Hello lovelies! Please don't throw pitchforks! I know it's been entirely too long, and the teaser I left you all with probably pissed you off. Have faith.
Real life has been crazy as usual...bad weather, work closing, sick kids... Sorry it's taken me so long to update. In addition to real life, I have 2 stories bouncing in my head that just won't leave me be. I won't be publishing either one until this one is at least almost finished, but I haven't abandoned this story! Keep me on Author Alert if you are interesting.
LEMON warning. No limes my sweets, they finally do the deed. It was really hard to write I worked for about a week on just that one part of the chapter. Enjoy :)
Oh, and Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight, I just own a lot of kids antibiotic prescriptions.
My mind was reeling as I sat on the edge of the bed. Edward's confession had freaked me out and I had practically sprinted back upstairs to the guest bedroom.
I was shocked that he suddenly knew who I was, and even more shocked that he just randomly declared he loved me. That was the last thing I would expect him to say – even though I was pretty sure I felt the same way.
"Bella you cannot just stay holed up in that room all night!"
Alice was screeching into the phone at this point, sending her already trill voice to an unbearable octave. I set my cell to speakerphone and tossed it on the bed next to me.
"Well I can't very well go back down there now, Alice. I've already humiliated myself enough for one night thank you," I huffed and leaned my head back against the headboard.
"Isabella Marie Swan get your butt down there and fix this. You are not going to hide from this! I will not allow it."
I resisted the urge to giggle at Alice's attempt to be stern with me. It's just hard to take a 5-foot pixie seriously sometimes. Why had I called her again? Right, she's my best friend. And she would have figured this out somehow and then given her orders anyway. Moving back to Forks was supposed to be a positive and progressive move in my life and so far all it had brought me was one complication after another.
My stomach started rumbling, reminding me I had just promised to make lasagna for dinner. It was time to apparently put on my big girl panties and go downstairs.
"Alice I'm going to head downstairs now so please calm down. I promised I'd make lasagna and my traitorous stomach is apparently going to insist I fulfill that promise." I relented with a sigh.
"Oh thank God! Call me as soon as you've worked things out!" she rushed out dramatically.
"Sure thing dear," I mock saluted the phone on my bed, even though she couldn't see me.
"WAIT!" she suddenly shrieked, causing me to damn near fall off the bed…again.
"Good God Alice, relax. What is it?"
"Don't bother calling me tonight; I'll call you in the morning."
It didn't really matter that I had no clue why that was so urgent, she had already hung up.
I made my way downstairs timidly, taking a bit longer than necessary to better look out for Edward. He must have gone up to his room because there was no sign of him anywhere.
I made my way to the kitchen and started pulling ingredients from the fridge. I stayed lost in my own thoughts for the better part of an hour which was never a good thing.
God, I was stupid. The man that had completely ruled my thoughts for the last 4 years, even when we were worlds apart had just told me he loved me. I was never good at facing things – I ran first and thought later – and I was terrified that I had just paid the greatest price for it.
The oven timer buzzed and I pulled the lasagna out setting it lightly on the stovetop.
Edward's voice broke me through the endless cycle of thoughts and caused me to accidentally slam the oven door.
"Bella, I think you may be the most skittish person I've ever been around," he chuckled as he moved towards me, reaching for my face.
I backed against the counter and gave a puzzled stare as his thumb traced just below my mouth.
"Sauce," he explained as he licked the sauce from his thumb.
"I'm sorry!" I blurted before I could lose my courage.
"You have nothing to be sorry for, Bella," Edward replied as he started dividing the lasagna. "I don't know what came over me, but I should be the one apologizing. I should not have come on to you so strongly like that."
"So you didn't mean it?" I asked, trying to hide the disappointment I couldn't help but feel.
"Oh no, I meant it. I could not have gone about it in a worse way, but the sentiment is true regardless. But I think this is probably not the time to talk about all of this. Why don't we go eat and see if there is a movie or something on? This smells amazing, I've always loved your lasagna," he told me while holding a plate in each hand.
Before I could have the chance to doubt myself or over think anything I reached around Edward's neck and pulled him to me, crashing my lips to his. The plates fell to the floor and shattered as Edward grabbed my ass and lifted me against him. He backed me against the fridge and we both gasped for air we needed but didn't want to take. His lips never left me and he trailed kisses down my jaw line to my ear, biting and licking along the way.
"Bella," he whispered against my ear.
"Tell me if you don't really want this," he continued, "because I'm not going to be able to stop soon."
I gasped as he bit down on my ear and wrapped my arms and legs tighter around him.
"I love you too, Edward," I admitted between moans.
