I go into the bathroom to take a quick shower.
Once I get out I dry off and put on a comfortable pair of red, plaid pajama pants and a white t-shirt.
I take the razor that I had placed on the counter and I stare at it. Do I really want to do it? Sometimes yes, sometimes no... Right now? I'm not sure. Do I think I need to do it? It's probably for the best. Will I feel better after I do it? Most definitely.
I sit on the bathroom floor and place the cold razor against my left wrist. I begin to slide it across, slicing my skin. There is no turning back now.
Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip.
I watch the blood fall to the floor and suddenly nothing else matters. I feel a slight sting from where the razor sliced my wrist, but that's no big deal.
Now, I begin to feel... free. All the anger and stress I have had for the past few months just disappears.
I take the razor and place it against my other wrist. One small slice and now the blood is dripping from both of my wrists.
I lean back against the bathroom wall as I sit on the cold, tile floor.
Blood. There is so much blood all around me.
I'm beginning to feel lightheaded and my vision is becoming blurred. I'm not sure how long I've been in the bathroom, but I know its been a while.
As my vision completely fades I wonder if this is when it all ends for me. If it is the end, I don't care. It may be better this way.
I can barely hear a knock on the door. The knocking becomes louder and louder. I think someone is calling my name but I don't have the strength to respond.
"Cody!" Zack yelled in horror as he broke open the door, "Oh my God!"
Zack pulled two towels off of the towel rack and pressed them against Cody's cuts.
"Mom!" Zack screamed hysterically, "Call 911! Cody's not breathing!"
Freakishly short first chapter, I know. But I wanted a small first chapter. Next chapter will definitely be longer. Again, like my other stories, I will not be posting every day. Sometimes it may take a fully week but it's usually around 3-5 days.
So, I hope you like this first chapter and I hope you come back for more :)