WHY HELLO THERE.
Welcome to the longest chapter of a story I have ever written. It's almost 3,000 words, which is insane for me. But anyways.
Thanks for clicking on this story. I really don't know where to begin. I guess I'll start out with warning you that this story has teenage pregnancy, and it talks about the ever so touchy subject of abortion. It also has genderbent characters and swearing. (If it has Lovino in it what do you expect?) If you have a problem please click the back button and don't read any further.
I had a hard time with this story. When I wrote the rough draft, I thought it was really pretty darn good, and I was especially proud of myself to writing something over 2,000 words.
But when I actually started doing the final copy I was like "Whoa. So much stuff to fix."
I ended up revising it a total of 3 times, and I still feel like it's extremely rushed. It was hard to write because this is a highly drama filled chapter and I'm so used to writing humor. I was also trying to keep them in character the best I could, but that's hard with so much drama going on. I think I had the hardest time with Spain, because I was just like "ajsklfsdjl how do I write him like this?"
Anyways, I guess what I'm getting at is I apologize if this chapter sucked and went waay too fast and if you think it did can you please tell me so I can fix it? I've stared at this document for so long I'm starting to think everything I'm typing isn't making sense.
Oh yeah, and I promise the next chapters will be much funnier and have more humor. This chapter just needed to be dramatic for obvious reasons.
ANYHOW, I INVITE YOU ON LOVINA'S JOURNEY THROUGH PREGNANCY.
Lovina's heart was beating so fast she could feel it in her ears. She gripped the white plastic stick in her hands, breaking it in two at last.
Throwing the now-broken stick into the trash, Lovina stifled a sob. Suddenly the cold tiled bathroom floor looked very inviting, and she wished she could just lay down on it and disappear, pretend like none of this was happening.
Honestly, that didn't sound all that hard to accomplish. She was having a hard enough time believing it right now anyways. This sort of thing happened to dumb girls on MTV reality shows, not to people like her.
But she knew. She knew before she took the tests. She knew the night that it had happened, when the condom broke. The tests were just a strange form of denial. All 3 of them, which had all come out positive. Just like she knew they would...
She felt like she was going to vomit. Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes as she thought about what she could do. Abortion, adoption, keeping the baby? She felt like her brain was going to explode. A few tears slipped down her cheeks, and she gave up on trying to be quiet. She had barely let out a few sobs before she heard her sister come barreling down the hallway. Sometimes she swore that girl had a radar just for being able to tell when someone was upset. Feliciana came barreling into the bathroom, wrapping Lovina in a bone-crushing hug. She cursed her overly-empathetic sister.
"Lovi! Lovi! Why are you crying? What's wrong?" Lovina was being squeezed so tight she could barely muster up the strength to shove her sister off of her. She didn't want to deal with anyone right now, especially not her cry-baby twin.
"Feliciana. Out." She demanded, pointing towards the door. Feliciana frowned.
"But Lovi! You're crying, I can't-" Suddenly something on the floor caught the younger twin's attention. She averted her eyes down to examine the bits of scattered broken plastic on the floor. She furrowed her brows in confusion. Bending down to closer examine the objects, she reached out a hand to grab one. Lovina hissed and shoved her sister away from the broken bits of plastic.
"Just go." She warned, giving her sister the dirtiest look she could manage. Feliciana didn't look convinced.
"But what are those?" She asked, suddenly ducking around Lovina. She grabbed one of the pieces before Lovina could react and stood up as realization took over her innocent features. "A pregnancy test?" Lovina snatched it back from her.
"Get out." She said, dead serious. Feliciana's eyes widened.
"It has two pink lines on it! But that means-"
"Just go!" Lovina yelled again, shoving her sister out the door. She slammed the door shut behind her, and this time made sure to lock it.
Lovina went into her bedroom shortly after the incident and didn't come out for the rest of the night. Feliciana left her completely alone right up until after dinner, which she decided to take up some food for her sister. She knocked tentatively on the door, holding the pizza carefully to make sure it wouldn't tip.
"Vee, Lovi, I have pizza..." She said softly when her sister didn't answer. Lovina finally opened up the door. Eyeing the pizza and Feliciana's smiling face, she sighed and left the door open while she walked back to her bed. Feliciana took this as a signal to come in.
