Choices Are Made
Chapter 13: Give It A Try
Lets just hope after tonight I won't have to wish I owned iCarly anymore (I don't own the quote either)
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There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. - Friedrich Nietzsche
I knew what I did was wrong the minute I opened my mouth. I have no excuses either, I was being stupid and I really hate myself for that. Once I talked I knew he would say something, tell me he wanted to talk or something. My eyes were glued to the floor staring at absolutely nothing but I just didn't want to look up.
"I don't want to do this." I mumbled with my face still pointed at the ground. I squeezed my eyelids shut hoping he would leave it at that.
"What don't you want to do?" He asked in a surprisingly calm and concerned voice. If I were him I would punch myself in the face for ignoring him. I finally glance up at him, no more harm can be done.
"Talk." I now find myself staring at Freddie.
"Fine, you don't have to talk. All I want is for you to give me a chance." I'm surprised that we're not yelling at each other by now, I guess I was wrong thinking that he would be mad at me. I let out a long sigh not sure on what to say next.
"What do you want me to say?"
"Okay, don't say anything. Just listen," He waits for me to give him an answer but I just look at him intently still not sure what to say so he continues. "Before last night I thought I hated you and I thought you felt the same way. When you told me you were falling for me I was shocked and speechless. I regretted the way I acted the second you walked out that door."
"Then why didn't you come after me right away?" My legs feel numb from standing up too long so I take a seat in the bean bag I find on the floor by my feet. I sat forward resting my arms on my knees while Freddie takes the bean bag next to me.
"Sam, give me a little credit. My head was spinning so fast I couldn't keep up with my own thoughts let alone understand that you weren't just playing a sick joke on me."
"Am I that predictable?" I ask doing my best to relieve some tension. I was still hurt by Freddie but it was nice to see his smile after my comment.
"I'm really sorry, if I could go back and change how I handled it I would but I can't. All I want is for you to give us a shot." It's weird but just gazing into his eyes I can tell he means every word he says. I'm done pretending that I can live without him when really he's the one person I can't see my life without. I actually can see my life without him but it's lonely and miserable, I don't want that to happen do I? I give him a smile, not the one I usually give him when I'm about to beat him up but one to show that I truly care and he retaliates the gesture.
"How could you like me after all the things I've put you through?" My mind starts rushing through all of the things that I have put him through, especially last night and today. I feel a wave of sadness when these thoughts run into my head.
"I guess love is a crazy thing." I shake my head to make sure he said what I thought he said. Did he say love? "Yes, I said love." He reassured me almost like he was reading my thoughts.
"Freddie..." I began before he interrupted.
"Hey, you don't have tell me you love me but I just wanted to you to know." He stares at his fiddling hands while saying this obviously nervous.
"Freddie, I love you too." He looks back at me surprised.
"Really? Your not just saying that..." Before he could say anything else I leaned over and gave him a small peck on the lips, it was short but sweet and I felt the same fireworks that I did the first time. He opened his eyes probably expecting more than I gave him. I saw the look on his face I couldn't help but smile, maybe from the butterflies in my stomach or just me knowing that we love each other.
"How is it not love if someone is willing to be tortured by a girl for many years and still make that same girl feel like a princess?"
"I don't think its possible. Oh, and one other thing."
"Stop running away from me."
"I am pretty good at that, but I couldn't even if I tried." I assured him. He leans over this time and gives me a more passionate kiss than the one before and I think I like this one better. Even without saying it he told me that was all I had to say to convince him I wasn't leaving this time. Before we even left each others lips there was a light bang on the glass door and I lift my face from his to see what it is. There Carly stands with the biggest grin on her face waving at me and Freddie. I knew we didn't have to tell Carly anything because she probably was spying on us somehow. We walk to the door and patiently wait for her to open it so I can get some ribs or something. When Carly finally opens up the door I don't rush out to get my ribs I just stand there as Freddie wraps his arm around my shoulder. Carly points to us acting all in disbelief but I saw right through it.
"This is kind of weird, but I like it." She says.
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