Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away.
And going away means forgetting.
- Peter Pan
I know that I keep all my emotions bottled deep inside myself, I do my best to hide them from you. I'm sure your happy with Alice. Completely.
I'm only lying to myself, and I guess to you, if I said that I didn't care. Because I do. And it hurts more than you'll ever know.
You don't understand the extent of the pain. Sure, you feel peoples emotions, manipulate them if you wanted, but have you ever taken into consideration the depth of mine? I should only be so lucky.
I'm writing you this letter because I can't talk to you anymore. Not in the childish 'I'm not talking to you anymore' way, but more in the it hurts to much kind of way.
I'm not mad at you. I don't think it's possible for me to be mad at you. It's just when I talk to you, I realize how much it hurts, it steals my breath and my throat constricts. I can't breathe.
And when I realize all of this, realize that I love you, I realize how much I can't have you. How impossible it is.
Some people are easy to get over. It may take a day or two, but you meet someone who walks into your life, and changes you forever. That person leaves an indent, that indent grows and spreads to a crater, a crater creates a black hole.
You never get over that person, no matter how hard you try.
And I guess you're proof.
I could fill a thousand pages with my words, telling you how I felt and you still wouldn't understand. So now I'll leave your life without a sound, except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
This is the first chapter of Letters. This will be updated when I have writers block.
Anyway, hopefully you like it. Who wants a series of this? Letters from Bella to Jasper or Jasper to Bella, or both?
Review and let me know.