The end of the century
I said my goodbyes
For what it's worth
I always aim to please
- For what it's worth by Placebo
"Blake didn't try to kill herself, it was Katherine. It's been Katherine this whole time." Stefan's words rang through my head all night. I sat in front of the fire place with my bourbon and that's all I could think about. What if he was right? What if I made a big mistake? There was a side of me that was saying I could never be happy. I wont be happy. That it was inevitable I was going to be alone. I accept that, it's what my destiny was. I was born to be alone. It would just be unnatural if Blake had changed that. I sighed and threw my glass against the fire place. I watched as each tiny fragment of glass fell to the floor.
"Why did she have to do it?" I screamed. I was finally admitting it to myself that I was mad. I was mad at her. No, I was furious with her. I wasn't good enough and her almost dying was her way of telling me. I didn't want to be selfish with Blake. I tried to be better for her but that wasn't enough. I could never be enough. Did I ever deserve her?
I was tired with this place. I needed to get out. I did what I do best, I ran. I didn't know where I was going or if I was going to come back. I grabbed my jacket off the couch and walked right out. There was no voice in the back of my head telling me to go back. There was nothing telling myself that this was a mistake. I couldn't be around Blake. I couldn't destroy her world. I wouldn't do that to her.
I opened the door and left the boarding house. I unconsciously made up my mind I'd never see her again. This was it. I'd wait a couple years and come back when she is old and has a husband. A couple babies... I had to stop thinking about her future, because I wanted to be in it so badly. For the first time in years I wanted to be human. I wanted to give her those babies. I wanted to wipe away her tears when she cried. I wanted to be the only one she trusted. I wanted everything. I wanted Blake.
I looked up from the ground to see that I walked to the graveyard, where it all began. Where not so long ago I came across a sad broken girl crying about her friend. How times have changed... I stepped forward looking for his grave. I found it in the familiar spot I've caught her at multiple times. I looked down at the grave of the only person who could of made Blake happy. If he wasn't such a delinquent I knew she would of had a happy life. He would of given her everything I couldn't. I felt myself punch the grave without even realizing what I was doing. Cement shattered onto the ground and there was a huge dent on the tombstone. I was mad. I was mad this kid couldn't see how lucky he was. I was mad that he couldn't of just thought of her when he was taking the drugs. How could he not love her enough?
"Tragic. Isn't it?" I quickly turned around, surprised to actually be snuck up on. Elena...wait, no, Katherine was standing a few feet away from me. "The youth in Mystic Falls these days... I'm surprised there are anybody in their twenties around here. They all seem to die when reached a certain age." She walked closer to me. "I heard about Blake. I'm sorry Damon." She looked at me sympathetically but I knew better. Sympathy didn't work on Katherine.
"What are you talking about?"
"Well everyone is talking about it. Teenage death is really a conversation starter. Especially when suicide is involved." Was she talking about Blake? Nobody knew about Blake. She was alive. No one in this town knew Blake even almost died. She was a nobody.
"Are you talking about Blake?" I had to clarify.
"Yea. I heard she died. How are you doing?" I looked her up and down to see if she was serious. She was. But why would she think she was dead?
If my heart could of stopped it would have. All the pieces finally fit together. Maybe... No. I was for sure Blake was telling the truth. I just didn't want to admit it. I felt anger rush through me. I've never been so furious in my life before. I felt the anger come over every bone in my body.
"What did you do?" I screamed and ran forward pushing Katherine. She stumbled back surprised. She was clearly not expecting that. She looked up at me and the veins around her eyes appeared and I was prepared. I ran towards her, knocking her back again. She flung forward and attacked me. Her hand ended up wrapped around my neck and for the first time I was able to pry her hands off. I don't know where the sudden strength came from but I was stronger then her. For a moment I saw fear flash through her eyes then her casual facade came back.
"You can't kill me Damon."
"You're wrong Katherine." She was suddenly far away from me standing next to a tree. She was about to run in till I muttered "Coward." She stopped and looked at me. I saw the sudden rage that went through her but it wasn't even close to mine. She ran at me and at last minute I moved out of the way and she came to halt. I disappeared into the trees and watched as she was looking for me.
"Come out to play Damon. For a moment I thought you went soft. But I was wrong." She was slowly circling around looking high and low. "Please do tell how you could be as strong as me."
I flashed down out of my hiding spot pushing her against a tree. I trapped her strong but small body against me and the tree. Her back was pressed against a small stub of a branch and we both knew if I put a little more pressure the branch would pierce through her back and stab her heart.
"Any last words?"
