A/N: Hi there, it's been way too long since I've written anything I know and I'm sorry ;) I've been extremely busy and quite frankly a bit uninspired lately. But I'm back now :P I came up with this story because I loved writing I've Had the Time of My Life so much. The idea for this story is the same, every chapter is inspired by a different song. But as I've Had the Time of My Life was from Bella's point of view, this one will be from Edward's, mostly because I didn't want to repeat myself too much and because I love being inside our beloved Edward's head :P I started this particular story after a couple of lines of "If you're not the one" by Daniel Bedingfield had been stuck in my head for like a month or something and I finally decided to listen to the rest of the song :P After I had heard it the idea for the story began to form in my head and what you can read now is the first chapter of this compilation of fluffy one shots. I'll upload a new chapter every day (if I can). I hope you all enjoy it and as always, please let me know what you think, it means the world to me! :)
If You're Not The One
"Good morning Edward," Alice greeted me happily like she did almost every morning.
"Morning Alice," I replied, not as enthusiastic as I could sometimes do.
I was a bit worn out by the long night I had had. The rest of the family had wanted to go hunting but I hadn't felt the desire to, I had been looking forward to an evening alone with my books. However, at the last minute Rosalie and Emmett had decided to stay home as well, saying they needed some 'bonding time'. Like the two of them hadn't been bonding enough ever since they met… But instead of granting me my privacy by leaving the house to enjoy their nightly activities, they also decided to stay indoors. Instead of the evening free of everyone's thoughts, I had been treated to front row seats at yet another one of Emmett and Rose's love making episodes. I had to work particularly hard to block out the images coming from them since they weren't even trying to keep things quiet.
"I'm sorry you're night got spoiled, I wish I could've warned you sooner but it was a rash decision on their parts," Alice explained apologetically.
"It's not your fault, I don't blame you," I said softly before smiling at my favorite sister. "Emmett on the other hand," I added the moment Emmett came down the stairs.
"Sorry bro," he said, unashamed and insincerely.
"Yeah right," I muttered a little irritated.
Emmett stared at me for a moment, a little taken aback by my grumpy mood, he was used to a lot from me of course and all my family members knew how hard my gift could be on me whenever they were having one of their adventures but the look of disappointment was more than evident on my face as I once again hadn't been able to read in peace on my sofa like I'd planned and Emmett recognized that it was different this time.
"Look, I'm really sorry, you know how Rose and I can get," he said a little more seriously this time.
"It's okay Emmett, it's easy to let my frustration out on you but I'm happy that you and Rose have each other," I said more kindly.
"Finally desiring a mate of your own then?" Emmett asked jokingly, knowing he was safe from my fury for now and never passing up the opportunity to tease me about my lack of a mate.
"As you know, I'm perfectly happy with myself, my big brother on the other hand is a completely different matter," I shot back at him easily.
Emmett wasn't one to back down from an argument but Alice intervened.
"Knock it off," she said earnestly. "Edward, why don't you and I go scan the surroundings for a little bit, who knows, there might be some nice shops in this little town by now," Alice suggested, trying to hide most of her excitement but not quite managing.
The family had moved back to Forks a few days ago, we had lived here before but that was a long time ago, much had changed. Carlisle would start his first day at work today, he was excited to work at a different hospital again, hoping he would be able to make this hospital a better one as well before we had to move on again.
"Maybe afterwards we can check to see how Carlisle is doing at his new job?" I suggested, eager to get out of the house.
I loved spending time with Alice and even though I wasn't a big fan of shopping, I wouldn't quickly pass up an opportunity to be with just Alice and me, she had been my best friend for so long already and it had been easy to like the little pixie from the start. I had yet to meet someone who wasn't immediately drawn in by her enthusiasm and kindheartedness. Or at least, mostly vampires felt that way, humans shied away from us as much as they could. Which was the way we preferred it as well.
"I can't wait to show you the hospital Edward, it's great and I'm sure you'll enjoy being there as well," Carlisle chimed as he approached Alice and me.
Carlisle had always wanted me to go into working at a hospital as well. My control was almost as good as his was, almost. But I hadn't had the courage to actually test the theory of how strong my hold over my own desires was with lots of human blood being exposed. I had gone to medical school before and in theory I knew everything but practice was a wholly different situation with too much at risk, a human life, maybe more, and most of all exposure of our kind, not to mention the disappointment my father would feel.