I swear I heard him growl at me, before suddenly releasing me onto the floor.
"God, I'm sorry. I know you're probably confused and I just keep messing this all up." I started to babble.
Edward silenced me with a kiss, a deep kiss that had me melting and forgetting what I was sorry for in the first place. Just as I pulled my hands through his hair he pulled back and stopped kissing me.
"Bella, I put you down so we can go to my room. I'm not going to fuck you on the side of the fridge."
I felt my cheeks burn as I adjusted my clothes back to their proper places and Edward grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the stairs, the lasagna and shattered plates long forgotten. He stopped at the foot of the stairs and turned to me with hooded eyes.
"Scratch that," he began as he lifted me up bridal style sending me into a fit of giggles. "I'm not going to fuck you on the side of the fridge…yet."
His declaration immediately sent dirty visions in my mind and I was now beyond aroused…if that were even possible.
Edward sat me down on the bed and pulled my shirt up over my head, leaning me back and wasting no time trailing kisses down my chest and stomach. When he reached the edge of my pants he slid his tongue inside the seam and licked from one side to the other.
"OFF." He demanded.
He bit down on the seam of my pants and looked to my face, waiting for permission. I gave barely a nod and he pulled them down right along with my panties in one swift motion. He ran his palms under my calves and propped my legs up and apart.
I bit down on my lip as he placed wet kisses starting at my knee and working up the inside of my thigh, then licked the crease of my hip before going to the other leg and repeating the same process. By the time he got to the top of my other leg I was soaked in anticipation.
"Mmmmm," was the only response I could manage.
"Can I taste you?"
"Holy fuuuuuck." My outburst turned into a moan as I felt him taste me where and successfully fulfilling harbored fantasies years in the making. His tongue circled and swirled and before I knew it I could feel the tingles of pleasure growing stronger and stronger, waiting to burst.
He pushed two fingers inside of me, twisting and curling upwards and hitting that spot. God bless that spot. I felt the hum of pleasure continuing to build and I moaned in response, wanting to explode and yet preserve the pleasure for as long as I could.
"Come for me, beautiful." Edward murmured into my crevices and it was the last push I needed. My world exploded and my hips bucked uncontrollably as I let go and bursted with pleasure.
I calmed down after a minute and Edward started kissing back up my stomach. My ache for him had only grown stronger and I grabbed his hair and pulled him to me, yanking his mouth to mine and tasting myself on his lips.
"In. I need you inside me." I begged shamelessly into his mouth.
In one swift movement he had taken off the rest of his clothes and was perched on top of me, a masterpiece laid out just for me. I ran my nails up the muscles of his stomach, across his shoulders and down his back before resting my hands on his hips.
"Bella, I don't have protection here…I um…I haven't had a need for it."
He actually looked embarrassed while I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. I pulled him as close as I could and panted into his ear.
"I have an IUD and I'm clean…tested last fall and no one since then." I sucked his ear lobe then pulled it into my mouth, biting ever so slightly.
His body relaxed onto mine and he grazed his teeth along my jaw line.
"I'm clean. I get tested every year at the hospital; and no one since my last test." He told me as he nipped.
I did a mental fist pump and then heaved myself over so that I was on top of him, leaning forward and kissing his chest across his heart, my hair falling around my face.
He fisted my hair and pulled me to him as I slid down onto his length and we both moaned in the pleasure of him inside of me. In that moment I could feel everything he felt, and I knew without a doubt he had been wanting this as much as I had.
Edward grabbed my hips as I started to ride him slowly, locking eyes with him. I swiveled almost methodically as he used his hands to guide me in the right places. I raked my hands across his chest, marveling in the definition as I felt the pleasure coursing through my body.
Edward sat us up suddenly, pulling his arms around me and I wrapped my legs around him. Every inch of skin that could touch was touching as our bodies turned slick with sweat and he guided me up and down gently.
I closed my eyes involuntarily as the sensations because almost too much.
"Look at me Bella," his voice was a raspy whisper and I stared into endless green straight to his soul.
He put his hand between us and teased my clit with his fingers, sending me over the edge and screaming his name. As my walls clenched around him I felt his own release follow and I held onto him as if my life depended on it.
We sat like that for an unknown amount of time, as Edward kissed my neck and shoulders softly, tracing his fingertips up and down my back, completely enraptured in the moment. Eventually we got cleaned up and crawled into his bed.
"I really do love you, ya know." I told him as laid on the bed and curled into his side with my head on his chest.
"As I you." He answered simply and wrapped his arms around me.
For the first time in as long as I could remember, I slept the entire night.
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