"Damon, I'm sorry. I only killed her to be closer to you. We could be together." She took her hand and started to touch my chest. "You could have what you've wanted for your whole undead life. You could have me."
"Problem is, I don't want you anymore." Her face grew furious and she was about to attack but before she could move I shoved her into the tree and she gasped. I watched her face turn in to shock and pure pain. Grey was washing over her perfect skin and the veins under her eyes bulged out.
"Damon..." It was the last thing that came from her lips. I felt frozen. I killed Katherine. I couldn't believe it. I stepped back from her body and looked at her as she hung from the small branch. I quickly ripped the necklace from her throat and put it in my pocket.
I knew what I had to do. I had to go tell Blake how sorry I was. I raced back to the boarding house and quickly whipped open the door and searched for her room.
"Blake?" I yelled down a long hallway.
"Yeah?" I heard come from the door next to me. I was about to bust in but then I stopped. This shouldn't change anything. I still wanted everything for her. I couldn't give it to her. I still had to leave but I had to say I'm sorry. I opened the door and saw her sitting on a bed with her back to me.
"What is it Ste.. Damon!" She dropped something and stood up, completely shocked to see me there. She wiped her mouth and I knew something was off. I was immediately in front of her and took in her flustered face. "Da-Damon, you should leave. I'm...I'm indecent." She said, referring to her shorts and tank top.
"I think you fail to remember I've seen you in a lot less." I waited for a blush but nothing appeared. I frowned and touched her cheek and the familiar warmth of her skin wasn't radiating off her. Was she sick? Was it just the after affects of overdosing?
She cringed away from my hand and all it did was add to my growing suspicion. I took a deep breath to see if she even smelled the same but the only thing filling my senses was blood. Human blood. I fought back the urge to sink my fangs into something and returned to normal form. I grabbed her arms looking for some sort of cut. I was searching her in till she pulled away from my grasp a lot easier then she should have. All this was pointing to the one thing I never wanted. Never even dreamed about.
"What happened to you?" She looked away from me guilty and I searched the room. I looked on her side of the bed and found blood bags. "No." I whispered and looked at them in horror. "No, No, No!" I screamed.
"Damon, it just happened."
"Who did it?" I screamed at her. I was going to rip apart whoever did this to her. I was going to slowly kill them and make sure they suffered. I knew I had the power to do it. My rage killed Katherine. I could kill anyone now.
"Nobody did it..."
"Whose blood was in your system when Katherine tried to kill you?" I demanded. She looked at me horrified
"How'd you.. how'd..."
" I just know." I cut her off. "Now answer the question."
"Stefan. But he was just saving me."
"By damning you to hell on earth?" She gasped at my words.
"Don't talk like that!" She screamed at me.
"Do you know what this means?"
"Of course I know what this means! I've been dealing with it this whole time you've been sulking in self pity Damon!" I suddenly felt guilty. How did I not notice this before? "I've got forever. I'm sorry but you're just going to have to deal with the fact, I'm going to be around. I don't know what I did to make you hate me so much but it's not going to change." She looked so tired. Her voice cracked a couple of times as she shoved the words out.
"I don't... hate you." That was so ridiculous. It was so opposite from the truth. "I-I love you." Her face fell at the words and she held no emotion.
" You're lying." She muttered and looked at me in disbelief.
"I've never... I don't know how to handle this." I shook my head and looked down. " I really thought you tried to kill yourself. I thought it was my fault. Katherine tricked me into thinking you weren't happy with me."
"Damon I was happy! I swear I would never do that."
" I know that now but you have to realize I'm not made to be loved. I don't deserve happiness. I don't deserve you. I know you could never accept my apology and take me back but that's what I want."
"You are all I've ever wanted Damon. Please save the whole I don't deserve you thing for someone else because you'd be so selfish to leave me." I was speechless. I don't get speechless.
"What are you trying to say?"
"Please, Please stay with me. Be with me. Be my everything." She pleaded with me and I could never see myself saying no to those beautiful green eyes.
"You already are my everything." I whispered as I grabbed a hold of her and pulled her into my arms. She wrapped her body around mine and I held on tightly. This felt right.
"So what does this mean?"
"You are mine." She giggled and looked up at me. " You're going to be mine forever." I said while looking her right in the eye.
"It's a good thing we have forever then." She stepped up on her tippy toes and pressed her lips against mine. For once I was sure of one thing, I, Damon Salvatore was finally going to have a happy ending.
I'm so sorry it took so long to update! I'm terribly horrible! Now that's it over please, please, please review! It was my first story I ever had the balls to write and now that it's over I'm sad.
Thank you all for reading!
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