Learning to Love: This is my first Twilight fanfic and will be a two part (at least that is the plan for now), enjoy!
Renesmee's point of view:
I fidgeted as I watched the trees zoom by while my father drove into town. I became more and more anxious as we grew closer to school. This was my first time going to a public school and I had no idea what to expect. I didn't know if people would accept me or if I would make friends. I liked my family but I wanted to make some normal human friends and feel like a girl my age would.
"You'll be fine Renesmee," my father said glancing up in the rearview mirror.
I hope you are right dad I thought.
"There is nothing to worry about dear," mom said turing around in the front seat and patting my hand, "After a few days you'll get into the routine of things."
"Thanks mom," I said smiling trying to calm my fears.
Dad pulled up to the school and I eyed the tall buildings as I stepped out of the car. In the space next to ours Uncle Emmett and Jasper and Aunt Alice and Rosalie stepped out of Uncle Emmett's jeep. Uncle Emmett winked at me as Aunt Rosalie gave me a smile as they walked towards the office. Aunt Alice linked her arm with me as we started walking towards the school as well.
I felt Uncle Jasper's calming waves run through me as we stepped into the office which I was grateful for. Uncle Emmett and Aunt Rosalie already had their schedules in hand and made their way to their class while walking hand in hand.
I stepped up the office window with my dad, and I rehearsed the story of us being siblings rather than father/daughter in my mind.
"Edward and Renesmee Mason," he told the receptionist giving her a small smile.
"Here you are dears," handing us a piece of paper each, but she didn't take her eyes off my dad.
"Thank you," I said in a small voice.
I turned to give the rest of my family room to get their schedules as I eyed my own. I had English first something that I was good at.
"Do you want me to walk you to class?" dad asked low enough for human ears to miss.
"No, that's alright," I told him, "I'd kind of like to do this on my own."
"Are you sure?" he asked.
"Yes dad," I said.
"If you are sure," he said.
"You know I'm starting to think I should have gone to kindergarten for a week so we could get past leaving your kid at school thing," I said dryly.
"Funny," he said rolling his eyes.
"I'll see you later," I told him as I waved to my parents before heading out of the office.
The school luckily was small so I found my first class quickly and was directed to a seat by the teacher. My seat was next to a skinny girl with long brown hair. She was looking down at her hands while the rest of the class interacted with each other. I watched the rest of the class while gathering my courage to talk to the girl next to me.
Just as I was about to say hi to the girl the teacher started the class. I listened intently throughout the whole class as she talked, enjoying the topic of Romeo and Juliet. After the class was over I gathered my courage to talk to the girl next to me as she packed up her things while keeping her eyes on the floor.
"Hi I'm Renesmee," I said.
The girl looked up with wide eyes and hesitating, "I'm Lauren," she said meekly.
"I'm new here," I said as I pulled out my schedule, "Could you show me where my next class is?"
"Sure," she said looking down at her feet, "What do you have next?"
"Um history with Robins," I said.
"That class is right next to mine," she said as we made our way to the door.
We walked quietly as Lauren continued to look at her feet. We quickly came to our next classes.
"I'll see you after class," I said giving her a small smile.
"Sure," she said looking a little surprised.
I walked into my history class which didn't go as quickly or was enjoyable as English was. I finished my class. I walked out hoping to find Lauren but she wasn't in site. I found my next classes on my own and before I knew it I was walking into the cafeteria. I looked around the huge room to see if any of my family members were there.
I spotted several people I recognized from my classes as I made my way to a table where no one else was sitting before I saw Lauren eating at a table by herself. I quickly made my way over to her.
"Is it alright if I sat with you," I asked.
"I don't mind," she said looking a little surprised at the fact that I was talking to her.
"Do you have any other friends sitting with you," I said hoping to start a conversation with her.
"I usually eat alone," she said.
"Oh," I said trying to think of something to say.
"May we sit with you guys," Alice said smiling ear to ear.
"Sure," I said, "Lauren this is my foster sister Alice and my foster brother Jasper."
"It's nice to meet you," Alice said and Jasper nodded at her.
