Disclaimer:None.Vince McMahon and Triton Sport.The wreslters own themselves....although i would LOVE to own Chris Jericho *evil smirk* mwahahahaha *cough* erm right back the fic lol

Summarry:A type of Squel to "Outside".But this time it's Stephanie's POV.And "Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd was used hehe that's where the title came from agian...I'm not good at making up titles lol .No flaming and R&R Please! To my fellow Smoochy Dreamers *^_^* you know who you are.And all the people in the Fan Froum.

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Everything's so blurry

and everyone's so fake

and everybody's empty

and everything is so messed up

pre-occupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

It's ironic how people say that myself and Chris Jericho will never co- exsist. They all though we hated each other.Him calling me a filthy,dirty,disgusting trash bag......the insults.....the laughs....the chants of "slut" feeling the arenas and house shows over and over again. Sure I might have cried a few times and whinned.But those weren't tears of crying form insults.Those were tears of pain. Of what pain? But I list everything? ECW/WCW going out of business my whole stock of the WWF was put to buy that peice of crap of ECW that Shane and that fat bald bastard of Paul told me to buy."Oh come on Steph this will take over the WWF".But did it? No way i trusted Kurt when he told me that he wouldn't turn on the Alliance.He had my trust.As Jericho was elliminated and attacked the Rock something inside me was...glad he did that.I was happy inside thinking that Chris had joined the Alliance.Then Kurt hit Austin with the belt.The pain that I once had before i saw Chris attack the Rock came back.All the problems i had in my life came back.And i saw as Rock 1.2.3 pinned Austin....The WWF lived...and the Alliance died and the power just disolved in my hands.

You could be my someone

you could be my scene

you know that i'll protect you

from all of the obscene

I wonder what your doing

imagine where you are

there's oceans in between us

but that's not very far

Then there was that humiliating thing my father did to me.As i was on my knees holding on tightly to his leg.I felt like a little girl again.Not wanting to let go of my daddy.He kicked me out of the arena made security esscort me out saying "Say bye to Daddy'a Little girl".I was once that Daddy's Little Girl everyone loved.But then the whole "Stephanie betraying" thing came into plan.I met Hunter...and we got married.It was a perfect life.He was happy....I was happy...or so I thought.When Hunter got hurt during his tag team match-up.I walked with him up that ramp behind him.Like I've always done since I married him.I was always the one behind him "hanging on the his coat tail" as JR says.I heard him say "When can I get in the ring?" many peole thought that he was so dedicated...he loved what he did.Dont' get me wrong he does love what he does.But all he wanted was that title that WWF title.That's all that really matter to him.Nothing else...not even his own wife.I stood by him all that time in rehab...during his operation.I was the one their for him never left his side.Until I bought ECW.

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it in my face

this pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it my face

After the Alliance died Hunter was gonna go back the WWF.I had managed to get backstage a couple of times.When he came back that night on Raw everyone loved.I asked him if i can go down with him at ring side.He said no.I could of been out there with him celebrating his success...being happy with him.But i was backstage crying and looking at the montitor as he made his back to the WWF.I'm not saying that I was the one for all his success.....but i helped him.He really didn't appreacite all the things i did for him.The he started to get all weird.Telling me to stay out of his matches.That he wanted to go out there and be alone by himself with out any distractions.Now I may sound bitchy...people say I'm....but I think he wanted to be out there by himself......to have the spotlight. If we would of talked things i wouldn't have to do the things i did after I cost his match on Raw.

Everyone is changing

there's noone left that's real

to make up your ending

and let me know just how you feel

cause I am lost without you

I cannot live at all

my whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl

When JR gave me that idea.At first I didn't feel it was the right thing to do.I thought it was wrong.But i did it anyways.As I stood their in that ring on Monday Night Raw.I called him out telling him that we have to re- new our wedidng vows.As he shouted in my face...i cried....i cried of the pain that i was hiding inside Everyone tells me I'm a bad actress...but I don't care because i wasnt' acting as i cried that night.As i told him "Hunter it's because I'm Preganant!".I felt this shot of pain in my back.I was thinking to myself "Why Steph why did you say that!".As he turned around and looked at me still stunned from the news he smiled....he smiled at me and picked me up and kissed me.The first time he had smiled to me like he did since what seemed like ages.He but his ear over my belly.My heart felt full for some reason.I met up with an actor told him to play my doctor.I payed him......i felt horrible for doing this.But for some reason i still did them.Hunter looked so happy when he saw the picture of the "baby".They told me Kurt came out with a carrige making fun of the "baby".I really wasn't to happy about that one.I told Hunter to ask my father if he would walk me down the aslie.Hoping he'll forget all the pain he cause me....like i forgave him.