"I told Grandpa you were sick and couldn't come to dinner, so he let me bring you up some pizza." She said with the brightest smile she could manage. Lovina grabbed the slice of pizza and bit into it.
"... Thanks." She said after swallowing. Feliciana grinned.
"It was nothing for my big sister!" She said brightly as she looked around the room. It was the same as ever – mostly all red, with hints of green and white around. You could tell she was very proud of her Italian heritage. To the right of her bed was a medium sized vanity, normally decorated with pictures of Lovina and her boyfriend Antonio. Occasionally there was a picture of herself and Lovina. She frowned, noticing the absence of all of the pictures that had Antonio in them.
The older twin grunted in response, still trying to eat.
"You know this isn't entirely Antonio's fault, right?"
Lovina's eyes flashed dangerously, and Feliciana shifted uncomfortably under Lovina's intimidating stare.
"... It was an accident I'm sure..." She said after a moment of silence.
That statement caused Lovina to choke on her slice of pizza. After she finished with her coughing fit, she glared at Feliciana.
"No. When you're five and you spill milk on the floor, now that's an accident. What happened between me and Antonio was not an accident. What happened is we made something." Lovina's voice suddenly softened. " We made a life."
And the two girls sat on the bed, silent for a moment. Feliciana chewed on her lip, unable to keep up the silence any longer.
"When are you going to tell Antonio..?" She asked, her voice soft. Lovina's expression hardened.
"I don't know! ...Do you think he'll be angry?"
Feliciana almost didn't hear the the end of that sentence, Lovina said it so quietly. She gasped and tackled Lovina down, hugging her way too tight for the second time that day.
"Of course not! Big brother Antonio could never hate you! He loves you!" She yelled, making Lovina slap her hand over Feliciana's mouth.
"Shh! Okay! For Gods sakes, don't let the whole fucking neighborhood hear you!" Lovina said angrily. "... Are you okay now?" She asked after a moment. Feliciana nodded vigorously, and Lovina sighed and lifted her hand off of her sisters mouth. "Okay then. I'm going to bed." She stared at her sisters pouting face before rolling her eyes. "You can sleep in here too." She added, knowing exactly what Feliciana wanted. The younger twin's eyes lit up in joy, and Lovina rolled over.
"But do me a favor." She said, facing the wall.
"Hmm?" Feliciana asked, already curling up next to her sister. Lovina sighed.
"Don't say anything to Antonio. I'll tell him. Okay?"
"Mmkay." An already half-asleep Feliciana responded. Lovina normally would have rolled her eyes, but it had been a long day and she was way too tired to even think anymore. She closed her eyes and fell asleep next to her sister.
Lovina stared at herself in the mirror. She halfway expected for her stomach to suddenly swell up to the size of a watermelon.
She hadn't slept very well last night, tossing and turning all night long. Then again she hadn't been sleeping very well for awhile now, not since that night.
She looked at the clock on the wall. 6:45 AM. She had been up since 5. Lovina sighed. Had she really been staring at herself in the mirror all this time? That seemed insane.
A cough came from behind her, and she jumped, startled. She spun around to see Feliciana staring at her curiously. When Lovina caught her eye Feliciana looked down and mumbled about going to go get dressed. She slid off of Lovina's bed and slowly walked out of the room.
Lovina hit her head against the mirror as soon as Feliciana left.. This was already starting out to be an awkward day. She sighed and walked over to her pile of clothes. Sifting through it, she finally found a clean T-shirt and some shorts. Good enough. She made a mental note to do laundry.
Walking down the stairs into their kitchen, Lovina found Feliciana already making some toast. She turned around and smiled at Lovina, setting the toast down on the table. Lovina looked at the time warily.
"We should probably eat while we walk. We have 30 minutes until class starts and I have to stop by my locker." She said. Feliciana looked a bit disappointed but nodded anyways.
"Bye Grandpa!" The younger girl yelled up the stairs as they exited the kitchen. She grabbed the house key from the hook next to the door and the two twins walked out together.
To say the least, the walk to school was awkward. Neither of them said anything, although Feliciana looked like she might explode from holding in so many questions. It was completely silent, the only noise that could be heard was either from Feliciana clicking her tongue or the sounds of their shoes hitting the ground.