"Nice to meet you too," she said.
Alice and I started to ask her questions and after a few moments she started to seem more relaxed, I'm sure she had some help from Uncle Jasper's special power. After lunch Lauren and I had the same two classes before the end of the day. After our last class was over we walked out to the parking lot.
"Do you take the bus home?" I asked.
"No I usually walk," she said, "It's not far from here.
"Oh maybe my brother can give you a lift," I told her.
"I wouldn't want to give Jasper any trouble," she said.
"Well my other brother," I said, it was still strange calling dad my brother.
"How many siblings do you live with," she asked.
"Well there is Alice, Rosaline, Bella, Jasper, Edward, and Emmett," I told her, "Oh and Jacob, Seth, Embry, Quil and Leah and some of their other friends who are more of friends of the family."
"Wow you're foster parents must like kids," she said.
"They are really great people," I told her.
"Hello Renesmee," I heard my father's voice say behind me.
"Hey da…Edward," I said turning to face him to find him and my mom standing holding hands.
"How was your day?" mom asked.
"Great," I said smiling big, "This is Lauren, we have three classes together. Can we give her a ride home?"
Please daddy, please I thought I can really see myself being friends with her.
"Sure," he said nodding and giving Lauren a curious glance.
Lauren quietly slid into my parent's back seat looking down at her hands once again and I hoped that I would get to know the girl behind the shell. I asked Lauren questions as we got closer to her house which turned out to be a small one story around ten minutes drive from school.
"Thanks for taking me home," she said quietly before she got out of the car, "I'll see you tomorrow."
"See you tomorrow," I said before Lauren closed the door.
We drove in silence as my dad drove faster than he did on the way to Lauren's house.
"She's nice," I said quietly.
"A little quiet," mom commented, "But I like her."
"She has some interesting thoughts," dad said, "Almost as if she's from a different time."
"Hmm," I said thinking of my new friend and before I knew it we pulled into the driveway of out new house.
I stepped out and my eyes quickly feel upon my best friend standing on the porch giving me a big smile. I made my way over to him and gave him a big hug.
"I missed you," I told him.
"I missed you too Nessie," Jacob said pulling away but keeping his arms around my waist, "How was school?"
"Good," I told him, "I made a new friend."
"I'm glad," he said.
He took my hand and pulled me towards the house, butterflies filled my stomach as he kept my hand in his. It had been only a few weeks since we told each other of our feelings and reaching the final stage of being imprints. I put my bag down on my bed and plopped down as Jacob sat on the chair near my desk.
"So are you going to tell me about school?" he said grinning and my breath was taken away from his smile.
"Um, it was good," I told him before I launched in my day at school and making what I hoped was a new friend.
"See you'll be fine in school nothing for you to worry about," he told me.
Easy for you to say I told him after putting my hand on his cheek you didn't even have to finish school.
"True," he said putting his hand on top of mine keeping my hand on his cheek.
I sent him images of joy that I got from him holding my hand on his cheek.
"I enjoy it too," he said leaning in and kissing me gently on the lips.
I felt my face grow warm before he pulled away.
"Nessie, Jacob dinner!" we heard grandma call from down stairs.
We walked down stairs once again hand in hand where we found all of my family members as well as Seth and Leah eating dinner with us. We talked and laugh and I felt glad to have such an amazing family.
Lauren's point of view:
I watched the Volvo drive out of site amazed that so many people had actually been nice to me; it was almost like having friends. I knew it was to good to last, it always was. It always seemed like someone tried to befriend me every so often but the friendship (if you could call it that) would cease to exist after a few weeks as if they knew what I really was, a freak. I sighed turning away from the window and with a wave of my hand the blinds closed and with another wave of my hand the radio turned on.
I started on my homework before starting on dinner. As it cooked I let my thoughts drift over my history. I had always been…different and I always knew it from the time I was little. I was born in the 1950's and had stopped aging when I was 16. My parents had passed away when I was 17 due to old age.
