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Coming Back To Me

Chapter Eighteen

-Present Time -

If you forgive me all this…

River felt her breath catch as she saw the realization in his eyes. He had shut her out. He had stabbed her in the back. He had shut her out. He had snapped at her. He had called her by the name of the one person she knew he had ever truly loved.

And it wasn't her.

She turned to go again, but he caught her arm, stopping her.

"River. No. I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you. I promise." The Doctor said. He was sure if she tried to go again he would be on his knees, clinging to her leg like a child.

But River made no move to go. No move to jerk her hand away. She just stood there, a tear falling. She so desperately wanted to go back.

"I…" Her voice cracked on the word, and she had to take a deep breath and start again, "I can't."

"Why not?" The Doctor asked, his voice dripping in agony.

She turned to look at him, eyes full of tears that were streaming down her face. "Because I can't play second best. I'm tired of it."

And I forgive you all that…

The Doctor shook his head. "River, you were never second best."

"How can you say that?"

"Because I mean it."

"You call me by her name. You shut me out. You don't tell me things! You don't think I noticed how much you want me to wear that jacket? I'm not stupid Doctor. I worked it out. You always change whenever she comes up, or the past with her comes up. You took me to New Earth and I saw that look in your eyes! The same look you gave her today when you hugged her! The look that should be mine!" a small sob escaped her, and she took a shaky breath, "I'm tired of being second. I understand why I am. But I can't be. Not with you."

We forgive and forget

And it's all coming back to me…now…

River turned to leave again. She couldn't take much more. But the Doctor wouldn't let her leave, and held her arm firmly.

"River…Please…" He pleaded, his own voice cracking now, "Don't go. Without you…I don't know what I'll do. Please. Stay. I don't want you to go. I love you. So bloody much. I trust you more than anyone in this universe, or any other out there. I'll do anything if you'll just stay."

It's all coming back to me now…

He had her shoulders now, and he pressed his forehead to her shoulder, clinging to her. Never wanting to let go.

But when you touch me like this…

It's all coming back to me now…

River closed her eyes, tears falling from her chin. She took a shaky breath and said, "Prove it."

And if you hold me like that…

It's all coming back to me now…

The Doctor looked at her, eyes hopeful. Hers were cautious, skeptical.

But he could see the love in them, and that was all he needed. He knew exactly what to do.

And when you do it like this…

It's all coming back to me now…

He took her hand in his, leaned down, pressed his cheek against hers, brought his lips to her ear…

And if we….

And whispered his name.