"Carlisle…" I started but he interrupted me again.
"I know Edward, but the only way you'll ever be able to take up a position in a hospital like you've told me you desired so many times is to actually try," he argued strongly.
"You have too much faith in me Carlisle," I said sadly.
"And you don't have enough faith in yourself Edward," he countered. "But for now I guess I could be content with just showing you two around my new second home," he added in order to keep the argument from going any further.
We had been over this and over this, neither Carlisle nor I was going to give in, we had completely different views on the matter. His was that if he could handle it, so could I. Mine was that I would be like a loose cannon set free on unsuspecting innocents.
Even though Carlisle had ended the arguments with his words, his mind kept showing me pictures of him proudly putting his arms around me, both of us in scrubs. He looked at Alice for support but she stubbornly shook her head.
"You know better than that Carlisle, I can only see Edward as a doctor when he makes the decision to actually give it a try. Although that doesn't mean I don't believe that he can do it! I have all the faith in the world in his abilities to refrain from wreaking havoc on the hospital. But maybe you should just give it a try Edward, just for the fun of it, at least if you kill everyone in sight you'll never have to go over this argument with Carlisle again," she concluded teasingly.
"Hmmm I'll think about that," I played along, for once ignoring the fact that people in this family just seemed to automatically put too much faith in me.
"Well, I have to get to work, I'll see you later then," Carlisle said as he was walking over to Esme to give her a kiss before leaving.
"Bye," Alice and I said in unison.
Not much later Alice and I were driving through Forks, in search of something interesting.
"There are no boutiques here!" Alice exclaimed horrified.
"I guess you'll just have to make trips to Seattle and Port Angeles whenever you're in need of new clothes, that's too bad," I teased my sister.
"Well that sucks!" Alice continued her little tantrum.
But I had to admit that Forks wasn't much of an interesting place to be, we drove passed the police station and the high school and somehow it felt like that was all there was to see of this town.
The afternoon with Alice had been a lot of fun. Next to my father, Alice had been my best companion. She always knew just how to cheer me up when I was in need and with her I didn't need my gift to know what she was thinking. We were much alike in many ways but in even more ways we were worlds apart. It wasn't too often that the two of us could spend much time alone together. Unless Jasper was trying to get out of going to a movie or going shopping, then I could step in and spend time with his wife.
Many husbands could be jealous of how close Alice and I actually were but Jasper exactly knew our feelings, better than anyone else could, and he knew that there was nothing but sibling love between the two of us. So Jasper never made a fuss when Alice and I wanted to go somewhere with just the two of us and he never insisted on being let into a conversation Alice and I were having in secret. He knew that was just the way we were and I loved him for his acceptance.
"What are you smiling about?" Alice asked while we were on our way to the hospital to see Carlisle.
"Just thinking how lucky I am to have you as a sister and Jasper as a brother," I told her truthfully.
Alice replied with a sweet smile and a small squeeze of my hand.
We arrived at the hospital not much later and I could hear Carlisle's thoughts before we came into sight. Ah there you are, I was beginning to think you were going to stand me up. Carlisle directed at me and I could see in his mind that he was smiling.
We entered the hospital and Carlisle was waiting for us at the reception area. Alice greeted Carlisle with a firm hug and I just smiled at my father in acknowledgment.
"Well, there you are finally," he said teasingly.
"I didn't think such an important doctor like you would actually have time to wait impatiently for his children to show up so he can show them around," Alice teased right back.
Carlisle ruffled her hair in response before showing us to his office.
I had seen Carlisle at his work before but for some reason he looked more at peace here than he had done in the previous hospitals he had worked at.
"There's just something about a small town hospital that makes me glad to be a doctor," Carlisle answered my surprise as if he was the mindreader of the two of us.
"You seem completely in your element here," I said proudly.
"I am, even though it has only been one day, I know I'm going to have a lot of fun here. I'm going to be able to do the work I love doing and the people here are just all a little nicer than they usually are in a big town. Everyone knows each other, and even though that means less time for us to be spend here, I'm always happy to work in an environment like this," my father explained.
A nurse entered the room and I could see her eyeing Carlisle appreciatively, then she noticed Carlisle had company and blushed heavily. Her eyes lingered on me for a moment and I was surprised to find that her thoughts weren't the usual lust filled thoughts other nurses had had when Alice and I had entered the hospital. Surely they had all been convinced that Alice and I had been a couple, since we were both too beautiful for words according to them but that didn't keep them from fantasizing about me, or both Alice and me for that matter.