Luckily I was well off enough that I could support myself for some time. But I was lonely and I kept myself isolated away from others because I didn't want them to know about my powers. I was sure that there were more people out there like me who also had supernatural abilities. I always got an uneasy feeling when I thought about it that there were others out there like me and that some, I was sure, may see me as unique and would try and hurt me.
I brushed those thoughts aside as I ate dinner, watched TV, and went to bed. I woke up early the next morning and went to school. The next week flew by and to my amazement I found myself growing closer to Renesmee instead of us drifting apart. It seems that the Cullen's foster children were just as different as I was but they seemed to be the only people that I felt truly comfortable around.
"So would you like to come over to my place tonight," Renesmee asked as we walked to our last class of the day on Friday.
"Are you sure," I said, "I don't want to be a bother."
"You won't be a bother," she said, "I already asked Esme; she'd love to have you."
"If you are sure," I said.
"I'm sure Lauren," she told me, "You were my first friend here and I'd love you to meet the rest of my family. You'll also get to meet Jacob and some of his friends."
"That would be great," I said as an uneasy feeling swept through me.
"You alright," she asked me.
"Yeah…"I said speaking quietly and down at my feet, "Not sure they will like me."
"Why wouldn't they like you?" Renesmee asked, "I like you."
"I know," I said, "I just…I just don't fit in well with other people."
I looked back up at her face to see her with a particular expression on her face.
"What?" I asked, "Did I say something?"
"No," she said as she avoided my eyes, "Just thought of something."
"You girls ready to go," I heard Renesmee's brother's voice behind me say.
"Sure thing d…Edward," Renesmee said.
The car ride home was quiet as Edward drove us to their house. We pulled up to a large white house that had many large windows in it.
"Your house is beautiful," I whispered to Renesmee.
"Thanks," she whispered back.
Standing on the porch was a tall Native American man with broad chest and shoulders, he had a big smile on his face and he kept his eyes on Renesmee. This must be Jacob I thought. Renesmee had told me that she had a unique relationship with their family friend, Jacob, but I hadn't imagined it to be like this. I hope someone will look at me like that I thought since I had been alone for too long since my parents had passed.
Renesmee gave Jacob a quick hug before turning back to me.
"Lauren," she said, "This is Jacob."
"Nice to meet you," I said quietly.
"You too," he said shaking my hand, I noticed his hand was unnaturally warm, "Nessie told me a lot about you."
"You too," I said giving him a small smile.
I walked into their house amazed at how spacious the living area was. I saw a woman that looked to be in her late twenties to early thirties walking down the stairs.
"You must be Lauren," she said smiling at me gently.
I nodded as she came down the stairs, I felt instantly calm around her and she reminded me of my own mother in many ways.
"I'm Esme," she said shaking my hand as well, and I noticed how cold her hands were.
What is up with people and their body temperatures being so abnormal? I thought.
"We are just going to study," Renesmee said, "and then we will be down for dinner."
"That sounds nice," Esme said smiling at the both of us, "I'm sure it won't be long, you know how hungry the boys get."
"Of course," Renesmee said rolling her eyes.
Renesmee and I walked up to her bedroom and started on our homework as we talked quietly while we worked.
"So you and Jacob are a lot closer than I thought," I said.
"Yeah we've been close ever since I…we were young," she said a light blush coming to her cheeks, "My grandpa is friends with his dad and I've known him ever since I was born."
"So are you two…together," I said.
"Sort of," she told me.
"But he seem so much older than you," I said.
"People have told me that I look older than I am," Renesmee said avoiding my eyes.
We continued to work in silence before Esme called us down for dinner. We walked down stairs and into the large dining room that was filled with many people. Half of them I knew from school. The other half were males that looked similar in build to Jacob. Many were already scooping food onto their plates; I did notice that the only ones that were eating were Jacob and the men who looked similar to him.
Jacob smiled as Renesmee walked into the room and I couldn't help feel a pang of loneliness once again. I sat to the left side of Renesmee as Jacob sat on her other side. I took a little of everything and found that is delicious.
"This is wonder food," I said quietly to Esme who was sitting next me.
"Thank you dear," she said, "I've had a lot of practice cooking for everyone."
"Where is Embry," a boy across from Jacob asked.
