Life moves on

Summery: 10 Years has passed since Edward left Bella and she fell apart. 8 years since she put her life back together and moved forward with her life. 4 years since she gave birth to Shawn Emmett Jackson and 6 months since she gave birth to her second child, Alison Rose Jackson . Bella/Carlisle


My name is Isabella Marie Jackson I am a 28 year old widow with a 4 year old son and a 6 month old daughter. My late husband Joseph Jackson died 10 months ago in Iraq, he was a soldier. I remember the day I got that visit like it was yesterday. I was in the kitchen cooking dinner for Shawn and myself when the door bell rang. The moment I saw the uniformed stranger I knew; having seen plenty of movies about how when a soldier dies they get a visit from such a fellow. Before he was even able to tell me what had happened I was crying.

I felt like it was the Edward fiasco all over again only this time I knew he was dead. It felt worse then when Edward left me because it was not just my own pain I was feeling but Shawn and Alison's as well. I loved Joey dearly a love that was vastly different then the love I housed at one time for Edward. I loved Joey as a woman loved a man, not as a girl loved a boy. Joey and I had bonded not only physically, but emotionally as well. He loved me as much as I loved him and it was clear in his actions.

There was not a day that went by when Joey did not tell me or show me how much he loved me, or how much he treasured me. We were not rich by any standard, but money was never important to me. We made the best out of what we had and never complained when things got tight. We were a team.

Joey joined the army because he could not find a job that made enough money to support us and he did not want me working. He thought that a new mother should stay home with the child, that it was important for the child to only bond with the parents in the beginning of their life. When I offered to work to cut some of the work load off of him he would not hear it. It was something he had always promised himself as he grew up. His mother was a single parent and because of this she was unable to spend much time with her son because she was busy working to make sure they had a roof over their heads, food on the table, and cloths on their backs. He wanted his children to have full access to their mothers' attention and having two children only strengthened his decision more.

Joey was a good man and a great father he will be missed.

When Joey died we got the life insurance policy he had taken out, but I knew it would not last long. I knew I had to find a job and most likely move if I can not find anything near here. Just hope I can find some High School looking for an English teacher before all the money runs out. I was scared that I would not be able to make it. I haven't work for 4 years and only had a teaching career for a little over 2 before I had to quit. That may ruin my chances at getting a job, but I will not lose hope, I can't lose hope.

Moving on after Joey's death was hard, but not impossible. I had to move forward for the sake of my children. I could not shut down as I did with Edward. I'd like to believe that I was stronger now and because of my 2 babies my life still had meaning. I was still needed and I would do everything in my power to provide Shawn and Alison with a good life no matter what dead end job I might be forced to take.

For 8 months I had searched for a job with no luck and I was about to start filling out applications for waitressing when one of my emails were answered.