This nurse was different however, she acknowledged our beauty but it wasn't jealousy towards Alice or lust towards me. She was just surprised at how much we actually looked like Carlisle although we were supposed to be his adoptive children. Other than that her thoughts mostly flickered towards her fiancé. I couldn't help but smile at her and she smiled back shyly.
"Sorry doctor Cullen, I didn't realize you had visitors," she muttered apologetically. "I just came to bring you the dossiers you had asked for earlier," she continued before placing a pile of paperwork on my father's desk.
"Amy, how many times do I have to tell to call me Carlisle?" Carlisle said kindly.
"Sorry," the girl named Amy muttered.
"Let me introduce you to my children, this is my daughter Alice, and my son Edward. Guys, this is the head nurse of this department, Amy."
"Nice to meet you, Amy," both Alice and I said politely.
"Hi," she muttered shyly.
She quickly made her way back out of the office not long after the introductions.
"I like her," I told Carlisle.
"Yeah, she's a good nurse," Carlisle replied.
"She didn't once think about anything other than her fiancé, not like any of the other nurses when they are around you, maybe you should try to look a little less handsome," I teased my father.
Carlisle harrumphed but otherwise let my comment slide.
The tour of the hospital didn't take long because it wasn't a particularly large one to begin with. But it was nice to see my father in his element again. We had all taken a little time off from pretending to be normal, a few weeks just being ourselves at Isle Esme and I could tell that Carlisle had really missed his daily interaction with humans and even more he had missed helping those in need. It was nice to see him this happy again.
"Oh I realized I left something in your office Carlisle," Alice said as we were making our way out of the hospital. "I'll be right back," she told me as she started towards Carlisle's office.
"I have to get back to my paperwork anyways so why don't I walk with you right away," Carlisle offered. "See you at home Edward," he told me in goodbye.
"Bye, thanks for the tour," I told Carlisle. "I'll be in the car," I continued to Alice before walking in the direction of the exit again.
I was pondering over the possibility of becoming a doctor for real, wondering if I could actually be able to handle it. The idea got me excited and for a moment I didn't pay attention to my surroundings. At that exact time I felt something crash into me and my arms wrapped around it instinctively.
I looked down and I was surprised to find that I was holding a girl in my arms. I quickly released her after steadying her. It was strange that I hadn't heard her thoughts or registered her coming closer before.
"I'm sorry miss, I wasn't looking," I told her apologetically.
The doors of the hospital opened again and wind blew in like a soft sigh. The intensity of the scent that hit me was incredible. Unlike anything I had ever experienced before and I immediately locked down, holding my breath in the process.
Human blood would always be appealing to me but this particular scent was different, unlike any smell I had ever experienced before. I could feel my eyes immediately getting darker and my throat was burning beyond anything I had ever felt. It was extremely painful and I had to get away from this creature as quickly as I could.
"It was my fault, I'm clumsy like that," the girl answered bravely. She looked at me with a curious expression on her face. She was intrigued by me, like so many other females were, but there was something different, a curiosity that was mostly not present in other people. Many people liked to watch us from afar but when they got very close to us they would instinctively shy away. This girl just stood her ground, unafraid it seemed. Even though she was possibly in more danger from me than any other human in this place.
I couldn't speak for a moment, I was curious to know why she wasn't afraid. I tried to listen to her thoughts to know what she was thinking but for some reason I seemed unable to. I must have looked like a fool staring at this stranger the way I was because she started blushing more the longer I kept silent.
"I'm Bella Swan," she introduced herself to me, extending a hand towards me carefully but determinedly.
I wasn't sure whether or not it was safe for me to actually touch her, or to move in general, but I couldn't embarrass this girl any further either. So I decided to carefully shake her hand. I took a small breath to be able to introduce myself and even that small amount of air was enough to knock me senseless, her scent was just too powerful.
"Edward Cullen," I managed to choke out.
I was torn. On the one hand I wanted to run away as far as possible so I wouldn't endanger her any longer. On the other hand I wanted to know everything there was to know about her, and especially I wanted to know why I couldn't hear her thoughts. Of course I couldn't just ask her about it but I was hoping that some insight into this girl would provide me with enough information to figure it out on my own. I had never before encountered anyone who was immune to my gift.