"He's…"Jacob said looking sideways at me before looking back again, "He's taking a run still, he should be back soon, he knows we are having dinner around now and he doesn't miss out on Esme's food."
We ate as everyone talked with each other, it was nice to be around so many people and I felt comfortable with them just like I was with Renesmee.
"Oh good dinner is ready," a male voice said from the door way.
I looked up to see a Native American man who was broad and tall, but not as tall as the other males in the room. He started to walk towards his chair when our eyes met and he stopped in his tracks. His mouth opened and closed several times making him look like a goldfish.
Oh gosh he knows about my secret I thought.
"Oh no Embry not you too," said Seth, who's name I had picked up from conversations.
"Seth," Jacob said in a low warning voice.
I was surprised to see Seth turn back to his food as Embry, I had guessed from the person they had mentioned earlier sat across from me. I looked down at my plate and I could feel the weight of his stare on me still and I shifted in place. I looked back up at him and I was drawn to what I saw there in his eyes. They were kind and gentle, and it was almost like what I saw when Jacob looked at Renesmee.
Conversations around us have started up again but I hardly noticed and I felt as if everything had changed now and I knew it had to do with Embry. I twisted my hands in my lap as I kept sneaking glances up at Embry. He started eating but didn't take his eyes off of me, I felt uncomfortable by his stare but happy at the same time. After dinner Renesmee and I helped clear the table.
"So what is up with Embry," I whispered.
"Um, I don't think I'm the right person to explain that," she said, "You should ask him."
"I don't think I could…I mean how I am supposed to ask him?" I whispered loudly hoping that no one hear me, "I mean what would I say…"
"I know it's confusing," she said quietly, "But…but he'll tell you everything."
"Alright," I whispered as we finished cleaning up.
We turned to go back to her room to see Jacob and Embry standing by the kitchen door way. Jacob had guarded eyes and Embry had the similar look in his eyes as before.
I swallowed hard as Renesmee said "We'll let you two talk."
"Alright," Embry muttered as Jacob and Renesmee walked past Embry.
I felt rooted to the spot and time stood still as we looked at each other.
From Embry's point of view:
I pulled on my cloths and took a deep breath smelling Esme's cooking from outside. I also smelled a different, new scent that I hadn't ever smelled before. I walked towards the dining room where I could hear the chatter of the Cullen's and the pack. I walked towards the dinning room glad to be done with my shift.
"Oh good dinner is ready," I said stepping into the room.
I looked up into the room and saw a girl sitting next to Nessie and my whole life changed. I felt myself being pulled to her, into her eyes. I saw fear enter them and I felt concern. I wanted to protect her and care for her. I had felt the feeling of imprinting second hand from others but it was different experiencing it firsthand.
"Oh no Embry not you too," Seth said loudly breaking my trance from my imprint.
I was aware of all of the eyes on me but I didn't care, and I took my seat which was luckily right across from her. I didn't think I could stand being away too far away from her. I studied her as I ate not tasting anything I put into my mouth. She looked down at her hand and snuck glances up at me.
I could tell she wasn't used to my attention and that she seemed to be insecure by it. I hoped to be the one build that confidence and to show her how much she was worth. Dinner finished quickly and I watched her start to help Renesmee clear the table and started towards me and when Jacob stopped me.
"Let's talk outside," he said.
I followed him outside knowing he wanted to talk to me before I could go back inside and not leave her again.
"What do you think I should say to her," I asked.
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about," Jacob said, "Renesmee has told me a lot about her and she seems very insecure and is very shy. I may be best to take it slow with her."
"I'll do whatever she needs me to do," I said.
"I know you will," Jacob said, "its part of being an imprint."
We walked back inside and walked toward the kitchen where Renesmee was finishing up dishes with my angel. They were talking quietly with their heads bent towards each other, Jacob and I stood back letting them finish their conversation. They turned towards us and the room fell silent. I couldn't take my eyes off of her.
"We'll let you two talk," Renesmee said, her and Jacob left the room.
We stared at each other for a few moments before I found my voice.
I'm going to hate to leave it here but look for the next part soon!