Lovina tried not to think the whole walk down there, which was easier said than done. She had a million things going through her head right now. How was she going to tell Antonio? What was she going to do about the pregnancy? Technically if she got an abortion, she wouldn't have to tell Antonio, and she wouldn't have to deal with any baby. That option was sounding pretty sweet right now, although if the church ever found out she'd probably be banned from ever coming there again or something.
Besides, she was supposed to be the good little Catholic girl right?
Nah, that was her sister's job.
But the church didn't know that. Neither did Gramps. And he already liked Feliciana way more anyways, this wouldn't help matters out.
But since when did she care about what people thought? She wasn't extremely popular around here anyways. She mostly kept to herself. Just that angry Italian chick in the back of the class who never said anything that wasn't rude or some kind of profanity.
Lovina chewed her lip. Choices, choices...
She was so caught up in her thoughts that she didn't notice how far they had walked. She also didn't notice the crack in front of the school that her shoe got caught on. She stumbled over it and fell down face first, completely unprepared.
She swore loudly as her face smacked the pavement in front of the school, wincing at a cracking sound that she assumed had to have come from her nose.
Feliciana gasped behind her and started wailing. Lovina groaned and rolled over, propping herself up to look at her sister who flung herself at Lovina.
"Oh come on, stop your bawling." The older sister said, carefully touching her nose. She felt something wet and looked down at her hand. Great, her nose was bleeding.
"B-But Lovi the blood!" Her sister whined. Lovina rolled her eyes.
"Oh, get over it-" She was interrupted mid-sentence by long tan arms picking her up bridal-style. She immediately recognized the owner by his voice.
"Dios mio, Lovi! How did you manage to do that?"
Lovina growled and struggled in his arms. "Put me down, stupid bastard!" She clenched her teeth, noticing people were starting to stare.
"Great." She hissed as she noticed Antonio was taking her towards the nurse's office. Her nose throbbed, and she bit back a whine.
"I can walk myself, you know! Honestly..." She grumbled, and Antonio held onto her tighter. She huffed, opening her mouth to let out another protest, but stopped when she realized they were in the nurse's office.
Antonio sat her down in a chair and turned to face the nurse. Even she looked a bit taken aback.
"Broken nose." Antonio and Lovina said simultaneously. Lovina scowled.
The nurse nodded. "Oh, right. Well then, let's see..." she said as she bent down to Lovina and examined her nose.
"Ow!" Lovina yelled as the nurse pushed on it. She smiled sheepishly.
"Yep, it's definitely broken."
"No shit?" Lovina said sarcastically. The older woman ignored her.
"Here." She said, handing the younger girl some tissues. "Wipe some of the blood off with this. I'll be right back with an icepack." Turning on her heel, she walked out of the room.
Lovina looked around the room, making sure to avoid Antonio's gaze. It was a bland room, with pale walls and some medical equipment laying around. The chair she was sitting in was hard and plastic, making her butt hurt. She fixed her gaze on a calender in the corner of the room.
In all the excitement, she had almost forgotten why she so dreaded seeing Antonio today. She groaned inwardly.
Accidentally pressing the tissue too hard to her nose, she hissed in pain as it started to bleed again. Antonio put his hand over his mouth and paled a little. This caught Lovina's attention, and she stared at him.
"... What was that?" She asked, raising an eyebrow.
"What?" He said, looking genuinely clueless.
She gave him a confused look, before having an idea. Pulling the bloody tissue away from her nose, she examined it and chucked it in his direction.
He screamed like a little girl and ducked, running around the chair to Lovina's other side.
Lovina gaped. She stared at Antonio while he tried to pull himself together, running his hand through his curly brown hair and laughing awkwardly.
"So that's it. You're afraid of blood." Lovina said, not stating it as a question. Antonio grinned sheepishly.
"Wow." She said, rolling her eyes. She switched her gaze back to the calender. "You should probably get to class."
Antonio shook his head. Lovina gave him frustrated look. "Why not?"
He shrugged. "You're hurt! And you seem a little... On edge."
Oh, damn. He noticed. Was it really that obvious? She swallowed.
"You'll be late." She said, refusing to look him in the eye.
