Okay, so I just got into Inuyasha, but I fell in love with InuKik (InuyashaxKikyo) seeing as I hated Kagome from the start. Anyway, I feel like this song fits them from Inuyasha's POV anyway. And this is supposed to be taking place sometime before the gang (you know: Inuyasha, Miroku, Kagome and Shippo) encounter Sesshomaru in episode 18. Enjoy! I don't own Inuyasha or the song My All by Mariah Carey.


I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude (tonight)
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right

Inuyasha stared up at the night sky and sighed. Kagome, Miroku and Shippo were sleeping indoors...how he hated being cooped up inside. If Kikyo...

He sighed again, there it was 'if'. He was starting to hate that word! If Naraku hadn't killed Kikyo then she'd be here! If he had been stronger, quicker, smarter, anything at all, Kikyo might still be alive!

Sleep wasn't an option right now, he hadn't slept well or much since he'd lost her. Could she see him? Was she looking down from heaven? And if she was, did she know the truth? Inuyasha hoped so.

Maybe he couldn't get her back but, there was no doubt in his mind that he would hunt down Naraku soon enough and avenge Kikyo's death, but, was it stupid to love a woman that may have held nothing but hate for him as she died, convinced that he had betrayed her?

Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

Looking for the jewel fragments was a pain as always, however, he was more motivated then ever before. He wasn't sure of himself without Kikyo there, but some part of him knew that she would have gotten mad at him, had he given up. Inuyasha would never admit to it, but there were times when dying just to be with Kikyo seemed like a better idea then going on a wild goose chase for some jewel shards, but the he had to remind himself that he loved Kikyo enough to be his best for her, no matter how much it hurt.

Looking up at the night sky again, he wished he could pull Kikyo close and let her know he wasn't going to let her down again.

I'd give my all to have

Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me?
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind

With a rather loud sigh, Inuyasha returned his gaze to the night sky and pictured Kikyo's eyes...They were a very dark brown – chocolate brown – And her hair, that long river of midnight black...No one was perfect, but Inuyasha figured that Kikyo was pretty damn close to it.

And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Perfect...She'd make a perfect angel, but why did she have to go? That just wasn't fair. Anyone would rather an angel up close and personal than long gone.

Inuyasha bit down on his lips, but it was no use. The tears he'd been trying to contain spilled over, no matter how much he didn't want them to...because with the falling of this tears, the fact that the love of his life was gone became more true than ever.

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
I'd give my all for your love

Tonight


A/N: And that's that...my first time writing an Inuyasha fic, maybe my last, I don't know. R&R thanks!