Chapter 30

"Hey," he said and cleared his throat. "Want to walk?"

"As long as we don't go outside," she told him softly. At his questioning expression she said, "The girls and I were out there before dinner and attracted some dementors apparently."

"Are you okay," he asked her trying not to sound as worried as he felt.

"Yeah," Nicolette said. "We got inside before they got too close. We could take the long way back to the tower, though that may be too much time," she added to herself.

"Okay," Oliver said as he stood and waited for her to come up next to him so they could walk out of the hall together.

As the couple went to the double doors of the hall, they were cut off from their exit.

"Well, well, what have we here Adrian?" Marcus Flint crossed his arms over his chest as he stepped in front of them. "Looks to me like these two are a bit confused. They are acting like they're still together but I remember hearing that Deloncre is a slut and Wood dropped her when he found out."

"Well, maybe he needed a good shag Flint," Adrian Puncey said from where he stood leaning against the door jam. "I'm in need of one too, it's been hours since I had a good shag and Deloncre could be good, at least good enough to try once, she is a mudblood after all.

"Shut up, both of you," Oliver said as he tried to control the anger he felt at the way the two Slytherins were talking about Nicolette.

"Why," Flint asked him. "It's not like you have any claim to her honor. I bet she doesn't even remember who the guy is she lost her virginity to, probably some sleazy muggle that paid her for it."

Oliver could keep the anger in check any longer; he pulled his arm back and sent it slamming into Flint's face.

"MR. WOOD!" Professor McGonagall was making her way through the great hall to the group in front of the door. "What in the name of Merlin possessed you to HIT Mr. Flint?"

"He…" Oliver looked over at Flint who was bent over holding his face as blood gushed from between his fingers. "Nothing Professor."

"Nothing," she said as she stopped in front of her seventh year and looked at the girl standing next to him who was quietly crying. "And I will assume the same nothing has affected Miss Deloncre as it has?" She looked at the injured Slytherin before looking back at her students. "Twenty points will be taken from Gryffindor Mr. Wood for you serious lack of control. And Mr. Flint, twenty points will be taken from Slytherin for provoking a student. Something tells me Mr. Flint that a broken nose is the least that you deserved for what you have done here. Miss Deloncre," she began as she looked back at the student she was talking too. "Do you need to go see Madame Pomfrey before I take Mr. Flint?"

"No Ma'am," she said softly. "I'm fine."

Professor McGonagall led Flint out of the Great Hall calling for Adrian to follow them.

"Come on," Oliver said as he reached for her hand and pulled her with him.

The two began the trek to the Gryffindor tower in silence. Nicolette collected herself together while trying to gather the courage that justified the sorting hat placing her into Gryffindor in the first place.

"So," she began after clearing her throat. "I think that I need to tell you what happened."

Oliver stopped them at the alcove they had just passed and sat down in the poorly lit space. He tugged on the hand he was still holding to get Nicolette to sit next to him.

"First, you should know that we didn't actually have sex. He doesn't remember, but I do." Nicolette laced her fingers with his as she cherished the warmth of his hand. "My dad had to go to Dublin for a conference and he let me go with him since it was so close to the beginning of term and I wouldn't see him for a while. Well, he had to go to an afternoon meeting and a dinner after, so I wondered around Dublin by myself. When I stopped for tea in this little café, Ben was there. It's not that we were friends or that I liked him but I was sad and he noticed and tried to cheer me up. So… we hung out for a couple of hours before he asked me to go back to his aunts because he had forgotten something. I should have known then what he was really wanting." Nicolette shook her head disappointed with herself.

"Keep going," he said quietly.

"Well, when we got up there he offered me something to drink and well," she said timidly. "I was sad so I thought maybe something to drink would make me not so sad."

"Why were you sad," he asked her. His head was leaned back against the wall and his eyes were closed as he listened to what she said.

"I knew that I loved you and I didn't think I had a chance with you. I thought you saw me as the same kind of friend that Anne is," she said quietly. "I was heart broken. I drank what he offered and before I knew it, he was kissing me and I wasn't stopping him. He undressed himself first and then started to take my clothes off. I was just drunk enough to know what he was doing but not sober enough to stop him. If he hadn't prematurely taken care of things on his own… I don't know what would have happened. But that pulled me out of the fog and he passed out so I grabbed my clothes and ran." Nicolette had tears quietly streaming down her face. "I didn't mean for it to happen, I regretted every moment of it but I can't change it. All I can do is apologize and hope you forgive me."

"I forgive you," Oliver said as he looked down into Nicolette eyes. "It has never been about me forgiving you. It happened before we were together and with how we got together, I don't think that I will ever judge anyone on their relationship and how quickly they progress. What I don't know if I can forgive is the fact that you didn't tell me before hand. I had to find out about this at our wedding. I love you Nikki. I can forgive anything but if you can't trust me to tell me that you almost had sex or that there could be someone else who might think he's the father, then I don't know what we're doing."

Nicolette dropped her head to her chest; she didn't know if she could ever make up for what she has done to her friends.

"I do trust you," she told Oliver quietly. "I was scared of losing you; I wanted to pretend it didn't happen." Nicolette stood and turned to leave the alcove. "I lost you anyways, I'll always love you," she whispered before running out of the alcove and down the hall.

She needed to get to Gryffindor tower quickly. Maybe if she ran fast enough she could beat her friends there. She shouted the password as she approached the fat lady, pausing only long enough for the door to open before running through the common room and up the stairs to her dorm. As she threw herself onto her bed, the door opened and her roommates came in behind her.

"Nic," Anne said as she sat on the bed next to Nicolette. "Are you okay," she asked as she rubbed Nicolette's back in a comforting manner. "What did Oliver say?"

"Same thing you did," Nicolette said through her tears. "That if I can't trust him to tell him the truth then… he doesn't know what we are doing together."

Anne didn't know what to say to her friend, she looked up at Rebecca for help.

"Nic," Rebecca started not sure what to say either.

"Don't," Nicolette said as she turned to face her friends. "Don't say it. I know it's over… I just want to go to sleep and get on with my life."

Anne and Rebecca helped their friend climb under the covers before they turned down the lights and left her to sleep.

A/N: Sorry the update too so long. So let me know what you thought.