A/N : Hey all! Remember me? I don't blame you if you don't. I know I haven't updated in a very, very, very long time. All I can say is I am truly sorry. Real life happens. There was a death in my family that I had to deal with on top of my daily life challenges.
I am going to try to update more often, but I can not make any promises. I am a single mom of a 22 month old and a college student. I do not have a super heavy course load this semester but my classes this time around are not going to be a walk in the park. Please just bear with me. I will update as often as possible.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, or any of these characters. Well I do own Susan, and you will meet her soon enough. Everything else belongs to the wonderful S. Meyers.
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While sitting in Charlie's office waiting for him to finish talking to Deputy Maloy, I replayed what happened in the car in my mind. I put my fingers to my lips remembering clearly what I had done.
I kissed him!
I kissed Carlisle Cullen!
I kissed Carlisle Cullen aka Dr. DILF!
I kissed Carlisle Cullen, husband of Esme Cullen!
Shit! Shit! Shit!
Okay so it was just a kiss on the cheek, but it was still a kiss.
To experience his skin on my lips was divine. He felt soft and smooth but at the same time I could feel the hardness of his marble skin.
The kiss was shocking, literally. My lips felt like they had been jolted by a stun gun, but strangely it was an amazing feeling. I wanted to kiss him again, only this time I wanted to taste and feel his luscious lips.
Gah! What the hell is wrong with me!
I really needed to put a stop to these thoughts. The man is married for crying out loud. It was wrong to be lusting after a married man I knew this. So why couldn't I stop thinking about how good it would feel to run my lips, tongue, hands, hell any part of me on his spectacular body. Damn it! I am going to hell!
"Ya ready to go Bells?" Charlie asked, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Sure." I replied. "What do you want to do for dinner?" I was hoping that he wanted to pick up some take out or eat at the dinner. I was really in no mood to cook after the day I had had.
"Well it's already kind of late, how about we just go to the dinner and pick something up to take home?" He suggested.
"That's fine with me Charlie." I told him while gathering my things and following him outside to his cruiser.
As we drove I took the time to think about how I would ask him about staying with the Cullen's more permanently. Alice had said that he would be fine with it, but I still wanted to approach the topic with him in a way that didn't make him feel like I was choosing them over him. I didn't want it to seem like I didn't want to spend time with him. Even though Charlie and I were not extremely close, he was still my dad and I loved him so much. If he did give me his blessing to stay with the Cullen's I need to come up with a way that we could still spend some time together.
When we got to the dinner Charlie's cell rang, so I went in alone to get our food. After I gave the waitress my order, I waited at the counter silently ripping a napkin to shreds. My brain was a big jumbled mess of thoughts and I wanted so badly to shut them off. Sometime I really wished my brain had and off button. I was so lost in thought that I didn't notice someone sit down on a stool next to me.
"Hey Bella." I turned my head to see Angela sitting beside me smiling slightly. I hadn't seen her in so long.
"Hey Ang how are ya?" I asked.
"I'm good. Haven't seen you in forever. I've missed hanging out with you chicka." She playfully nudged my shoulder with her own and smiled at me. "I see you finally got you cast off, bet your happy about that."
"I've missed you to." I smiled back at her. I had missed Angela. She was always so calm and level headed. Sometimes I felt as if she was my best friend. "I just got the cast off today. I'm glad to have the use of all my extremities again."
"I bet." She laughed. "So now that you can move on your own again, we should get together and hang out. We need to catch up."
"Definitely!" I chuckled a little. "Got any ideas in mind?" I knew by the gleam in her eye she already had something planned.
"Well not that I think about it I do know of a little party taking place this very evening." I laughed at her a bit. It felt good to laugh again. "We could count it as celebrating your recent release from your plaster prison."
I normally wasn't the type of person who liked to party, but right now it sounded like the perfect thing to me. "You know what Ang I think that sound like a wonderful idea. Where is it at?"
"It's actually down on the Res. There suppose to be a big bonfire on the beach, and there was even talk of some live music." She told me.
"Okay that sounds good to me. I just need to take care of a few things before I go anywhere tonight." I still needed to talk with Charlie and make sure everything went smoothly.
"That's fine. I was thinking about heading down there around 8 or so. Want me to pick you up?" She asked.
I thought about that for a minute. She could pick me up at Charlie's, and I could deal with my truck tomorrow. "Yep that sounds good to me." Just then the waitress set down a bag of food in front of me. She handed me my check. I paid the lady and thanked her.
"Well I need to get going, Charlie is probably get antsy in the cruiser." I laughed and stood up while grabbing the bag. "So pick me up at 8 at my house?"
