A million years ago I ask you to send me a line of your favorite song (maybe with title and band) and a NCIS character (or characters)
Some did...and finally I'm done with some :)
Since English still isn't my native tongue I do make mistakes...but my lovely beta ncislove helped to get it right! I million thanks to her and a round of applause :)
Disclaimer: not mine...
Song request by m3g : Amazing by Areosmith (not mine either)
Did I forget something? Enjoy! R&R!
Another sleepless night in bed caused my thoughts to wander.
My existence showed a certain pattern, a pattern which includes lots of ex-wives, something I'm not proud of.
It's probably the irony of fate, that I've always picked the wrong persons to get close to.
I guess if you just look for a replacement, fate has its own way to scold you. Since I always just wanted to replace my family, try to fill the void with someone else who never could, I got lots of scolding and various scars. But the emptiness inside me never got the chance to lessen.
I kept the right ones out and let the wrong ones in
The part where I call myself an idiot has arrived, if I just had opened my eyes earlier I could have saved myself the trouble of some -I'm not going to say the number- divorces.
In the years we've known each other, I must have hurt her more than words can say, not on purpose of course but still I did.
Nevertheless she never wavered; she never stopped being there for me, showing me no matter what I did, no matter what I thought about myself, that I never was alone.
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
Often I came close to slipping, slipping into the cozy, warm, comforting looking state of insanity, especially when the pain and the guilt became too difficult to carry all alone.
Those were the times when I thought about just going away, start a new life somewhere else - I couldn't. I couldn't leave my job and my 'family' and most of all I couldn't leave Abby.
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
While I stayed, I continued to live a life that was based on a lie. Not a lie in the common sense, I just didn't tell anyone how I felt and who I really was…
At some point there came a time when it became too much to endure.
I was so sick and tired
Of livin' a lie
I wanted to tell her and I eventually did. She just listened when I told her about Shannon and Kelly and brushed the lonely tear of my cheek that left my eye without permission. Before this painful hour of truth, there often had been times I hadn't cared if the situation I had been in would take my life. More than once it was like I literally was begging for the final blow…sometimes I just hoped all would end.
I was wishin' that I
Now I'm happy I'm still among the living.
'Cause if I would have been gone, I would have missed the most incredible thing that happened to me in over 15 years.
It was like a wakeup call, one you could simply not ignore. On the contrary it was life changing. To be honest it had crossed my mind once or twice especially during the time in Mexico, but since I never wanted to hurt her, and since I didn't think I would ever go back, I tried to free my mind of those dreams with her in my arms.
A night full of those images always left a bittersweet feeling when I opened my eyes in the morning.
On the other hand, I preferred those sometimes all too vivid breathtaking images over the other all too vivid painful memories which haunted me just as much in a rather unpleasant way.
I sighed and rolled to my side.
When it had come to Abby I couldn't have let my desire dominate myself.
I just didn't want to hurt her and I was sure sooner or later I would hurt her again…But now, this very moment I'm so happy that I was proved wrong…
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
When I came home from my early retirement I hadn't expect to be welcomed with open arms, not by her. Not by the woman who had suffered so much the few months prior, because of me.
Sure we talked over the phone at least three times a week, but when I left I knew I caused pain.
Abby wouldn't be Abby if she hadn't me welcomed home, no accusations just an invitation into a hug.
That's what she did, my 'angel of mercy' hugged me close, actually hugged me with so much energy that my ribs screamed for help.
But I didn't care much, because something that had been missing fell into place and I returned the embrace with just as much enthusiasm.
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
I heard rustling of fabric moving against itself and felt movement. To be precise I felt a body shifting closer pressing itself against my back, causing me to lose focus of my train of thought.
A pleasant shiver ran through my body before my thoughts drifted towards Tony.
Lately my younger co-worker had a lot to chew on.
Even though I never would tell him it into his face or to anyone or write it down or whatever…
I honestly hoped and prayed he would be someday having the same luck I have with the woman he loves.
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
Warm fingers moved over my side onto my chest, drawing tender circles as they traced the way across my skin.
It wasn't before her warm and loving lips brushed against the bare skin of my shoulder blade I spoke up.
"I love you Abby."
Another kiss followed while her caressing continued.
"I love you too." With that she snuggled closer and nestled her face against my back.
A content sigh escaped her lips before she drifted off to sleep.
I followed not much later.
What do you think...?
next will be 'Just like a woman'-Bob Dylan requested PT21
I'm still open for request