You could be my someone

you could be my scene

you know that i will save you

from all of the unclean

I wonder what your doing

I wonder where you are

There's oceans in between us

but that's not very far

When Hunter was set to have a match agaist Kurt Angle and Chris Jericho.I sat backstage and looked at the match.When Kurt hit Hunter with the chair i got up and ran to the ring.Chris Jericho cornerd me in the ring.He blue eyes looking at me....not filled with hate but filled with compassion.Kurt was right behind him then Hunter came to the rescue.And hit both men down.He hugged me tightly saying "Baby I love you".That was the only time I could say I was truly happy since all of this started.Then he fell on top of me.My back hit the canvas I thought my lie would come out now.But i lied once again and said i was fine.But as I looked up the ramp I saw Chris looking down at me his eyes never leaving me.I knew he knew something....but i just didn't know what it was.The night finally came.The night I though was gonna make all the pain I had inside...just go away.But boy was I ever wrong?

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it in my face

this pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it my face

I walked down the asile with daddy.He had forgaven me like i did to him.As I stood thier in the ring facing Hunter.A big smile in my face.As he just smiled......like whatever.As the singers sang ...and I do admit too that they sang horrible!.I looked at Hunter....thinking what was he thinking that very moment.What would i have to do to get acctually preganant.As I said my vows I waited for Hunter.The he just layed the bomb on me"Steph i see you for what you truly are.......a no good liying BITCH!".My eyes widden and all the pain i had inside just came back.But this time the pain was worse.I saw my father get pedagree and then Hunter pushed me down.He threw the wedding ring.Embarassing me infront of everyone on National Televison.I wanted to cry that very second...but i holded back tears and filled with anger.On Valentines day i didn't go postal like i said i did.I didn't burn anything.I kept them...hoping that he would forgive me.But not one really saw where I went after Raw that night.I ran down the hall into the production trailer.

Nobody told me what you thought

nobody told me what to say

everyone showed you where to turn

told you when to runaway

nobody told you where to hide

nobody told you what to say

everyone showed you where to turn

showed you when to runaway

No one in the world would guess who found me.Chris Jericho.The man who had hated me for so much time was now in this trailer......making me happy.And no not that type of happy.He was talking to me listening to all the pain i had.We talked for about a hour.I had totally forgotten everything i was crying over.I even forgot everything he did to me.At No Way Out Kurt won -fairly- must I add.But then the next night Ric Flair rook away his chance and gave it back to Hunter.I couldn't belive what was happening in my life.I just wanted to...die.Too much pain...to many problems that i couldn't deal with anymore.But yet again I have another idea.This one wasn't for anything to get back together.Becasue i realized that I wasn't holding on the Hunter coatail......he was hanging on to mine.I told Chris Jericho for us to be partners.I trust him.I want him to win at WrestleMania.And give Hunter the beating of his life.To make him feel the pain that I have been feeling.

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it in my face

this pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away

can you take it all away

well ya shoved it my face

Chris Jericho...the Undisputed Champion...the Livng Legend he calls himself.Isnt' really what everyone thinks he is.He's not egotistical.....he's not arrogant.....he's Chris Jericho.The man that I know is kind,loving,caring,genarous.Not the man poeple see on t.v.Even when he's character I see him for who he really is.Were now business partners.He makes all my problems go away.He makes me feel happy...feel good about myself.He's like a breath of fresh air......he let's me breathe.....and he knows the pain i felt.Because he's been knowing all this time.That's why I see Chris for who he is...not what people say he is...and he see's me for me too.

This pain you give to me

you take it all

you take it all away...

explain again to me

you take it all away

explain again to me

take it all away

explain again

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R&R Please no flaming please.I know it's not like the first one but it's 12:37 at night and right now my eyes are half open and half close lol.I'll see if I'll write some more of these during the next set of events :).