"You got it Bella. See you at 8." She smiled and stood up from her stool. I gave her a quick hug and headed out to the cruiser. Charlie was just finishing on his phone when I climbed in.
"Everything okay Charlie?" I asked him. He looked tired all of a sudden.
"Ya Bells nothing to worry about." He said quietly. I knew that he was lying but left it alone. "Well let get home, I'm starved."
We ate dinner in almost total silence. It wasn't unusual for Charlie to be quiet, but I could tell that something was wrong. After I cleaned up our trash, Charlie remained at the table nursing his beer. He would usually got sit in front of the TV and slip into a sports coma after dinner, but he sat that quietly looking like he was gearing up for a speech. I grabbed a bottle of water and sat back down across from him.
"Okay Charlie spill." I broke the silence.
He grunted and wiped his hand over his face. "Bells that was your aunt Susan on the phone earlier. She called to tell me that she was near and wanted to come by for a short visit." I hadn't heard from my aunt in a long time. She was what I called a free spirit. In some ways she reminded me a lot of Renee.
"Well that doesn't sound so bad. Why are you so glum? Do you not want to see her?" I didn't understand what the problem was.
"Of course I want to see her, but knowing her a short visit will turn into a few months. I'm just wondering what happened this time. You know she never shows up unless she is running away from a problem." He sighed and downed the rest of his beer.
He did have a good point. The only time that my aunt showed up was when she needed help, usually financially. I loved her to death but sometimes she made some really bad choices.
"Last time she was here she ended up staying for 7 months. Plus you weren't living here so I had an extra room for her. Hope she doesn't mind sleeping on the couch, not that she really gets to be picky." He got up to get another Vitamin R from the fridge. He stayed standing, leaning back against the sink.
"Actually Charlie I wanted to run something by you that might help this situation out." He looked at me and raised an eyebrow. "It's just that I was thinking maybe it would be good for me to stay at the Cullen's house more permanently. I know your always working, and I'm not saying that's a bad thing it's just a fact. Besides I have people my own age to hang out with there. Alice is like a sister to me and she really wants me to stay. Plus Esme is almost always home, since that's where she has her office. So what would you think about me staying there?" I bit my lip and held my breath waiting for him to answer. I hoped he would by my story. I couldn't tell him that just thinking of leaving and moving back in here hurt. I didn't think he would quite understand it, and truthfully I didn't understand it myself.
"Okay." He said after what felt like forever. I looked up at him and breathed out a sigh of relief. "I hate that I won't get to see you often, but I think it would be good for you to stay there too. I know I work crazy hours, and I hate the idea of leaving you here alone most of the time. Even if you aunt stays for awhile, she is not my ideal choice when it comes to having a responsible adult around."
"I'm 17 Charile, I'm hardly some little kid who needs to be watched every second." I glared at him. He chuckled and put his hands up in defense.
"I know but I'm your dad and I still worry." He smiled but then his face turned more serious. "I know your not a baby anymore, and as corny as it sounds you will always be my baby Bells. I don't say it often but I love you kiddo."
I got up from my chair and walked over to him. Charlie and I weren't the type of people who hugged often but I felt the need to then. He hugged me too him and kissed the top of my head. "I love you too dad. Always."
I pulled back from the hug and smiled when I saw a few unshed tears in his eyes. Charlie had the tough guy act down pat, but sometimes he showed what a softie he was underneath. I chuckled a little to break the awkward mood between us.
"Well now that is settled I am going to go up to my room and pack up a few things I want to take over to the Cullen's" He nodded and seemed relieved that our little heart to heart was over. Men and emotions, what do you expect.
I headed up stairs laughing slightly although I didn't really know why. I think it was just from my brain being on a rollercoaster today. I opened my bed room door and flopped down on my bed. Staring up at the ceiling I left myself review over the day. I had had such a weird, crazy, wonderful, and scary day. I fingered my ring while I went down the lift of highlights in my mind.
Semi-mental break down –check
Almost passing out – check
Cast removed –check
Completely embarrassing myself by kissing a married man -check
Heart to heart with father –check
Just thinking about my day made me tired. I covered my face with my hands and groaned. This day was definitely not going down in the record books as a good day. I really wanted to know when my life became such a fucked up soap opera. Glancing over at my clock I saw that it was already 7:12 and if Angela was picking me up at 8 I need to get ready.
Tonight I would just be Bella. Tonight I would have fun and forget about everything else. I would not think about a certain blonde, golden-eyed vampire. I repeated this to myself, hoping I could forget about him for just a few hours.
I got up from my bed with a clearer head and started to get ready.
A/N: So what did ya think of this chapter? This one was hard for me to write. I just couldn't get Charlie right. I hope it is not too bad.
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