"That's alright. I'm good here with you." He gave her his best reassuring smile. She ignored him and waited for the nurse to come back.
After a few more seconds of silence, Antonio spoke again.
"So.. What's wrong? You seem really tense..." He observed. Lovina snorted.
"Well, let's see, I kinda just broke my nose dumbass." She said, her voice dripping with sarcasm. Antonio shook his head.
"No, I mean, I can tell with you when something's not right... Are you sure you're okay?"
Lovina gritted her teeth. "Don't be so pushy." She said as the nurse came back in. Antonio was silent while the nurse explained to Lovina that she should stay in here for the next couple of periods at the least. Nodding her head half-heartedly, she waited for the nurse to leave again. When the nurse finally walked out with another "I'll be right back." She stood up and grabbed her backpack, slinging it over her shoulder.
"Stupid nurse, she honestly thought I was just gonna sit in here?" Antonio watched her with interest.
"Where are you going to go?" His green eyes followed her as she opened the door to leave. She turned around to glare at him.
"Somewhere. Don't follow me." She said in a warning tone of voice. He pouted.
"But Lovi~! I want to spend time with you! Besides, it's too late for me to go back to class anyways!" He frowned as she stormed out the door, and walked behind her.
"Do not follow me, bastard! You're the last person I want to see today anyways!" She yelled, growing more irritated. She just wanted to get outside, and the door was so close..
Antonio caught up with her, and gave her a questioning look.
"Why not?" He asked innocently. She fought back the urge to punch him in the face.
"Just leave me alone." She said seriously, even though she knew Antonio would never comply. He paused for a second.
"Please just tell me! I won't be mad, I promise~!" He said with the brightest smile he could manage.
Lovina stopped dead in her tracks, and whipped around to face him.
"You don't even have any fucking clue what's going on, so don't even start that shit. You don't know if you'll be angry! You don't have any idea!" She spat, her pent up anger and frustration pouring out. "You don't know what's happening to me right now, you don't know what you've caused!"She was livid, shaking. Antonio looked taken aback by her sudden outburst.
"What do you-"
"No! Don't even try to guess! Don't say another word! I'll just save you a whole lot of time and fucking tell you right now that I'm pregnant goddammit!"
Antonio stared at her, dumbfounded by her sudden announcement. She paled, realizing she had just said that in the middle of the hallway, right outside the nurse's office no less.
"You- What? I..." Antonio's voice trailed off as he stared at Lovina. She huffed.
"It doesn't matter anyways. I-I'm going to get an abortion. Right now." She turned back around and started for the door again. Antonio sputtered.
"No! W-Wait," He said, looking panicked. Lovina turned her head.
"Let's talk about this. Are you really..?" Concern glinted in his eyes. Lovina gave him a flat look.
"No, I just blurted that out in the middle of the damn hallway because I thought it would be funny. Antonio, I would not joke about something like this!" She scowled. Antonio nodded.
"Right." He said, sucking in a deep breath. "Okay. Okay. But let's not be drastic. I mean, an abortion-"
"What other choice do we have!" Lovina interrupted. "We can't have a kid yet. Not now! I'm 15 and you- you aren't even 17 yet!" She met his eyes with a serious look. He swallowed.
"B-But abortion, are you really okay with that?"
Lovina looked away, feeling tears prick at her eyes again. She didn't respond, and Antonio came up from behind and wrapped his arms around her.
"Mi amor, we can figure this out." He said, burying his face in her hair. She blinked a few times, clearing her vision of the tears.
"You really want to keep the baby?" She asked finally. He was silent for a moment, and Lovina realized how ridiculous this must look, standing in the middle of the hallway embracing during class time.
"... Yes. I think we can do it." He answered, snapping her out of her thoughts. Lovina leaned back into Antonio, thinking about this.
"Fine." She said, defeated. "But you're coming with me when I tell Gramps. He's gonna fucking spontaneously combust or something."
Antonio laughed. "I promise."
Wow. You actually read all that? I applaud you.
Again, I ask that you give me some sort of feedback on how I can improve this. Constructive criticism is always appreciated.
Thanks for reading! I'm going to take a shower now. Bye guys~!
Edit: Translation Notes:
Dios Mio: My God
Mi amor: My love