"Nice to meet you Edward," the girl named Bella said shyly.
I decided to get a better handle on myself. I took slow, extremely conscious breaths, all the while monitoring the monster inside of me. It was working. The longer I was around her scent, the easier it was to block out my primal instincts.
"You're chief Swan's daughter aren't you?" I asked her politely. I had heard about the chief and I knew he had a daughter, even though we hadn't been here long, in a small town like this everyone knew everything about one another.
"That's right," she answered. "You must be new here?" Bella asked bravely.
"What makes you say so?" I replied.
Bella blushed at my directness. "Well, I've been living here for the past four years now and I've never seen you before," she explained.
"That's right, me and my family moved here a few days ago."
"Why?" she asked incredulously after which she started blushing immediately. It was enchanting to see her blush, that color made her look even more beautiful than she already was. "Sorry… I mean, why Forks of all places?" she continued.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, couldn't you have picked a sunnier place? This place is so green and rainy," she explained.
Her question intrigued me. "You don't like rain?" I asked.
"No, not at all, not anything wet or cold actually," she replied while shrugging.
"Why did you move to Forks then?" I challenged.
Bella explained her family's situation to me. Her mother had remarried and her husband was a minor league baseball player so they travelled a lot. Bella had decided to move in with her father in Forks to give her mother more time with her new husband. It was a very noble and selfless thing in my eyes, especially since she had such an aversion to the weather that signified Forks.
"Your mother is very lucky to have you," I said sincerely, earning another blush from her.
Bella asked me about my family and background and I told her the version we told everyone this time around. That my siblings and I were Esme and Carlisle's adoptive children and that we moved here for Carlisle's work. We had all finished high school and were now taking a year off before starting college to spend some time in Forks as a family. I told her I was also looking into getting my undergraduate degree through self study on the internet, although I wasn't quite decided on the subject just yet.
"I still can't believe you chose Forks of all places," Bella said incredulously.
"I don't mind the weather so much actually and the people seem very nice," I replied kindly.
We had chosen Forks mostly for the lack of sun most of the time and the privacy our property provided for us. But I had no intention of explaining that all to Bella.
"Why are you staying here when you don't like it then?" I asked curiously, hoping all the while she wouldn't think I was rude for asking such a bold question.
Bella blushed shortly before answering my question. "I'm not staying here, I've finished high school and I'm actually leaving for college tomorrow, I'm going to study in Seattle. I've found a little apartment downtown, close to the university, I'm going to study for my undergraduate degree in Biology. I only came here to pick up some of my records for the hospital in Seattle to have so that they know what to do with me when I visit them after one of my clumsy moments," she explained shyly.
For a short moment it felt like my heart was breaking. I couldn't quite understand why, since I hadn't known this girl that long but the thought of her leaving was excruciating to say the least.
"I thought you'd be in the car." I heard Alice's voice from behind me.
I turned around to face my sister and I could see the surprise in her eyes when she noticed the girl in front of me. Her eyes glazed over for a moment and I could follow the vision in her mind.
She saw Bella and me, walking hand in hand in my meadow, the meadow I had found the last time we were here and had claimed as my own little happy zone away from everyone, staring happily into each other's eyes. I tried to snap Alice out of her vision without drawing any suspicion from Bella. It couldn't be true anyways, Bella was human for crying out loud and she was moving away. It just wasn't possible.
I shook my head violently, too quickly for a human to catch.
I don't control my visions Edward, but I for one would like to have another sister-in-law! Alice told me silently.
I again shook my head at her.
"Hi, I'm Alice, Edward's sister," Alice turned her attention to Bella.
"My name is Bella, nice to meet you," Bella replied a little taken aback by my sister's enthusiasm.
"I would love to get to know you better but Edward and I unfortunately have to go now, will I see you soon?" Alice asked innocently.
"I don't think so," Bella said sadly and I could see Alice's expression turn surprised and disappointed. "Not because I don't want to, but I'm moving away tomorrow," Bella added quickly.
"So soon already?" Alice asked with a pout on her face.
"Yes, college starts in a week and I have to prepare," Bella answered, seeming almost as sad as Alice was.
"That's too bad," Alice replied. "Well, it was very nice to meet you Bella, I'm sure you'll do great in college!" Alice said in goodbye, surprising both Bella and me by pulling Bella in for a hug as if the two had been friends for years.
"Nice to meet you too," Bella replied a little taken aback.
