stomach was empty now so I choked down the bile rising up my throat. Fitz threw the door open, his smile was huge. What a sick person.

"You actually came." he said as he opened the door and motioned me inside. I stepped inside, feeling faint.

I nodded. He closed the door. No going back now.

He led me into the living room and sat down on a brown couch in the center of the room. I sat down as far away from him as possible. He inched closer.

"I'll be gentle, I promise. Don't be nervous." he said huskily.

I stared at the floor. He got up and went over to the fireplace on the other end of the room and lit a fire. I ran my hands through my hair, trying to calm myself down. You're doing this for Eli, you're saving his life. I told myself.

He came back over and sat down again. I stared at my purity ring. I knew I was decieving God, but I hoped I would be forgiven. I was doing this to save a life, so it was a noble thing right?

I finally turned towards Fitz. He grabbed my hand and interlaced his fingers with mine. I cringed.

He then leaned in and kissed me. It was awkward. He then forced his tongue into my mouth. I was utterly repulsed. He then started kissing from my jawline to my neck. I wanted to throw him off of me and run out of here screaming. You're doing this to save Eli! I kept chanting in my head.

Then he started taking off my sweater and then my shirt.

You owe me, Eli.


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