Disclaimer: If I owned RvB, then I'd probably make Tucker/Tex cannon.
Yo! Zephyr here. This is the shortest fanfic I've EVER written. I tried to make it a lot longer (up to my standard of seven pages) but it didn't feel right. Most of it was just filler and unnecessary, so I kept it short.
So this is kind of a sort of conversation-fic between Tucker and Tex. As a note, this is EXTREMELY OOC. It was interesting to write Tucker like this. This was heavily inspired by "Everywhere" by Michelle Branch. I think that's about everything so...let the deadly tale begin!
I don't know what I'm meant to do anymore. I watch you all the time, but I always see the same thing.
You're with him. Him and not me.
Do you even notice me, Tex? And I don't mean 'noticing' like acknowledging my existence.
Do you notice that I'm watching you?
You're always with Church. Always with him. I don't really see you two away from each other.
And I don't know how I feel about that.
I can't get away from you, either. Everything I see and most of the things I do remind me of you. Watching The Nightmare on Elm Street reminds me of the time when you and I stayed up until four in the morning watching horror movies. Whenever I watch Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, I remember the time when you, Church and I spent an entire week playing all of the Final Fantasy games in succession and you and I had a contest to see who could beat Sephiroth the fastest.
Every time I see a map of the United States and I see Texas, I think of you. Anytime I hear the name Allison, you're the first thing that comes across my mind.
No. You're not a thing. You're a person.
And I've completely fallen for you.
But you don't seem to notice and that's what bothers me the most. It's not that you don't feel the same way. I've dealt with that before. I can handle it.
It's that you don't seem to notice how I feel, how hard it is for me to see you with him.
I think I'm really obvious and it hurts that you can't see how hard I'm trying to hide it.
I don't know why I'm bothering to hide it, actually. It's not like you're ever going to notice.
You're never going to notice as long as Church is around. As long as you're with him, things are never going to change.
I just want to know how you can't notice that I'm obviously taken with you. I completely change when you're around, though I know that I need to tone it down when Church is around.
I look away every time your eyes meet mine. I flinch every time our hands brush together whenever we're making dinner and I reach over to grab whatever is near you.
I'm sure Church was the same way before you two started going out. You knew what the signs meant in him.
So why can't you see what they mean in me?
I've tried to ignore what I feel. I've blamed my feelings on everything that I can think of. I figured that it was just because I wasn't with anyone and you were the only woman in the entire canyon. I thought that these feelings would go away.
But they haven't. If anything, they've intensified.
I can't do anything about it, either. I know that going out with someone else won't be the same.
Because she could never be you. I can never find anyone else like you,
There's just one thing I want to know, Tex. There's one thing I want you to tell me if you won't tell me anything else.
Will you ever see me?
My GOD Tucker's emo. I didn't intend on him being this bad. *sigh* I apologize if this doesn't make a whole lot of sense. I wrote this up in about an hour because I wanted to get this idea down while it was still fresh in my head. At any rate, thanks for reading! Reviews equal love!