Extended Author's Note—First, an apology. Parts of this piece were left intentionally vague. So if anyone was lost or confused because of that, by all means, feel free to contact me for any clarification.

Now, there were three things that I wanted to talk about with this Note. The first is the treatment of Eli David. In NO way is this piece meant to condone what he did to Ziva. Truthfully, I find him a rather despicable man. However, (and I'm being very serious when I say this) I think we all have a fundamental lack of understanding where his character is concerned. In so many fanfiction that I've read, and even in the show itself, Eli is just "the bad guy". So far, we have yet to really see why he does the things he does. And, personally, I don't like one-dimensional adversaries. I don't like characters being awful "just because". That being said, my number one goal (and challenge) with this piece was to attempt to humanize Eli David. He's done some terrible things, we all know this. But what brought him to do these things? What could possibly justify him sending his only living daughter to a highly-probable death? My personal belief is that he doesn't consider himself bad or see himself doing bad things. He is someone who really does believe in ends justifying means, and that achieving these goals takes sacrifice. Unfortunately, this creates one of his greatest flaws (and I'll get to that in my third point).

The second thing I wanted to discuss was Eli's wife, Ziva's mother. She is seldom-mentioned (by my memory, only once briefly in "Silent Night"), and I've ALWAYS wondered why. I think there's a reason we don't know much about her, and that's how the idea for this story came about. So many people believe that when he mentions how Salim "killed one of his people," they believe he is talking about Tali. Though I find it very possible that she is who he was speaking of, I also noticed how in "Aliyah" he is wearing a wedding band, and that got me thinking of his wife. Where was she? Could she be Eli's motivator?

And that leads me to my third point: The duality of Love. On one hand, Love can give you the perceived power to do anything, it can elate you in a way you never thought possible. But on the flip side, (and not to use such a cliched phrase) love can blind us. It has the ability to make us SO focused on a certain thing that we forget what's also very important. The genesis of this piece came about when I thought of the story's tagline: Even Love can make monsters of us all. And that's where I believe Eli's greatest flaws and blindness came from. Speaking in terms of this story, the love he has for his wife is so powerful and the hatred he has for Salim is so strong that he (almost unknowingly) ignores what is right in front of him: The life and emotional health of his own daughter.

So, I'm sorry if this turned into more of a rant than an Author's Note, but I hope you enjoyed peaking into this writer's mind concerning a rather complicated character. Until next time :)