*sigh*

I should really stop making promises I can't keep and I really didn't want to have to do a second update, but here we go.

So it's been 3 months since my last update and I'm really, really sorry. Part of it has to do with just life recently. I've been dealing with a lot of stressful college related stuff. First there were finals, then when I got out for the summer, I had to find a way to make some good money in order to continue college at all. It's been a pretty stressful situation for me and my family. But I think a bigger reason why I haven't updated in so long is that, I think I've just lost my muse. I used to be able to sit down, start writing, and let the words flow. But recently, I'd just get stuck on a sentence and have no idea how to continue. I'd re-read what I had written, think it's not good enough, and start all over. With all the stress going on right now, writting just adds to that stress when it used to be a stress reliever. I used to be excited to continue with my next chapter, but now I have to force myself to keep going.

I think a lot of it has to do with Twilight's popularity right now. When I started, Twilight was still a big deal that all the teenage girls and moms were talking about. Now, it's kind of dead. People who hate Twilight are trying to forget it ever existed, so they're not even making jokes about it anymore, and fans just don't seem to have much to talk about. It's just discouraging for me if I feel like there won't be an audience for my fanfic. I do WANT to finish, hell, I even had plans for a part 2 and part 3 of Solar Flare that goes in a completely different direction. But that's A LOT to write and I don't know if I'm up for it anymore. I'm really regretting not writting more in the past when the Twilight craze was still alive and well. :/

I do want to finish Solar Flare, and I will, it's just going to be slow. I just need motivation. If there's some kind of website about Twilight and Twilight fan fiction that isn't a ghost town, maybe that'll motivate me, because I do love discussing Twilight (usually very critically). Or maybe I should possibly re-read Breaking Dawn to remind me why I'm doing this in the first place...but I'd really rather not...

What do you guys think? Is Twilight dead? Do you know any people who are still big fans? Are YOU still crazy about Twilight? What keeps you going? And are there even anymore future Twilight related releases?