AN: A Big Time Rush fic half inspired by Taylor Swift and half inspired by a dream I had.

I sat with the ivory card clutched in my hand. I don't know when the tears started but it seemed as if there was no end in sight. I kept reading the first line in my mind.

Mr. and Mrs. Hank Dalloway
request the honor of your presence at the marriage of their daughter
Clarissa Elizabeth Dalloway
to
Logan Henry Mitchell
son of Dr. and Mrs. Andrew Mitchell

I couldn't get through the rest of because my brain was on a constant loop of that one sentence. I could feel myself folding into myself until my phone jarred me out of it. The screen flashed 1 new message. I clicked okay to read it and it was from Jo.

Did you get anything from Logan in the mail today?

I hesitated on my reply. I didn't want to get her worried about me by saying yes, but by not answering it soon she would be worried anyway. I set my phone down on the coffee table and went to the bathroom to wash my face of the mascara that had no doubt run with my crying. I sat back down on the couch and answered Jo's text with a simple: Yes :/

It wasn't too long after that I got a reply. It was also a simple answer: Skype?

I nodded to myself while sending a yes reply before settling myself in front of my computer. I logged on and set up my webcam while I waited for Jo to sign in. A few minutes later a window popped up and my best friend Jo Taylor's face was staring back at me.

"Are you okay?" She asked me.

"I guess. I mean it's not like I didn't know it was going to happen sooner or later, I was just banking on later. Much later."

"We were all taken by surprise. Kendall told me that he though Logan might be clinically insane." She said in an attempt to make me laugh.

"Logan is pretty much the sanest one of them all; I guess he's really in love with this girl." I can see Jo's smile take on a defeated frown.

"If it makes you feel any better, no one actually likes her." I couldn't help but to smile at that. There was a short pause before I spoke again.

"I don't think I'm going to go"

"No! You have to go!" Jo cried giving me her infamous pout.

"Hey I'm not Kendall! That pout doesn't work on me"

"Fine, but in all seriousness, you have to go."

"Give me one good reason why I should go."

"I have plenty of good reasons; Logan is paying for everything, I miss you, the guys miss you, you're still in love with Logan and you'll keep me from going to jail!"

"Jail? How on earth am I keeping you from going to jail by going to this wedding?"

"You remember the Jennifers? Well this girl makes the Jennifers look like America's Sweethearts"

"That bad? Okay fine I'll go and keep you from murdering someone, but this has nothing to do with me 'being in love with Logan'"

"Yay!" Jo began cheering, hand clapping and all.

We disconnected a little while after that. She made me promise that I would go through with attending Logan's wedding, and I made her promise that her and the rest of the guys wouldn't try to mess with Logan's bride. I kind of regretted that promise after Jo's face vanished from my computer screen.

I made my way back to the couch after my laptop was completely shut down. I picked up the invitation and read the rest of the card. I had to tell myself not to cry again when the date was only two weeks from now. Why are they in such a hurry? I asked myself. My mind went crazy coming up with reasons, was she pregnant and they wanted to get married before the baby came? I threw the card back down and ran straight to the bathroom to grab some aspirin. I can't do this to myself right now. I had my chance and I blew it. Case closed.

I spent the week arranging my schedule around the wedding. I sent back my RSVP the very next day and received my plane ticket in the mail soon after. I called Jo to make sure she'd be the one to pick me up at the airport and that it's alright I stayed with her at her apartment. She told me "Of course now shut up and call your cab already! You're going to be late!"

I rolled my eyes while saying goodbye and did as I was told. My taxi arrived 20 minutes later, I instructed the driver to go to JFK and held on for dear life as he sped into traffic. I was able to board my plane fairly easily. I pulled out my IPod and inserted my headphones in for the long journey.

I don't know how long it took me too fall asleep but pretty soon I was awoken by one of the flight attendants. Descent was in 10 minutes.

By 10:20 PM I was inside LAX and could see the blonde head of Jo searching the crowd of deboarding passengers for me. I ran up to her and crushed her in a hug.

"You're here!" She squealed excitedly in my ear.

"I'm here! And I'm exhausted!"

"What already?" She asked puzzled. "Oh yeah time difference! Sorry that's my bad."

We hurried over to the baggage carousel and spotted my luggage making its way to where we stood. I grabbed the first bag while Jo took my second. We chatted the rest of the way out of the airport and too where her car was waiting in front of the terminal.

"You guys have no idea how many times I've had to drive around this place!" Kendall gasped as soon as everything was thrown into the trunk.

"Did the paparazzi follow you guys here?" I asked.

"Not unless you count airport security as the paps," Kendall scoffed.

"I told you to park and that we'd meet you there," Jo said.

"Yeah, but Jo when have we ever known the guys to take the easy way?" I joked.

"Oh how silly of me."

The rest of the ride back to Jo's apartment was spent discussing what I had missed since I moved to New York. Big Time Rush had been signed to their 2rd record deal with Rocque records. They were currently writing for their 5th studio album. Jo had gotten her first record deal 5 years after she moved to LA. Carlos was in talks to create his own comic book series with DC and James had created his own clothing line. Kendall was the captain of a celebrity hockey team that played in charity tournaments. Katie was getting ready to go to college and Ms. Knight had become Mrs. Snyder.

"Wow I missed a lot."

"That's what happens when you don't visit," Kendall joked. Jo hit him in the arm causing him to yelp. "What was that for?"

Jo jerked her head towards where I sat in the back seat. I knew what she meant. I had avoided visiting because I didn't want to face Logan knowing I couldn't have him. Jo understood and now it seems that Kendall had gotten the hint. We rode the rest of the way in silence.

Kendall immediately hopped out of the car as soon as we got to Jo's apartment. He grabbed my two bags out of the trunk with ease and brought them up for me. I thanked him and he gave me a hug before saying goodbye to his girlfriend

I saw the look of sadness he gave me when I tried to smile for him. I guess I'm not as believable an actress as I thought.

AN: Review? Please? {lessthanthree}