I could see that she didn't once flinch from Alice's touch and she wasn't even the slightest bit surprised by any of it. It was strange to see the effect Alice's enthusiasm and kindness could have on a person.
Alice already started to move in the direction of the car but I wasn't as willing to go as she had been. I just stood there, staring into the eyes of the most wonderful creature I had ever seen and I didn't even really know her. The burning in my throat had become less obvious as other emotions took charge. I was extremely sad that I wouldn't see this girl again and I was confused by Alice's vision, especially since Bella was going to move away and everything. It wasn't possible that I had finally found the perfect girl for me and she turned out to be human. I guess it was a good thing that she was moving away because I wouldn't be able to be close to her then and she wouldn't be in any danger from me.
For some reason Bella seemed just as reluctant to walk away as I was so we just stood there silently staring at each other for an immeasurable moment. Then Bella shyly cleared her throat and extended her hand towards me once more.
"It was very nice to meet you Edward," she said and I thought I detected a little sadness in her voice but that could've easily been my own disappointment at the way things were turning out.
"It was a pleasure to meet you too Bella," I replied sincerely while shaking her hand. A wave of electricity left me in shock for a moment. Our touch left a burning trail along my hand and I was wondering if Bella had felt the same thing. From the look of shock in her eyes I could tell she probably felt it too.
She blushed as she noticed my gaze and then started walking into the hospital, as she passed me she stopped for a moment and quickly planted a soft kiss on my cheek. The burning sensation of my throat was nothing compared to the electricity her kiss left on my cheek. I was on fire and I couldn't move for a moment as I heard Bella's footsteps retreat deeper into the hospital.
That evening I was behind my piano mindlessly playing some tunes that popped into my head. I hadn't even realized what song I had been playing until Alice came dancing down the stairs and started to sing along with my melody.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
I snapped my head up at Alice when I heard the lyrics. The lyrics sounded so true, I wasn't made for Bella, she was human for crying out loud and she was moving away! But since I had met her this afternoon nothing else had been on my mind but her. I didn't understand what was going on with me.
Alice continued singing along to the song and another part of the song caught my attention.
Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And through I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
Was that really how I felt for her? Love? I had never felt anything like this before, it wasn't the kind of love I felt for my siblings, it was different. But I didn't even know her, how could I feel so strongly about her? It didn't make any sense at all.
"If that's really how you feel Edward then you should go get her!" Alice broke me out of my pondering.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, confused.
"I have never heard you play any songs like this one before, you were more one for the classics weren't you? So what has changed since the last time you played any song on the piano? You've met Bella today, and if my vision is close to the truth, you're meant to be with her. So why waste any time? You should fight for her!" Alice told me determinedly.
"I don't even know her Alice!" I cried out in despair. "And she's human!"
"There's a reason for everything Edward, and I'm pretty sure I got my vision because it's meant to come true so I'm going to help you realize my vision!" There was no arguing with Alice but I couldn't just invade this girl's life, especially not with the pull she had over the side of me I was trying all these years to suppress.
"I can't, I have to think," I said as I ran out of the house, to my meadow.
None of my family members had ever disturbed me in my meadow, they knew it was my sacred place. Today was different however. I heard him approaching as I was gazing at the sky, trying to sort out my thoughts.
"Jasper…" I started arguing but he cut me off.
"Alice said you might need some help sorting out your emotions, let me help you," Jasper offered and it didn't even sound like such a bad plan.
"Alright," I said hesitantly.
We just laid in the meadow staring at the darkening sky in silent for a moment. Neither of us willing to start the conversation. I could hear Jasper's thoughts, he was concerned for me but he was mostly reflecting on the feelings he was feeling coming off from me. And whenever he would feel a hint of despair from me he would help me with a wave of calm.
We didn't have to talk, Jasper knew like no other how to help me when I needed to sort out my emotions. The feedback from his gift was all I needed. We spent the entire night just sorting out my feelings and Jasper never once got impatient. It was almost sunrise when I realized what was going on.
I shot up like a missile and I realized Jasper had done the same, he was staring at me, with a triumphant smile around his lips. "I love her!" I exclaimed.
A/N: So that was it for the first chapter, I hope you enjoyed it :) I'd love to hear your thoughts :) I'll respond to as much questions or comments as I can in the next chapters, like I always do :) The next chapter will be posted tomorrow :) Xxx